Ace POV
"Ace, Are you okay?" I suddenly hear someone asking me from behind.
I quickly turn around to see who it is.
It's my Twin, Aris.
"Oh! Yes!! I'm thinking of something, Aris, but I'm okay!" I casually said to him, and then I go back to look at the view in front of me
"I told you to stop hiding things from me, right? Don't hide from me Ace, I know you inside and out! I can see that you are worried about something and I'm sensing it's about your dear boyfriend! Why? Did he hurt you?? Why did he do something to hurt you?? God!! I told him never to hurt you, but he didn't comply!! I will..." Aris starting to get upset again, so I didn't let him finish
"No! It's not that. Damon is not hurting me!" I said to him. His upset face changes, and he become more confused again
"So tell me what is it, cause I'm not leaving here until you tell me what the hell is going on!! Would you please spill it? You know I'm always here for your, right? Whatever it is. I'm always here to listen for you!!" He seriously said to me, which made me feel that I want to burst all I'm feeling right now.
I started to cry!! He was so shocked upon seeing me cry that he immediately pulled me into a tight hug and tries to calm me down
"Oh no!! Why are you crying, Ace!! Is there something bad that happen!!" He asked me. I let go of his hug and started to talk to him. I guess I really need to talk about this before I go crazy from thinking. I began to speak even though I'm not looking at him! I can't seem to look at Aris and tell him everything. I feel so weird about myself right now! I never felt this way before.
"I don't know too, Aris!! I'm getting confused too. I don't know why I'm feeling this way. We are happy. Everything is perfect, but then she came and ruined everything!! I don't why, but I started to feel unsecured about us. I feel like there is a possibility that Damon still loves her, that Damon still has feelings for her, The way he looks at her, the way he talks with her." I was speaking, but Aris didn't let me finish
"What do you mean when she arrives?? Who is she?? Is he cheating on you?" Aris asked me. I was shocked about what he asked that I instantly stood on my chair and looked at him.
"No! Of course not! I know he will never cheat on me! Damon is not like that..." I paused a little. He looked more confused...
"I think!" I sadly said, then went back to sit in my chair.
"So if he is not cheating on you! What is this! Why are you so sad about a girl?" He asked me sounded so worried at the same time confused to me.
"It's Liza, Damon's friend and ex-girlfriend. She comes back here and I can see how much Damon was so happy to see her that he almost forgot about me sometimes." I said to him.
"Wait. Don't tell me you are Jealous of her??" Aris asked me. I was shocked about what he said.
"WHAT? NO!!! HOW CAN I BE JEALOUS OF HER!!!" I exclaimed at him
"You are saying that you are not jealous of her, but you are acting this way!! Gosh!! Ace! I never thought of you!! My TWIN, who is always confident and secured about everything, can feel and experience the word JEALOUSY!!! this is so surreal!!" Aris teasingly said to me, so I smack him on his arm!! How dare he teases me, especially if I'm feeling like this
"GOSH!! I hate you, Aris!! You are making me feel worst!! I'm out of here!!" I was about to stand, but he stopped me. He is now trying to stop himself from laughing
"Oh No! Sorry! I didn't mean to anger you more. I'm just really fascinated with you now, but seriously, Ace!! Jealousy is normal!! Especially if you really love that person and you are afraid that someone might steal him from you!! That someone stranger comes into your life unannounced, so you! Starting to feel slightly threatened is okay. If you didn't feel that way, I don't think you really love him, or the feeling is not that strong for you to feel protective. It's normal, Ace!!!" Aris seriously said to me. I decided to look at him.
"You think so?? Am I not being crazy??" I asked him. He laughs lightly at me, then he stops
"Of course you're not Ace!! You're human, and Jealousy and being afraid is part of being a human. It's your first love so feeling confused about what you feel is normal. This is why I'm here, right?? I'm here to support and guide you for all your journey, right?" Aris smilingly said to me
"Am I wrong to feel this way?? I badly don't want to feel this way, but how can I stop!! I want to stop feeling unsecured about us. Damon always made sure to tell me how much he loves me and how I am the only one for him. What should I do!! How can I stop!!" I desperately asked him
"The only thing that you can do is to talk to him and make things clear with him!! I'm sure Damon wouldn't want you to feel this way, and he would want you always to be honest with him with what you are feeling!! You have to let him know that you are feeling this way so he can clear everything for you!! You can never stop feeling this way until he makes things clear with you!! I know it's hard, but you have to be vocal with what you feel, my dearest Twin!! Silence will never get you anywhere!!" Aris seriously said to me. I can't help but sigh so deeply after hearing him
"What if he gets angry with me for feeling this way!! What if he feels that I'm such a jealous boyfriend and realized that he couldn't deal with this way of thinking of mine. I'm afraid, Aris!! I don't want to lose him!!" I worriedly said to him. I'm very new to all of this that I don't have any slightest idea how to deal with what I'm feeling right now
"If he gets angry at you for feeling this way, then he is jackass!!" Aris exclaimed
"ARIS!!!" I yelled at him!!
"What??!! It's true because if he really loves you. He will never be angry at you for feeling insecure and worried about your relationship!! He should be delighted that you love him so much that you are feeling this way!! That you are afraid to lose him. If he really loves you, he will do everything to make you feel at ease and secure about your relationship more!! That's what I would have done and feel!!" He firmly said I couldn't help but feel worst!! I started to cry again
"SO WHAT SHOULD I DO!!" I said while crying
"Oh no! Don't cry, my Twin!! Your eyes are too precious for these silly things!! The only thing that you have to do is to talk to him or her!! I don't know! It depends on you, but always remember that you can only be at peace if you clear things out with him!! Don't just stay here and think of the worst that may not even happen!!" He seriously said to me
"But..." I was about to complain because I don't know if I will ever have any courage to do what he said
"Don't but me, Ace!!" He sighs so deeply then smile while looking at me
"So I guess I have done my job again as your Twin!! It will still depend on you!! but whatever happens, Always remember that I'm always here for you, okay??" Aris smiling said to me.
"And I will always be thankful to you for always being here for me. Thank you for being the best brother Aris." I smilingly said to him!! He stands from his seat and hugs me. I'm just hugging his stomach
"Always Ace!! I will always be here for you!! Just call me, and I will be there!!" Aris said to me, which made me feel a little at ease!!
I just everything is going to be okay soon!! I don't want to continue to feel this way!! I hate feeling this way!!
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It's been a week ever since Liza has come back here. I've also been trying to fight my feeling of being so insecure and threatened by her!! I'm trying my best to fight myself from blowing up, but she is really testing me!!
Now, I can't even talk to Damon about my feelings because every time I attempted to do it, She is always there!! She will always be there! And it seems that Damon is so preoccupied to notice what she is doing. He really enjoys her presence that sometimes he will forget that I'm even there beside them, silently watching them.
I badly want to cry, but I am trying my best not to because I don't want to look like some pathetic loser boyfriend who is so sensitive about the new girl in town.
Sadly in my case, It is the old girl in Damon's life!!
Here we are at the joker's den waiting for Damon's friends. As usual, Liza is here because apparently. "SHE CAN'T BE ALONE HERE AT THE UNIVERSITY BECAUSE SHE WAS AFRAID TO BE WITH OTHER PEOPLE!!" and because Damon is the most friendly person in the world, he is always letting her be with us.
GOD!! I badly want to yell at him!!
"Baby? Are you upset or something? You seem to be so quiet for the past few days. Do you have any problem??" He asked me, is this my chance to talk to him at last? Liza is not here because she had to get something from outside. Apparently, she drops something on the way here.
"Uhmmm, Babe, It's about Liza. Uhmmmm," Why am I hesitant about this!! Ace!! This is your time!! Talk to your boyfriend!! You have to talk to him about Liza!! You will go crazy if you don't!!
"What about Liza, baby??" He asked me while caressing my face. Gosh!! This is why even though I hate the presence of Liza, I can't be angry with Damon for letting her "MINGLE" with us because of this. Just one loving move from him, and I start to feel ok again! To start feeling that everything is okay between us.
"Uhhh, Can we..." I was speaking, but then again I didn't get to finish when someone suddenly enters the room
"MASTER!!! COME ON!! It's time already!!!" Boun yelled as he enters the room with Zee, Ohm, and Joong, who is busy, of course, texting! I'm sure it's Nine again!! My best friend's charms and beauty really whip the man!!
"So you still doing this??" Liza said from behind. It seems that she arrives in time again!!
"Baby? Can we??" Damon pulled me to sit on his lap and asked me. I just encircle my arms around his neck
"What about babe?" I asked him
" Uhmm, we have a scheduled underground battle later. It's just billiards, baby, nothing physical, so you don't have anything to worry about!!" He smilingly asked me. I guess my plan to talk to him will be postponed again!!
"Promise me there will be no physical fight involve in this!! I will never talk to you again if I see even a single bruise on you!!" I warningly said to him. I'm well aware of this underground battle that he's been doing. I can still remember how worried I was when I saw his face with so many bruises and grazes!! Just because of what he called "SIMPLE UNDERGROUND SESSION," that I should know the situation of their opponent because supposedly they had much worst. Like it's supposed to ease me!
"I promise, baby! The last time is that time. I promised you already that it will not happen again." He said to me. I just sigh deeply before answering him, but even before I can speak, someone speaks again, interrupting me!!
"Oh, come on! Ace!! Don't be so worried!! I'm sure even it involves a physical fight, Damon can always fight them even his eyes were closed!! Right, Damon??" She smilingly said to me. Then she winked at my boyfriend, who just smiled at her.
Is what she said support to make me feel okay?? Is that supposed to make me feel less worried about my boyfriend?? MY FREAKING BOYFRIEND??
I BADLY WANT TO YELL AT HER!!! "SHUT THE F*CK UP!! I'M THE BOYFRIEND HERE! I'M THE ONE WHO KNOWS WHAT IS GOOD AND BAD FOR MY BOYFRIEND!! NOT YOU!!!" but as usual, I just smile at her, then shut up. Gosh!! Why am I so coward to speak!!
"I promise, baby!! Please let me na??" Damon asked me again while hugging me.
I just sigh so deeply before answering him
"Okay! Babe!! Please be careful ahh!! I don't want to have a hurt boyfriend!" I smilingly said to him. He smiled back
"Promise!!" he smiled, then kissing me so passionately again, like he didn't mind that we have other people here who can see us. He is kissing like he is hungry for me and wants to sip even my soul.
"GOD!! CAN YOU GET YOUR ROOM ALREADY!!" Zee exclaimed, which made Damon to let go of me.
"I love you, baby!!" He smilingly said to me while still hugging me and looking at me so intently
"I love you too, babe!!" I smilingly said to him.
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Damon and his friends are already gone. It's just me and liza who are still left here.
A long moment of silence and awkwardness was felt between us. I badly want to stand from my chair and get out of here, but my body is not listening.
I'm currently waiting for Aris here so that we can go home together. Damon doesn't want me to go anywhere else without my brother, and because I'm a very diligent kind of boyfriend, I just followed him. I don't know why Liza is still here, and I don't have any plan to ask her
I was just busy scrolling my phone when I suddenly heard someone talk beside me
"ACE, CAN WE TALK." I quickly look at her.
To be continued
A/N
Thank you for always patiently waiting for my update. I really hope I'm not disappointing you! I'm trying my best to best. I'm just swamped now with my work.
I hope you understand...
WAANJAI MJORA