“A little… it’s going to hurt a little.”
The movements from his fingers finally halted after some time, to which felt like eternity to Lisa. In her limp tiredness, she took a long exhale, her rigid body couldn’t resist any longer. Jungkook took ahold of her clothes and pushing one arm under her waist, lifted it above her head.
Their hot bodies made contact. Only then did she realize that his skin, as well as hers, was slick with sweat.
The man’s back glistened gold in the dim lighting. It suddenly occurred to thought that she was sneaking into a blacksmith’s forge and saw a golden statue. Would this be the sight when you pour boiling liquid from the furnace over a body? her thoughts echoed unanswered as her whole body melted, feeling as if it was drowned into a pot of gold.
“Breathe. Take a long breath.”
He whispered roughly in her ears, incomprehensible to fully understand in the moment as her back trembled upon his touch on her skin. In an unconscious effort, she spread her legs and clung for life to the man’s hard forearms. Then his lower body sank heavily between her parted legs.
“Ack!”
The dull pain came before realization of what was happening dawned in. Lisa struggled fruitlessly with fear as the man trapped her underneath him with their locked lips. She was unable to escape; her heart was crushed against his strong chest as he pushed deeper into her body. She could only cry, raking her fingernails without mercy all over his forearm.
“Oh, it hurts… it hurts…” she howled.
“It’s because you’re too narrow…”
Tepid sweat trickled down from his neck and fell over her face. As she unconsciously bent her body to get out of the pain, he shivered faintly and firmly grabbed her waist with both hands. Deep wrinkles were set in his forehead as he did so.
“Please… stay still…” an unexpected plea came from his lips.
But Lisa was only swallowed by the intense agony that wracked her body.
“It, it hurts… it hurts…!”
“Don’t move, please… ugh!”
She could feel the man’s body shivering and for a moment, she stopped breathing. He hugged her waist, his hold tight on her that she felt she was going to break and began to move as if he could no longer bear it anymore. She groaned at the sharp pain that came.
Every time his body shifted; her own body shook like a helpless boat on a raging river. Her mind grew more and more muddy as time ticked by. What are you doing to me? The sheets she clenched with her hands felt as if it were on the verge of tearing.
“Oh, darn…”
Lisa couldn’t fathom how much time had elapsed before he uttered a strangled cry and drooped over her. He breathed hard under her body, billows of hot steam rising in the process. The man’s shoulders still moved erratically as with his heaving. As she noticed all this, a strange sense of loss struck Lisa. She looked up at the ceiling blankly, her eyelids shaking.
***
What just happened?
“Why… are you crying?”
Only after being questioned by the man did Lisa realized tears were falling from her lids. As she tried to hide her face in a hurry, she felt his moist tongue run over her cheek. She instantly tried to turn her face away. But this only led him to clasp her face and grasp it so that she wouldn’t be able to escape him.
“Don’t avoid me.”
An intense, incomprehensible gaze bore to her from his dark eyes, and it made goose bumps erupt on the skin of her back. As he said this, he placed his lips over her temples and cheekbones wet with tears.
“You’re my wife now. Like it or not, there’s no turning back.”
Then he pulled her hair and forced a kiss. Repeatedly, she had to accept helplessly.
Time passed without her knowledge…
That fateful night, she couldn’t count how many times they repeated it.
After losing consciousness, she woke up past noon. By then he had already left for the expedition, and the nanny told her that the priest had identified the virgin blood on the bed and announced that their marriage was successful. Such was the rite of passage for marriage.
That was all that happened between them. She lost her virginity to him, and he left for the Lexos Mountains on behalf of Duke Cross. Never had it occur to Lisa that they were a couple.
She felt the same on this moment when they finally faced each other after years…
Lisa mustered her courage to look towards the man filled with eyes she could only fathom to be filled with enmity. Her father’s voice echoed persistently in her ears like a haunting melody, “Make it clear to Calypse that you can’t annul your marriage! Once again, if you insult the family, you’ll pay heavily!”
But her lips only clung tightly to one another as if an invisible glue were applied on it. What should I say? To her, she was just another intimidating man but her husband.
“Stop trembling!”
The man suddenly raised his voice, making her step away reflexively out of fear. As soon as her foot touched backward, the man came closer, his muscles visibly straining from tension.
“Stop looking at me as if you’ve seen a disgusting thing! Am I some kind of despicable monster to you?” Jungkook’s words unexpectedly caught her off guard.
“I, I…”
Jungkook cast her a fierce glance, only to sweep his hair a moment later from exasperation. Lisa eyes dimmed; in less than five minutes of their reunion he was already displeased. And to think she still had to persuade him to reconsider a divorce.
Her lips were trembling against her will. Please, just say something. She urged herself in silence.
“I, I… it’s just… I’m s-so, so nervous… wha-I d-don’t know what to say…”
She could feel her cheeks burn and the unmistakable burning pain in her eyes that signaled her incoming tears. But she couldn’t make him see that, to cry like a child in front of him. Desperation clawed at her immediately.
“I d-don’t think y-you are a monster, a monster, not a thought… I, I, I’m nervous… yes… huh, trembling, stop…”
Her tongue didn’t listen more than usual. She felt intense humiliation and couldn’t bear to look him in the face anymore. It was too much of a feat in the first place; it was impossible for her to persuade him when she could not even speak properly.
Lisa bowed her head instead, the blush from her cheeks travelling all the way to the tip of her ears. She might as well keep her mouth shut, she mused dismally. A mature woman wouldn’t stutter like fool. In the end, she felt as if she were standing naked in front of him.
“Shit…”
Her shoulders flinched at the gentle voice that contrasted with the curse word. Her father was right, no man in the continent would ever want her as a wife. How could she even dare ask this man to refuse to marry a daughter of royalty, who was miles better than her?
The helplessness that surged afterward did little to keep the tears at bay. At that moment, she felt the touch of cold skin on her cheek and was instantly frightened. A hand wearing the hard iron gloves used by the knights held her face with an uncanny tenderness.
“Open your mouth,” he mumbled, almost too soft for her to hear.
Lisa didn’t understand what was going on and stared blankly at Jungkook’s dark eyes like night in front of her. The man sighed, as if his patience was being tested. Then he slightly lowered her chin, forcing her lips to part.
Soon, he deftly moved his hot tongue inside her mouth. Lisa caught his arm in surprise, and she thought the man mumbled irritably because of it.
He bit her lips, yet another startling remark coming from him. “Fuck… I should have taken my armor off first…”
Lisa couldn’t come to her senses; she was unable to understand what was happening out of the blue. Her thoughts still hazy, Jungkook pushed her back. From where they were standing awkwardly, the next moment they were resting on sofa, with him stooping on one knee next to her thigh. With practiced ease, he flung his gauntlet off in one motion.
His long, hard fingers that slipped out of the silver gloves softly wrapped around her face. Instinctively, she grabbed at him by the hem of his clothes. Without another second, he locked his lips with her again, taking off the gloves on his other hand. His now free hand wounded into her hair, his hot palm squeezing her head nearer him.
His tongue scoured her mouth ferociously, not sparing her teeth or tongue from his onslaughts. With his every move, Lisa found herself out of breath. When she felt dizziness descend from the lack of oxygen, she finally pushed his chest out, and the man nibbled on her bottom lip.
“Just a little more…”
Her heart throbbed at his low voice. His hot hand once again pressing against the back of her back impatiently and moving past her face and neck to settle on her chest. As she twisted away in embarrassment, he pulled her back and made her lie on the sofa. Without the least hesitancy, he pulled her skirt down, exposing her skin to the cool air.
“Ju, Jungkook…!” Lisa cried out.
Having already experienced it one time, she was immediately aware of what was his actions meant. Lisa stared at the door of the drawing room in puzzlement. She could only think fervently, what is he doing in broad daylight, in the drawing room of all places, where anyone can go in and out freely?
But it seemed that the man didn’t care about propriety at all. He dived for her neck in urgency, tracing kisses on her skin as he pressed his hardened body between her legs. Lisa let out a surprised shriek. Whenever the man slowly rubbed himself on her, his protective gear wrapped around his thick thighs grazed her legs, the touch of cool metal making her skin erupt in goosebumps.
Lisa felt embarrassment at the intimacy she couldn’t stand and shut her lids tightly. Suddenly, Jungkook leaped up, hurriedly covering her almost nakedness with his large cloak.
Only then did she realize that there was someone watching them.
A man dressed like Jungkook stood stiffly outside the door with a perplexed face.
“What are you peeking at like a rat!” Jungkook bellowed at once.