NOW PLAYING: WITH YOU BY CHRIS BROWN
Rabiya's POV
It's already 4pm in the afternoon and preparing for the last interview for the Empire PH.
Katatapos lang ng preliminaries kanina.
Sobrang sakit pa rin ng paa at pagod na pagod pa ako, pero, I know I can handle this until tomorrow, mabuti na lang may pahinga pa.
Kanina ko pa hindi nakikita si Amanda. I already bought some foods for her, gusto ko na nga siyang kausapin, pero sabi ni Belle (Miss Singapore) may ginagawa raw. So syempre di naman ako pwede makaabala baka magalit na saken.
Amanda?!
Bakit kailangan mo pa magselos?
Nag-aalala na tuloy ako na baka yung kanina na lang yung huling araw na makikita kita.
Natatawa ako na naiinis sa inaasta niya, but overall I just find that she's really cute, the way she selos is unusual, kanina pa ako naiinis na kinikilig e!
The way she stared at Andre, alam mong nagngingitngit sa galit, pero kapag tumitingin siya sa akin, biglang nag-iiba yung mood, parang anghel.
Amanda please!!
Magpakita ka na oh! Ghoster ka na rin ba?!
My heart is now throbbing, when I think about her, the memories, that's all what matters for me.
The kiss, ugh!!
Kung pwede lang ulit na gawin ko yun sa kanya, sunggab na ako promise!
Obsessed na ba talaga ako?
Sobrang obsessed na ba?!
Amanda oo na! Obsessed na ako sayo!
I will fight for you babe
No matter what the consequences will be.
Gusto ko lang na ikaw ang makasama ko habang-buhay, no one else, just you.
"Ready for the interview?" Mama J sat beside me and looked at me with his warm smile.
We're here now at the ground floor of the hotel.
He's with Andre and some staff. Hinahanda na ang cameras.
"Yes I am, Mama J." I smiled.
He looked at me suspiciously.
"Bakit parang malungkot ang mga mata mo?"
I frozed when I heard the question.
Ganon na ba ang epekto ng pagseselos ni Amanda?
Naguguluhan ako na hindi magkaintindihan, basta ganon!
Medyo sumasakit na ang ulo ko thinking about her all day, hindi ko pa siya makausap, mukhang iiwasan na naman ako.
"Ma-"
"I know it's all about Amanda Obdam, right?"
Napigilan na agad ako ni Mama J.
I was startled when he said those.
Pa-paano niya nalaman ang tungkol sa amin?!
Kumalat na ba talaga yung kiss na nangyari?!
Gosh! No!
Ayokong madamay si Amanda dito!
I was the one who kissed her!
I was the one who is deeply in love!
I was the one who started it all.
Hindi ko mapigilan ang nararamdaman ko!
That's why I kissed her without hesitation.
Di ko naman napansin na may CCTV na pala, we know, pero nawala sa isip ko na may CCTV, it's just happened!
I am now totally speechless, hindi ko na alam kung paano sasagutin si Mama J.
Ang hirap!
Baka isang sagot ko sa kanya, ma-mali ako sa lahat!
I don't want to lose Amanda!
Sana ako din, hindi niya ako kayang pakawalan.
Paano kung, temporary lang yung pagmamahal niya?
And I was just the one who fall in love so deeply?
"So it is a yes, right?"
He asked me again.
Magsisinungaling pa ba ako?
I just noticed that I nodded slowly.
Kinakabahan ako sa magiging reaction niya.
Magagalit kaya siya?!
He's expecting me to do well in Miss Universe.
Pero hindi ko naman inasahan na sa buong linggong ito, mahuhulog ako.
Mahuhulog ako sa kapwa kandidata ko.
I didn't plan this, ba-basta bigla na lang siyang nangyari!
The sparked appeared, yung love na bigla ko na lang naramdaman pagkatapos ng maraming taon.
Amanda Obdam is the one whom I really wanted to be with that's the feeling when I first saw her.
She became part of my dreams, my plans after she told me that she loves me.
She became part of my life, when she gave me her very first kiss, my life became more meaningful than before.
My happiness is beyond my expectations, so-sobrang saya ko! I almost cried dahil sa sobrang saya, no one made me feel this way, kundi si Amanda lang.
Wrong timing?!
Sa tingin ko hindi, it is and this will be a perfect timing for the two of us.
"Rabiya, alam na namin yan ni Shams, MJ, JT and Billie. Only some of the MUP team didn't know about the kiss that happened, ayaw ka namin mapahiya. Kaya as long as kaya naming pigilan, we did it. Binura namin yung footage niyo from CCTV. Don't worry, ligtas na kayo."
I sighed in relieve.
I only just think about Amanda, kaya pala niya ako iniwasan noong isang araw? It is because of the issue.
"Thanks Mama J, hindi ko alam kung paano ko pa maliligtas si Amanda sa sitwasyon. Hindi niya 'to kasalanan."
My heart became relaxed than before.
The silence came into my heart again.
The peace of mind is what I want right now, pero di pa pala tapos kasi kailangan ko pang kausapin si Amanda.
She's not talking to me or replying na naman, dahil kanina.
She's really jealous at Andre, without knowing na sa kanya naman talaga ako kinikilig from the start.
"Anak, hindi ka namin pwedeng pigilan sa nararamdaman mo, at walang mali, okay? Don't be scared na hindi ka tatanggapin ng MUP o ng Pilipinas dahil nahulog ka sa kapwa mo babae, actually sa totoo lang noong napanood ko yung kiss niyo, napaka-sincere and I feel so much love. Yung passion was there and I think, talagang mahal niyo na ang isa't-isa."
I feel some butterflies in my stomach when I hear those words from Mama J, it means tanggap ba nila kami?
I just remember the day na hinalikan ko siya, it was full of magic and love.
Hindi pangkaraniwan, sa tingin ko it will never be the same that I actually watched in movies or series, kasi iba, ibang-iba talaga.
The sparks.
Butterflies.
Lastly, the feeling.
"Mama J, I didn't expect the love. Hindi ko naman inasahan na pagdating dito I'll just fall in love with Amanda."
I laughed and he also laughed with me.
"Hay naku, wag kang mag-alala tanggap namin kayo. I am part of LGBTQ tapos ako pa ba yung unang hahadlang? Hmmm" he chuckled.
"We can start now Rabiya." Andre uttered.
I stood up and went to his side for the interview.
This is the last time na magkaka-interview ako with Empire PH.
I need to rest day tomorrow because the day after next is the big day.
THE 69TH MISS UNIVERSE.
Kailangan ko ng maayos ang problema namin ni Amanda, ayoko na mapunta lang ang lahat ng pagmamahal ko sa wala.
I want her to realize that I am hers, no one else can take my heart away from her.
It will always be hers.
Sa'yo lang ako Amanda.
Sa'yong-sayo.
The interview started...
Amanda's POV
Ugh! I can't stop thinking about Rabiya.
I am not like this earlier,but because of that Andre.
I'm not jealous!
I AM NOT JEALOUS!!!!
AMANDA STOP IT!!!!!
YOU ARE NOT JEALOUS AT HIM!!
You are just having the tension!
You are just mad because of how he touched Rabiya, nothing more.
I don't want to see someone who touches Rabiya!
I-It's just killing me, am I really selfish?!
My heart shattered the way he stared at her!!
Is this the right thing to feel?
I don't know what word calm is already!
God! What did I am just feeling right now?
Why I am so intense?!
I'm being too sensitive right now!
Why I am so irritated to what happened?!
It's just simple right?
He's part of the team Philippines and that's the reason why he takes care of my woman.
But there's something wrong with it!
The way he looked at Rabiya is something that I can't explain!
Yeah!
What the hell?!
When he wiped those wound of Rabiya, I know there's something wrong with it.
"Look who's now jealous!"
Belle chuckled.
I am in the middle of overthinking and she has still the guts to laugh at me, ha! funny!
"I'm not kidding Belle, don't you see I am tensed?!"
I shook my head.
This is ain't funny anymore!
"Amanda, if you want to be with Rabiya and not be jealous again. Why don't you talk to her?"
I was speechless.
How will I?
God!
Okay, okay!
Okay fine!
I am going to talk to her, and stop this jealous thingy that runs in my blood.
I will not that Andre touch my girl again!
I feel so fire right now because of my madness, I can't stop thinking about them earlier!
"She's at the ground floor good luck!"
Belle said.
"Thanks." I tried to be calm.
I immediately went to the elevator.
I just need to talk to Rabiya.
I just need this closure!
I need to be assured if she's really in love with me.
I don't want to lose her.
How could I?
Now, I am really and so much in love with this woman.
God! Am I really lucky to have her?
Her face, personality the way she smiled at me is really and more than perfect.
Oh God! I want to see that face in my bed and getting up everyday with her smile.
Amanda what are you thinking?!
Okay, calm down!
Rabiya Occeña Mateo you are making me insane!
What's with your smile?!
I am so addicted to it!
TOTALLY ADDICTED!
I CAN'T GET RID OF IT ANYMORE!
At last I'm here at the ground floor. I am excited to see her and to be with her again.
Okay, I'm already relax now, I need to be calm when I'm already with her.
I walk and tried to find her.
Where is she?!
I roam around, there's so many people in here.
Belle are you kidding me?!
Belle is playing with me?! Isn't it?!
But wait!
I can hear Rabiya's laugh.
Oh!
There she is!
At the lobby.
With her staffs.
Maybe I-I can talk to her now.
At last that Andre is not here now.
I have the chance.
My heart is beating so fast!
My hands are kinda shaking!
I can't wait to talk to her!
Amanda! You are kinikilig!!
I sighed heavily, here I am at her back.
I love her back dang! That was too sexy!
That backless white dress are on point!
Everyday she's on fire!
The staffs looked at me and smiled.
Rabiya has no idea that I'm at her back already.
"Rabiya can we--"
I am just talking when a man talked also.
"Rabiya can we--"
Who-who's that?!
Andre Brouillette?!
For Goodness sake!
He's here again!
What the hell does he want from Rabiya?!
Rabiya turned around and stared at me like she's really shocked.
She turned her gaze to Andre who's here beside me.
She's looking to the both of us.
I don't want to have any tension!
What the hell?!!!!
I-I can't take this anymore!
God!!!!!!!
I am really hurting?!!!!!!
Why does it feels like that I was just thrown away by Rabiya when this Andre is around her.
God!
I just fell in love and--
And it was stabbing me tho-thousand of times!
What if Rabiya just didn't fall in love, wha-what if?! She really seeks for a guy huh?!!
I-I can feel my chest hurts and I-I'm almost o-out of breath!
I AM HURTING RIGHT NOW!!!!
I smiled at Rabiya, but I can't deny that my heart is now in pain.
I just noticed that I slowly walk away from her
I think she's not that concern when it comes to me.
Maybe she'll never be that 'concern' to me.
Yeah yeah Amanda!
HELL YEAH AMANDA!!!
YOU FALL IN LOVE!!!
NO ONE WILL RETURN THAT LOVE TO YOU!!
GOD! AM I NOT REALLY DESERVING?!
WHAT DO I NEED TO DO SO THAT I AM NOW DESERVING TO THAT LOVE?!
TELL ME NOW, UNIVERSE?!!!
WHAT SHOULD I DO?!
TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO?!!!
WHY ARE YOU HURTING ME THIS WAY RABIYA?!!!!!
WHY ARE YOU PLAYING WITH ME HUH?!!!!!!!
IT F*CKING HURTS!!!!!!
F*CKING!!!!
HURTS!!!!
"F*ck this love!!!"
I yelled, I am the top of the hotel, where I am alone and no one can hear me.
It's just a big space for me to see the city and the stars.
F*ck why I-I am hurting so much?!
I never felt this way before!!!!
I-I was happy before and I've never been hurt!
The way I feel right now it's just I am totally mad, and I don't want to talk to someone.
I-I just want to escape from this pain!
I-I just want to let go of my madness and tension.
I smiled but it is hurting me!
My chest hurts all over, my body frozed for a moment.
God I-I can't let Rabiya fall for someone else!!!
"Babe"
Someone whispered.
I-I just feel someone hugged me at my back.
Those warm hugs.
I am not wrong with this!
I-It's Ra-Rabiya!
The way she touches me is really something else!
I can hear her breathing, he-her scent!
The way I smell her fragrance is totally addicting.
I feel the goosebumps when she hugged me so tight.
Her two arms are in my waist right now!
"Don't be jealous okay?"
Her voice is really calming.
I know it's sexy but, I feel so loved right now.
By the way, wa-why is she here?!
How did she knew that huh?!!
A stalker indeed! HAHAHAHA
My pain turns into a smile.
Rabiya you are making me kilig!!!!!!
I am really annoyed, how did she just made me fall in love with her even more?!
I thought I can get rid of her, but I failed.
I failed so many times when it comes to her!
My plans didn't worked before because I am always falling in love with this girl.
I slowly turned my body towards her.
I-I can't help it but to smile.
Amanda you can't stop smiling right now!!!!
I-I can feel the butterflies and giddiness again!!!
Rabiya stared at my eyes, she's like begging for my forgiveness.
That goddess face!
Ho-how I will I resist that huh?!
I didn't noticed that I am already smiling!
I want to stare at her forever!
"You followed me huh?"
I asked and smirked.
Her hands are still at my waist.
Gosh those tender hands are still holding my waist.
I think she's addicted to it too, lmao!
"You're jealous that's why I came here to prove to you that I'm only yours."
I frozed again.
What she did just say?!
She's mine?!
Ye-yeah!
F*ck why I am smiling?!!
I can't stop smiling right now!
Rabiya stop it!!!
F*ck!!!!
"Rabiya---"
"Babe! Call me babe!"
She commanded.
I can't!
Why is she making me smile right now?!!
My heart!!!
My heart is now longing for her!
"Call me 'babe', nothing else! Understand?"
She's tensed right now.
God! I can't stop smiling!!
I was totally shocked gosh!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
NO WAY!
MY QUEEN IS NOW MAD!
All I need to do is to follow her.
So I-I slowly no-nodded!!!
God why it feels like I was hypnotized by her.
She's cute!!! Dang!!!!!
"O-okay ba-babe." I uttered.
Why I am now shaking?!
"Good!"
She said seriously and slowly move away her arms around me.
Whe-where is she going?!
The heck?!
I want more of her!!
I want more of her skin!
"Hope you will like it."
She smiled and bit her lower lip.
She-she's holding a donut and a flowers.
God! How did she knew that I love donuts?!
I-I can't stop smiling right now!
Those dried flowers! I lo-love it! My favorite dried flowers!
She's really sweet though!!!
"Uhm, what do you think?" She asked me and lowered her voice, is she shy?!!!
I gave her my warmest smile.
"I-I love it babe!"
I said, she really knows how to make me feel good!
Rabiya?!!!! Why?!!!
Ugh!
I am really happy!!!
God! My heart now is jumping!!!
It feels like I won in a competition!
"Don't be jealous again huh? I am yours alone babe. Don't be jealous at Andre again!"
She chuckled.
Okay fine!
But I will not promise that I will never be jealous to that Andre again!
He's an obstacle!
"I will still be jealous babe and I will not let anyone flirt with you again!"
I exclaimed and chuckled.
O-Oh!
Rabiya is just staring at me.
She frozed again!
I know that!
I am confident that she's really into me since the first
And still into me 'til now!
"You know what babe." I am now fixing her hair softly because of the wind that strikes us.
"I know it's really crazy but I fell in love with you ever since I saw you in your preliminaries. You are mind blowing, my heart is longing for you from that day and until now." I said and smiled at her.
She can't talk.
She's just smiling and listening. Rabiya you are making me fall in love with that kind of stare!
You are a total goddess!!!
"Then when you reached out for me through IG. I was really shy to reply that's why I remove your message in my dm, but the second time around you messaged me again, I answered, but eventually you didn't answer."
She looked into me like she didn't know what happened.
"You replied? But why I didn't saw it! Oh! It is because my social media manager, so-sorry!"
She's cute defending herself.
"You don't need to babe, I was the one who needs to be sorry though. It was my fault of not replying."
I chuckled, we both chuckled.
"But lastly, I didn't expect that I will fall for you that fast. No one made me feel this way babe, only you. Yes, I met so many people throughout, but you are the one who captured my heart, my mind and soul. God! Babe you don't know how much I am obsessed with you! That's why I'm so sensitive when someone touches you! I am really obsessed! God wha-why I am saying this?!!!!"
I closed my eyes and I wa-was shy!
I just feel her hands touching my hands.
She take it and held my hands so tight.
I-I can't talk anymore!
I am speechless!
We're just staring at each other this whole time!
"I fell in love with you so fast babe." She said and gave me her sexiest smile.
"I thought at first it was just a simple crush because you are totally fascinating and amazing but when we became more closer. That's when started that I-I can't stop thinking about you! The way you says babe"
I chuckled!
God, she fall in love because I said babe hahahaha
My seduced thingy worked at last!
"It makes me go around, i-it was kinda cringe but later on it feels so much love and I felt that I am really important to you. That's why when you don't talk to me and you only calls me by name, I-I was overthinking." She added.
I laughed so hard, tha-that's why she wanted me to always call her babe!
Tha-that's so adorable!
God! She's making me weak right now!
I sighed heavily.
God! I am so blessed to have this woman!
I feel so much home and importance when I am with her!
"From now on I will always call you babe, 'kay?" I softly said.
There! She shyly smiled.
"Babe, why are you making me fall in love with you again? Gosh! No way!" She shyly chuckled.
I can't stop staring at her.
It's already sunset and I just want to be with her.
I want her to feel that I am hers already.
I-I want to kiss her!
I slowly move closely to her face.
Why I-I am trembling a-again?!!
I-I'm kinda nervous!
I can hear her breathing, her scent! Gosh it is addicting!
I looked into her eyes then slowly turning my gaze at her lips.
The impeccable lips!
God! That's so hot!
I noticed that she's moving her face closer to me.
Dang!
There!
I felt her lips once again!
I-I can't move!
I-I was startled a-again!
Her lips is breathtaking and I-I don't know how to respond to that kiss!
Her full lips are now touching mine!
I-I guess I really don't know how to kiss!!
I just go with the flow.
"Relax babe" she chuckled before she kissed my lips again.
The way she chuckled ugh!
Da-dang!
She knew that I'm nervous now?!
Ugh!
I-I can't stop this kissing anymore!
My body became warm!
It satisfies me!
The way she kissed me passionately, makes me more weak.
I-I can't move!
I AM NOW ADDICTED F*CK!
I CAN'T WAIT TO FINISH THIS PAGEANT AND TO KISS HER AGAIN!
I AM THE MOST HAPPIEST PERSON IN THE UNIVERSE!
I WILL NOT EVER LET YOU GO AGAIN RABIYA!
"I will love you, 'til the end babe." I stated and still longing for her kiss.
"I-I will love you too til the end! Just don't be jealous again."
She chuckled and put her lips into mine.
RABIYA, I JUST WANT TO BE
WITH YOU.
Author's Note: Hello everyone, wala ako bukas skl. Kaya di ako makakapag-update, love y'all. Salamat sa inyong lahat! :)))