ーthe first apology
i was outside the house
of the friend who i owed
the first apology to
i hadn't told him yet
why the sudden rendezvous
but all i remember
was my heart pounding like hell
i knocked on the door
and he opened in no time
inviting me in
like the old times
he was happy to see me
and so was i
but i couldn't just
let my emotions defy
my actions anymore
we talked a bit
but he could see it all
something's up isn't it?
please let me know
i fell silent for a minute
before i couldn't be silent anymore
i am here to apologize
something i should have done
ages ago
and don't say i don't need to
it's inevitable to the core
i could see how
he'd let go of it already
but respectfully
he let me continue
i wasn't in my senses
when it all took place
i thought it was love
but it was a mere mistake
i was just too scared
to be lonely that i
didn't care about your feelings
and tried
to control your life
it was so selfish of me
i realize
but i feel it's too late
to apologize
i still feel like
i'd ruined our friendship
a little bit atleast
and even that thought
has kept me awoke
i managed to spout these words
as an excuse of an apology
what he deserves is much more
i wish i could see his reactions
but my eyes were glued to the floor
i was ashamed and sulking
but it wasn't much longer
when i felt warmth
spread across my body
just to see him
hug me once more
you're so precious to me jimin
there was no way
i would've let our friendship get ruined
i understand your emotions
and they justify your previous actions
but just know i have long
forgiven you
because i love you so much
you've been a really close friend of mine
and i am never letting you go
his voice melted like butter
and spread warmth in my heart
i wish i could refrain myself
from crying on his shoulder
but i couldn't
and he just let me be
i was happy
happy to know that
he still was the same to me
that we were still besties
he still loved me
the way he did before
i kept muttering
a series of sorrys
as he let me sob into his shoulder
somewhat i felt bolder
than what i was before
i was amazed at his kindness
his love, therefore
i promised him
to never make such a mistake again
not that he cared at all
but we hugged it out
and i left his place
feeling much more assured
one friend's over now
another apology to go.
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