Taeyong sneakily got inside the building and made his way to Jaehyuns apartment . Who wasn't there at all but who cares ? Not Taeyong because he knows the passcode of the olders house and Jaehyun will never scold him for barging in without permission.
He brought foods from his sister's house because knowing Jaehyun , he did t eat homemade food for so long.
Taeyong also brought some comfortable clothes. So he changed quickly and started unpacking the foods.
After a long day shooting for kpop idols tolerating their company's tantrums , Jaehyun came back home . He was running out of cigarettes so he bought a whole cartoon .
He unlocked the door and felt someones presence Inside the apartment . He dropped his things silently and went to the kitchen where he heard a sweet humming and delicious smell coming from.
A petite body wearing shorts and oversized t-shirt was doing something. It took no time for Jaehyun to know who he was.
" Taeyong... What are you doing in here ?"
" Ahh Hyung..."
Taeyong turned and smiled at the older.
No makeup. Full bare face . His little spots and pink blushes are showing . His eye bangs and dark circles were screaming how much tired he was .
" Taeyong... Why are you here ?"
" Hyung are you upset that I'm here ? I just brought food for you "
Taeyong pouted.
" It's risky come on. You are an idol. You have sasaengs following you all around. They can harm you . I don't want that "
" Just say that you don't like me Hyung"
Taeyong looked down playing with his fingers with a pouty face .
Jaehyun sighed. Taeyong was really a big baby.
He walked to him and held his shoulders
" I like you okay . You are the Lee Taeyong who came to my apartment to meet me and brought food. I should feel lucky . But I'm worried for you Taeyong. You company is an ass. They'll take your phone again and lock you up if they knows about it . I'm just trying to protect you ."
" What if I don't want to be protected ?"
" Then I'll not be able to meet you because they'll ban me from meeting you . They can even ruin my whole career perhaps my life too. Kill me and burry me inside your company dungeon. Knows who "
" Ahhh Hyung.... Don't say that "
Taeyong slapped Jaehyuns arm and his eyes became teary. Taeyong was an emotional one.
" Okay okay I was joking. I'm not dying anytime soon. Evil people don't die easily."
" You are an ass "
Jaehyun chuckled .
He doesn't know what happened that he pulled the younger into a hug. Maybe because the homeboy Taeyong looked so cuddly for a strict person like Jaehyun to resist .
And the idol just hugged him back .
For a long time no one hugged him like this beside his family . As a leader Taeyong couldn't show his fragile side to anyone. Though Yoonoh , Johnny , Yuta , Doyoung and Mark knew him quite well but he still had a wall build between them so no one will know the real soft Taeyong who was as fragile as glass dolls.
Jaehyuns hug was comforting. The steady heartbeats , the sincerity ... They were pure.
" Won't you let go ?"
" It was you who hugged me first "
" Seems like you are liking it "
" Hmm . Now don't talk "
Jaehyun chuckled again ruffling Taeyongs hair while hugging. Looked like Taeyong was stress releasing.
Taeyong was the one pulling away first .
" You good Taeyong ?"
" Yeah . But you reek Hyung eww "
" You weren't complaining while you were holding me tight though "
Jaehyun was being playful.
" Ahhh just go and take shower please "
" Alright alright..."
Jaehyun pinched Taeyongs cheeks and left .
Taeyong didn't bring any extra plates. He just used the already used dishes so that Jaehyun won't have many dishes to wash.
When he heard the olders voice he looked at the direction and gasped ,
" Hyung foo.... "
How the hell Jaehyun had a body like idols ? Wasn't he just a famous photographer. Actually one of Koreas too idol photographer but we don't see people talking about it .
" Humm...?"
" Put on some clothes Hyung.."
Taeyong looked away from Jaehyuns feeling his cheeks getting red. He himself wasn't well build like Jaehyun. Then again he wasn't suppose to be.
He was known for his skinny boneless body to dance the best .
Jaehyun obediently came out wearing a shirt and quarter pants . His long wet hair pushed back .
" Now tell me everything..."
Taeyong sighed taking a spoonful of fried rice on his plate then putting some for Jaehyun.
" I was in my sisters house . Manager Hyung dropped me there . I told her I'm meeting a friend and staying the night out . So yeah here I'm . I also brought you food because I know you haven't had homemade food for a while ."
" For yorss actulu ..mm... Foods good... "
Jaehyun hummed in satisfaction. Then he drank some water to clear his throat.
" Now tell me does she know you are with an old hag "
" Old daddy ..."
Jaehyun start choking on his food. He wasn't expecting this kind of come back from the younger.
" Hyung are you okay ..."
Taeyong start rubbing Jaehyuns back comforting the older.
" You are weird .."
" I'm cute "
" And narcissist "
Taeyong laughed
" Hey I know my agency took me in because of my visuals so "
Jaehyun rolled his eyes and finished the food. He was craving for cigarette .
Jaehyun washed the dishes and fix the table while Taeyong was drawing something sitting on Jaehyuns living room.
The older walked in with a lightened up cigarette and 2 packets of dried sweet potatoes .
" Taeyong what are you doing ?"
" Oh I took a paper and pencils from your table to draw something. Is that okay ? "
" Yeah. Are you okay with me smoking around you ?"
Taeyong moved a bit and gave Jaehyun enough space to sit beside him .
" Some members smoke . You know the stress we go though. So it's fine for me . "
Jaehyun laid beside Taeyong comfortly and sucked on his cigarette.
" If I were an idol , I would have been addicted because of stress "
" It's not a big deal actually Hyung. It's normal. Many people smokes."
" But fans make it big . They really don't understand what you have to tolerate. They never put themselves into your shoes ."
Taeyong glued a bit with Jaehyun resting his head on Jaehyuns shoulder
" Hyung I wanted to ask you something... Why did you left that day? During our first day of shooting . You seemed distressed "
Jaehyun smoked out not looking at Taeyong
" You really wanna know huh curious cat ?"
" This question is bugging me for so long actually. In exchange I'll tell you Lee Taeyongs secret that no one knows "
Jaehyun chuckled and pinched Taeyongs cheeks. The younger was really cute .
" Well.... That day Naeun died. She was my ex girlfriend. First girlfriend actually. I didn't know about my sexuality that time . We were teenagers. Me her and her cousin Minhyuk were best buddies. We'd always do everything together. When Naeun asked me out I couldn't say no. She was beautiful and nice girl. I didn't wanna hurt her so I accepted her. We were dating casually. It was more like friendship to me with no attraction towards her but I loved her Taeyong. She was my precious friend. But ever since we started dating , we hide it to Minhyuk. When he learned about it he was so angry. I thought he didn't want me to date his cousin because I wasn't good enough. They lived in same hoise and I often use to visit them. One day I went to their house but Naeun wasn't there . She texted me but I didn't check my phone. I wanted to leave but it was storming outside so I stayed back . Actually Minhyuk told me to stay back . And lord that was ...
I'll be straight forward here . He seduced me and for the first time I felt my body reacting when I saw him topless and curving for me . And yeah. I cheated on my girlfriend. With Minhyuk I realized I was actually attracted to guys . That's why I never felt anything sensual for my own girlfriend. We kept doing it until Naeun caught us fucking . I was butt naked and thursing inside of him when she saw.
She forgave us. That's what she said actually. I was guilty but she was understanding. She let us date but our relationship was based on lies and cheating. It was toxic. Minhyuk was jealous type . So I had to end this. But I remained friends with Naeun and she remained in love with me till the end. I knew she loved me. She didn't date anyone but never approached to me ever again like that. She was suffering from cancer and no one knew until 7 months before she died. I wasn't strong enough to see her for the last time . Guilt was eating me up. Moreover I couldn't face Minhyuk who is married to a woman and a father of two now. I literally fucked him like a madman countless of times . It would have been pathetic for me to see his family. So yeah. That's it . I came out to my family after my breakup with Minhyuk. My family wasn't supportive to me. They tried to hook me up with random girls so I had to stay strong. When I became adult I left home. And here I'm Jung Jaehyun an openly gay photographer sitting infront of you ."
Taeyong was speechless. He wasn't expecting Jaehyun to spill everything like this.
Jaehyun snapped his fingers
" Taeyong..."
" Oh oh .. Hyung... I'm so sorry for whatever happened to you "
Jaehyun laughed sarcastically. Who is comforting who ?
" It's your turn ..."
Taeyong lay down on Jaehyuns thighs now . They were thick and soft so Taeyong enjoyed it .
Jaehyuns hand went playing with Taeyong dyed hair while he lightened up his 4th one .
" I was always shy and weak boy since childhood. Naive and fragile. My sister took care of me Everytime. I went to all boys school and had my first crush there. But I could never tell him that. I was afraid to get rejected . I don't actually know if I'm a gay or bi . But girls really didn't attracted me that much. "
" Not even your rumoured girlfriend Seulgi ?"
Taeyong rolled his eyes and clicked his tongue
" Noona is my really good friend since rookie era. Anyway. After I shifted to higher class and went to co ed , I got bullied a lot . Like a lot that I had to hide to my grandparents house. So my parents changed my school again. There I had to choose a side. Either victim or bully . I could never bully anyone but I didn't wanted to pressure my family again. So I decided to slide with the bullys just for my own safety . I never ever bullied anyone. Just because I was friends with them so others won't bully me , I got dragged after they saw me debuting.
I met Yoonoh after joining the company . Actually he came later. You can say that he was my love at first sight . Things were good between us but be is the prince perfect of our group. I don't blame him for pushing me away and confusing me . I know he cares . But his career is as stake too . So yeah. That's it ."
" It was hard on you Taeyong. Watching the person you love staying away from you ... Damn. I salute you man. "
Jaehyuns 4th cigarette was finished so he was about to take his 5th.
" You smell sexy Hyung"
Jaehyun stopped from taking another cigarette. He didn't really realize how close they were . Taeyong on his laps with bodies having no distance no gaps.
" What ?"
.
" Yeah... Your musky aura mixed with cigarettes smoke . Your mature scent . It's intoxicating."
Jaehyun was losing it. He was holding back from jumping on the younger. Because the younger came here with trust. Jaehyun doesn't want to break it.
" Hyung . "
" Yeah ?"
Taeyong lift his body and settled over Jaehyun lap facing him .
" Kiss me Hyung ."
Jaehyuns eyes went wide open. He held Taeyongs waist but kept distance.
" What are you saying Taeyong ?"
" You kissed me before ."
" It was to protect your image "
" Do you not like me ?"
" Taeyong it's not about that "
" Why no one wants me ?"
" Taeyong .."
" It's okay . I get it "
Taeyong wanted to came down from Jaehyuns lap but Jaehyun pulled him close and pecked on his soft lips.
" There you go . Okay ?"
The peck was nothing Taeyong wanted. He needed love. He needed to feel affection. So he pushed himself more until the gap between their faces were gone .
Surprisingly before Taeyong could kiss Jaehyun, the older connected their lips together. This time no peck.
Mouth open , lips tasting Taeyongs sweet potato flavoured mouth mixed with Jaehyuns cigaretted one .
For the first time in Taeyongs life ,
He felt the love he wanted to feel for years for manys .
I'm not dead ... Yet