𝖫𝖴𝖷𝖴𝖱𝖸, 𝗸. 𝗱𝗮𝗶𝘀𝘂𝗸𝗲
.･ﾟﾟ･(／ω＼)･ﾟﾟ･.𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗋𝗍𝗒
𝗂 𝖺𝗆 𝖺 𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗋𝗂𝖻𝗅𝖾 𝗉𝖾𝗋𝗌𝗈𝗇.
⇉ Daisuke's agency
⇉ 12:56 pm
News spread around the office fast. After the little session you had with Daisuke yesterday, you heard people talking about how Daisuke was doing the dirty with someone. You wondered how they found out, but you then realised that you were being quite loud.
What you were glad about was that no one knew who this mysterious person was. They didn't stay and check who came out of Daisuke's office, they were probably scared it would be Daisuke and they didn't want to get into trouble.
People gossiped all day, trying to find out who it was. They pulled out names and people who were last seen in Daisuke's office, but they never got the right answer.
You sat on a lunch table that was away from everyone else, this whole 'Daisuke has a girlfriend' was getting really annoying since it was technically about you. Every time when someone would ask you a question about what you thought about all this, you would just shrug and not say anything.
You heard a tray being slammed next to you on the table and you whipped your head around, to see who it was. Stephanie had a wide grin on her face, as she slid opposite you sliding her plate with her as well.
You had a feeling you knew what she was going to say, so you continued eating not looking at her. She cleared her throat trying to get your attention but you simply brushed her off.
"I wonder who the mysterious girl that got fucked by our boss in his office", her sarcastic tone made you cringe at how messed up the situation actually sounds out loud. You shook your head, looking straight at her who was still smiling widely at you.
"(y/n), do you have any idea who it could be?"
You clicked your tongue and stopped eating, you gave her a stern look causing her to laugh at how annoyed you were getting. "Lecture me if you have to, let's just get this over with".
"Lecture you! I could never, do you know how this benefits everyone?" You shrugged, not having any idea what she was talking about. Stephanie rolled her eyes, looking around to make sure no one was listening.
"Daisuke has been so much nicer to everyone, he doesn't shout like he used to and if you're even lucky, you get to see him smile".
You gave her an unsure look, checking if she was being serious or if she was just exaggerating. "I am being serious! Ask anyone", now that you think about it. Daisuke hasn't yelled at anyone for a while, nor fired anyone. You didn't think much of it- you just thought people were meeting his standards.
Now that Stephanie had brought this to your attention, you are second guessing what you thought before. Nothing makes Daisuke happy. If you do reach his standards, you will always end up missing something which gets him angry. He wants everything to be perfect and if that means firing someone he will do it.
He fires five people a day, but today and yesterday he hasn't done it once. "I think you're changing him". You scoffed, laughing a little at what Stephanie claimed you to be doing. Changing him? It would take a lot to change someone like Daisuke and you didn't think you had that much power to do so.
"How can sex change someone?"
"Not sex? Just you in general, you both have feelings for each other and love makes people soft. Love changes people".
Your eyes widened at her mentioning the L word. Love? You didn't think you loved Daisuke, you just really really liked him. Wasn't being in love with him too soon? You didn't think that you were and you would obviously know if you did love him or not.
"Yes love what else".
"I don't love him". Stephanie sighed and began eating her food getting frustrated at your denial. It was clear that you loved him, it just wasn't clear to you.
"Does your heart race every time you see him? Do you get excited or happy every time he talks to you or wants to do something special for you? Do you think about him every day? Do you get butterflies in your stomach every time he looks in your direction?"
Your breath hitched, processing every question Stephanie just asked. You might as well tick all of them because every answer to that question was a yes. Your heart did race when you saw him, you always get happy when he talks to you or gives you any type of attention. You thought about him all the time, butterflies swarmed in your stomach every time he gave you that look he only shows to you.
"I think I love him".
"You don't think. You love him".
You chocked on the water you were sipping, feeling shaky all of a sudden. What were you supposed to do? Tell him? You doubted he felt the same way, he would probably think you were moving too fast and become overwhelmed. You didn't want to lose him again.
"Isn't this too fast, I can't love him".
"Love doesn't have a specific time to come (y/n), if you love him you love him don't try and hide it".
"What do I do?"
"Tell him". You shook your head violently, feeling your cheeks getting hot from this conversation. You were never good with expressing your feelings, maybe not as bad as Daisuke but you never did tell people how you really felt.
You were afraid of rejection, afraid of being judged or made fun of. You hated the feeling of it and you tended to avoid feeling that way at all costs, even if that meant hiding your feelings forever then you were going to do that. You didn't want Daisuke to push you away because you told him that you loved him.
You liked how your relationship was going so far, it didn't have a label but you liked how easygoing it was and how nothing was forced. You felt happy. And if saying 'I love you' to him was going to ruin that , you would never tell him those three words...ever.
"(y/n), you can't just keep this in forever. You have to tell him your true feelings before it's too late".
"Too late? We already know that we like each other".
"Like, yes. Love, no". You groaned, not liking how pressured everything felt. You admitted to yourself that you did love him, you weren't denying it anymore- you just weren't going to tell him. "What if he doesn't feel the same way? I don't want him to push me away like he did before".
"Trust me he does feel the same, have you seen the way he looks at you, the way he is so protective over you and wants what's best for you. If that isn't someone in love then I don't know what is".
You stayed silent, staring at Stephanie who was giving you a reassuring smile. She looked like she was being genuine but you were still unsure, it was a big step to take once you say it you can never go back. Were you willing to take that risk?
"I- Just give me some time to think this through".
"Of course, just promise me you won't keep it in and get yourself hurt". You hummed, distracted by your thoughts. Stephanie could see worry on your face and the thing she wanted to tell you after wasn't going to help out, she didn't want you to stress even more but she had to tell you so things didn't escalate.
"I think you need to clarify with Haru who your heart goes to".
You knitted your eyebrows, not knowing what Stephanie was talking about. "What are you talking about?"
"You need to tell Haru that you don't have feelings for him, he clearly likes you and you may not be playing with his feelings but he could be getting the wrong idea".
"Kato? He doesn't have feelings for me". Stephanie rolled her eyes, groaning quietly at how oblivious you were. "Everyone but you can tell that he likes you more than a friend".
As if you didn't have enough things to stress about, now you had to reject someone you didn't even know had feelings for you. You just thought he was being friendly, yes you thought he was attractive but you never thought of him in that way. He never showed any signs that he liked you, so you instantly assumed that you had no chance with him.
"Where is he?"
"I think he's in his office".
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⇉ Kato's office
⇉ 13:04 pm
You hesitated before knocking on Kato's door, your boldness was scaring you a little as if this was the old you- you would avoid situations like this. The last thing you wanted was to hurt someone's feelings, but if that meant setting things straight with them then you had no choice.
"Come in".
You opened the door slowly, instantly locking eyes with Kato. He smiled at you, completely stopping whatever work he was doing and giving you his full attention. You gulped, now noticing how intense his gaze really was.
"(y/n)! What can I do for you today?"
You cleared your throat, walking a little closer to his desk so you didn't have to shout across the room. He still had his signature smile on his face and that only made you feel worse.
"I just wanted to talk to you about something". He hummed, pointing at the seat in front of him. You sat down, fiddling with the bracelet you had on before speaking. He looked at you with eager eyes, not taking his eyes off of you, before you thought it was sweet how he was so interested in what you had to say. But now you felt so nervous under his stare.
"If I got the wrong idea please correct me if I'm wrong".
"Are you going to ask me if I have feelings for you?" Your eyes widened, but you slowly nodded. His eyes left yours and he looked around nervously, you could tell he was getting flustered as his cheeks showed the faintest bit of pink.
"I do, but I think I know why you are here. You have come to tell me that you don't feel the same way and that you have feelings for Daisuke".
Your breathing was a little shaky and you were surprised he knew what you were going to say to him. You didn't know if that made the situation easier or harder, easier because you didn't have to break the news to him- but harder because he somehow found out and he probably put two and two together that you are the mysterious girl Daisuke did the dirty with in his office.
Embarrassment flushed inside of you as you realised he probably knows everything, how you wanted to just run out of the room and never show your face.
"How do you"—
"Daisuke kind of made it clear to me that he had feelings for you and I kind of assumed you had feelings for him since he continued making it obvious".
"How did he make it obvious?"
"I've known him for a while and this was the first time he's acted this way because of someone. I can assure you that I'm not bitter about this, I am happy for him and you of course. I just wish I had the guts to tell you how I felt a long time ago".
He smiled weakly at you and you felt your heart ache, he had feelings for you for a while now and you didn't even realise. All those times when he was being extra friendly with you was his way of telling you he liked you and you didn't even know.
"I am a terrible person, how could I have not known. Kato I am so so sorry". He waved his hands, chuckling a little at the way you were beating yourself up about this.
"(y/n), you aren't a terrible person. You came here to clear things up with me and and a terrible person wouldn't do that. I didn't make my feelings known to you so you shouldn't feel bad. No need to apologise".
You looked at Kato in awe at how understanding he was being, he was such a kind person who deserved the world. You have never met someone who had such a pure heart, someone who was so understanding and calm about all this.
You wanted to say something, but you didn't find the right words to do so. Actions speak louder than words. You got up from your seat and walked around the desk, Kato looked at you confused onto why you suddenly stood up. Out of instinct, he stood up too still confused.
You wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him into a tight hug. He returned it almost instantly, putting his arms in a appropriate place on your back. You rested your head on his shoulder and he breathed in your scent for one last time, you may not be disappearing or moving away but it was probably going to be the last time he could hold you like this.
"Thank you Kato for being so understanding".
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