I don't usually post oneshots here as it is an art book XD But I tried a new style of writing and not many people read my "Writing Practise" book, so I was hoping if anyone has time, could they have a read through and give me an opinion?
Please don't feel obligated to do it! I don't mind either way :3
The oneshot is from Obey Me, which is a dating game(?)
P.S MINOR SPOILERS TO SOMETIME AFTER LESSON 15 (I think?). Also Arabella has this thing where she whispers "Ara ara" or just "Ara" when she's flustered or embarrassed or even just surprised. And yes that is why I chose "Arabella" as her name. XD I don't have a design for Ari yet but I'll make one once my graphics tablet pen is working.
Below is Asmodeus, the male who is mentioned in the oneshot.
Out of everything you could've told me, you tell me you love me. You, the Avatar of Lust. You are the pinnacle of Narcissism, considering yourself the most beautiful being to walk through the Devildom.
And you, in your drunken state, said you considered me, above all else, even yourself. What do you want me to say?
Of course I love you too. Of course I want to kiss you, I want you to hold me in your arms, whispering gently that I was yours forever.
But that's not how we can be.
I took a deep breath, knocking gently on your door, biting my lip as I consider what I am supposed to say to you. My hand holding your teacup begins to quiver as you groan a quiet "come in".
A part of me wanted to run from you. Just leave for the human world without saying goodbye, to deal with the thumping of my broken heart for the rest of my life, all alone. But without you...
I entered your room, embracing the fresh scent of roses that always made me feel so welcome and calm. But I wasn't sure that they would help this time.
You looked at me through half lidded eyes, smiling gently as I walked across your marble floor, my heels were the only thing shattering the silence.
Your bare chest gently rose and fell as you watched my every move. I couldn't stop the bright cherry of my face as I remembered what you had told me months prior to this moment.
Oh, before I forget, I should mention as a rule, I sleep au naturel.
I really should've rethought coming to your room when you literally just got up. But something about the allure of seeing you in the morning was simply irresistible.
"I'm sorry, did I wake you?" I ask, my usual soft tone caused you to sigh happily, seemly content with my presence.
"I don't mind if it's you, darling..." Your voice was slightly hoarse, although you still gently winked at me.
Something about you saying 'Darling' in that tone made me feel strange-- a good strange. I couldn't help but whisper "Ara, ara..." under my breath as I sat on the edge of your soft bed.
You smiled at me, raising your body up and gently grabbing my chin, making me look into your perfect eyes.
"Why don't you speak up, baby doll?" Your face was so close, close enough that I felt your breath on my lips. I couldn't help but again mutter:
"Ara, ara..." I didn't want to look away from your gorgeous eyes, the beautiful yellow and orange hues with that pale pink.
My heart began beating heavily against my ribcage as you bit down on your lip seductively. An invite, I suppose. Perhaps an attempt to resist temptation?
I raise the cup of tea up to your face, praying the warm glow in my cheeks would hurry up and disappear.
"Thank you, hun." You happily took the cup from me, taking a long sip and contently sighing afterwards. Just the way you liked it.
"How's your head?" I questioned quietly, pressing the back of my palm onto your forehead. You winced slightly but gave a small smile, trying to reassure me you was fine. But I still doubted.
"I'm fine, honey, besides, this is just what the doctor ordered~" You warmly smiled at me as he raised the now empty cup but I didn't return it this time. I was working up the courage. The courage to finally be honest with you.
"Um...Azzy?" I called hesitantly, you sensing a serious moment quickly put the cup down on the bedside table and gave all your attention to me. You always took me seriously. "Can I just..." My fingers shakily made their way to your cheeks, making your brows raise in shock and confusion.
"Ari...?" You whisper my nickname so softly, I can't help but embrace what I've been wanting to do for so long with a little more confidence then I had before.
Just one simple kiss. You can do it Ari...
I softly pressed a gentle kiss to your lips, holding there for a few seconds before moving back slightly. You were in deeper shock.
"I love you too..." I whispered, gently pressing my forehead to yours and keeping my eyes glued on your marvelous orbs. "I wasn't going to kiss you while you were drunk..." I giggled lightly, trying to play calm as I inwardly celebrated my confidence.
You didn't process it at first. Usually, you were the one to do the kissing first. You admit, however, that you love the feeling of being kissed in the morning.
But after a minute or so of silently staring at eachother, you pulled me in for another kiss. Your lips felt so incredibly soft.
Things shortly got heated between us. What was meant to be just a small kiss was turning into us locking tongues as your hands roamed every inch of my body.
We pulled away again but instead of staring at each other, you gently pinned me down to your bed, your eyes filled with lust. You again began to lean down, this time peppering my skin with soft butterfly kisses, everywhere that was visible.
"W-Wait." I mustered gently, putting my hands on his soft bare chest. You did as I asked and I felt my despair grow in my stomach as I knew what I had to do. What I originally came to do.
"First time, hun? Don't worry, I promise to be--"
"No...It's not that...This just...This isn't how I planned this out..." You grew quiet, waiting for me to continue as I crawled out from underneath you. "I came to tell you how I felt...And..."
"And...?" You pressed as I grew quiet, trying to figure out the right words to tell you. I could only sigh and take your hand gently in mine. I'm trying so hard to ignore the fact that you didn't bother fixing your blanket to cover himself...
"Love...Is a precious thing to most humans." I started, unable to really look at you without feeling an intense wave of sadness. "Sometimes it lasts forever and sometimes it's only temporary. I would only be with someone if I knew our relationship would last..." You knew where I was going with this.
"B...But I..." Your free hand began clenching on your knee as I spoke. I could hear your heart breaking. You were holding back so much pain and I felt the same. But I remained strong. For both of us.
"I don't doubt that you were being sincere when you told me you loved me yesterday." I carried on, every word, cutting into my heart and telling me that I deserved this for doing it to you. "I saw in your eyes you were being honest. And I never lied when I said I loved you." I gently let go of your hand, setting my own carefully on my thighs.
"But then...Why...?" Tears began gathering in your eyes, causing a wave of guilt to crash directly onto me, wishing I had just waited until you had the energy to wave me off and pretend it was nothing.
"Because you're the avatar of Lust, Asmo." It was direct but you needed to hear it. And I needed to say it. "I can't expect you to hold in your desires just because I'm not around. It's literally against your nature."
"I-I could try! I-I could--" Your tears now freely fell down your perfect face, sorrow and insecurity surrounding your heart.
I couldn't help but tear up with you. I've never seen such sorrow on your face. But there was no words I could say to offer your poor heart when I could barely comfort mine. Nothing to be said, nothing to be done.
"And honestly..." I began again, allowing myself to be honest with both you and me. "I...I'm not entirely sure that I can handle when you finally get bored of me. When you move on to your next lover..." My voice began breaking as my throat tightened around my voice box but I tried to remain or at least seem strong, even if I weren't.
"Who said I'd ever get bored of you? I love you and I love being around you." You asked me, shakily wiping the tears from your eyes. But more took their place. I said nothing, instead I looked away, getting ready to leave. I've said what I've had to. You took my hand in yours before I could leave. "Ari, please..."
"...Satan and I talked after he put you to bed...But I am not blind either..." I said quietly, pulling my hand from yours and proceeded out the door of your room. (Satan is also a character, I don't mean the devil, even tho they are devils XD)
Once out of your room, I let out a shaky breath and leaned against your door, my heart in my throat as I finally let my tears out.
I wanted to run back in there and apologise to you so much. But...I had to stand by my decision. I had to stick to my choice until I was ready to trust you that much. More than I do already.
I decided to head to my room to get ready to go to school. After all, I was going to walk to RAD with Simeon and Luke today and Luke hates it when I'm late.
(Simeon and Luke are Angel's. I want a man like Simeon so much, he's so innocently hot 🤤)
(Fuck me, I wish he was datable XD)
I just pray that Asmo will be alright. And the others don't question whether we have been crying or not.