A Nice fluffy one to make up for last time :)
There he sat, hair glowing golden in the sunlight, focused intently on the book he was reading. Sticking his tongue out in concentration, he turned the page and I couldn't help but stare. He looked almost angelic, the way the light surrounded him, I felt caught up in his aura. Although the library was packed, I swore it could have been just us, nothing else but him seemed to matter.
"Oi, quit swooning and help me with the transfiguration." Lily said, offhandedly.
"Huh, what? I wasn't..."
"Wasn't staring at Moony? Yes you were."
"No, I just zoned out."
"Yeah, and I'm about to agree to date James Potter."
"Never say never.... Ow" (Lily had hit me round the head with a hardback book)
"Serves you right" she settled down beside me, and began to flick through her homework.
"Still haven't figured out the teapot thing yet then?"
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The common room was swarming with activity, the party in full swing, but I could only seem to watch him. We had just won the house cup, and as usual a lot of dancing and alcohol ensued. Music was blaring, and yet at every movement he made the world seemed to fall silent. I could have had my pick of every girl in the room and still the only person who captured my attention was him. Wearing an oversized jumper and barely even involved in the party, he was still the most interesting thing around.
My breath caught in my throat as I made my way over to him, 'It's only Moony' I thought, 'Why are you nervous?'. Only Moony. With every step I took, he seemed further away. 'What is going on, you've been friends since first year, why all of a sudden are you struggling to talk to him?!'. Inevitably, I reached him and all words seemed like they'd be a marathon to say.
"Hey, Moony," I said, false confidence radiating off of me.
"What's up Pads?" He replied with an effortless smile. God he is so perfect. 'Why would you think that?!'
"Nothing much, just checking in on our resident golden boy."
"Oh shut up, I'm partying just as much as you are."
"In what world is reading in a corner partying?"
"Prick." He shoved me, and I nearly toppled into the food table. I managed to (mostly) keep my balance, and walked back into the crowd, laughing. The interaction had been so normal, why was my heart humming with excitement?
Later, once everyone else had long been asleep, I lay awake, tossing and turning, my mind occupied with confusion and thoughts of him. I would look back on that night and think about how stupid I had been, but in that moment I'd had no idea why I suddenly felt so different towards Remus. Despite all the obvious signs, I didn't even consider I liked him, the idea just seemed do foreign to me.
At breakfast the next morning, I had a rather unpleasant surprise. Tired but otherwise ok, I sat down next to James at the table.
"Morning guys" I smiled, reaching for the bacon.
"Morning," James had an unmistakable smirk on his face that either meant he had a bad idea for a prank or something really annoying to say. "Moony's got news"
"Oh shut it Prongs, it's not a big deal."
"Oh yes it is"
"Come on, i wanna know." I really was getting very curious at this point.
"Moony has a date this weekend... with Dorcas Meadowes."
"Oh." for some unfathomable reason my heart sank to the bottom of my chest and the morning suddenly seemed grey and miserable.
"What? Are you jealous because he has a date and you don't?"
"Shut it Peter, I've had more dates than all of you combined."
"Only cos Prongs refuses to date anyone but Evans"
"She is the only one for me, Peter"
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Hogsmeade weekend. Normally, I'd be excited, ecstatic even, but my only emotion was dread. I didn't even know why... I really should have though. A day of buying useless stuff at zonko's and messing around at the three broomsticks, my perfect day; or it would be if Moony was there too.
Before long, we were heading out of the castle, just the three of us. Hours passed and soon we were exhausted, laden with goodies, and piling into a booth at the three broomsticks. I was enjoying my time, but I couldn't stop my eyes from wandering over to Remus and Dorcas, wishing he was sitting with us. Without warning, a world changing thought crossed my mind, and as much as tried to repress it, it kept coming back.
"Prongs?"
"Yeah Sirius?"
"How'd you know you liked Evans?"
"Well... the first time I looked at her, a light from the heavens shined down on her and a god spoke to me and said 'James, she is the one.' and that's what happened, why? Got someone special on your mind?"
"Oh ha ha, Seriously though?"
"I guess... she was all I could think about, and she sorta seemed like the centre of my universe."
"Oh" and then it clicked. I liked him. And evident from the fact he was currently on a date with someone else, he didn't like me back. He probably didn't even like boys. Me liking boys was honestly more than enough of a shock for one day, but liking Moony... I'm fucked. Plus side; it will really piss off my mum.
"Oh shit, Padfoot really does like someone." I had evidently zoned out more than I thought I had.
"What? 'Course not!". My voice lacked its usual conviction but I hoped James wouldn't notice (he did).
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We decided to leave hogsmeade early that day, leaving Remus behind. Instead of heading to the tower like James and Peter, I made a B-line straight for Lily. If anyone had advice, it'd be her.
"You were right."
Startled, she looked up from her book, clearly not expecting any company. "Huh?"
"About Moony... I'm smitten." I groaned, inviting myself to sit next to her. Saying it outloud made it feel more real, but I knew I wasn't wrong. The more I thought about it, the more it made sense (and the more I couldn't get his beautiful eyes out of my head). I could tell I had her attention, as she set her book down on the table and turned fully to face me.
"About time you realised, I've been thinking you guys will get together since third year." Annoyingly, she had a very James-like smirk on her face, but I knew she meant well.
"Yeah, like that'll ever happen. He had a date today, and by the looks of it, it went well."
"Well, tell him to drop her, it's been obvious he likes you for ages."
"I doubt it." she seemed genuinely sure of herself, but in that moment nothing felt more unlikely.
"Who was he with anyway?"
"Dorcas"
She sniggered, and gave a look as if I was the dumbest person alive. "Yeah you won't have to worry about her."
"What? Why?"
"No, no I won't say"
"Okayyy... see you"
Just as I was leaving the room I heard her voice call out, 'ask him out though!". I mentally facepalmed, but also found myself smiling fondly. Still confused about what Lily had said about Dorcas, I went towards the dorms.
When I opened the door to our dorm, I found Remus was the only one in, reading. I hadn't expected him to be back yet. Just as I normally would, I sat on the end of his bed and although I'd done it many times before, the close proximity made me nervous. "Where's James and Pete?" I asked, going for a safe question.
"I don't know, Peter is probably helping Prongs with some ridiculous scheme to ask out Evans." He had stopped reading, and was giving me his full attention. It was everything I could do not to get lost in his eyes.
"So..." I said, delaying the inevitable. "How'd the date go?", I waited for him to tell me how much he was in love.
"Pretty well, we get on great."
"That's good." I tried my hardest not to sound bitter.
"You don't sound like you mean that." evidently I had failed. He moved closer to me, causing my breath to get caught in my throat. "Why's that?" He looked curious more than angry, but he was so close... I could feel myself getting flushed.
"Because... because..." my words had escaped me so... I kissed him. Oh fuck! I kissed him, I did not think this through. But he kissed back. Oh god I'm gonna regret this... but it's so good.
"Oh... that's why," a deep blush spread across his cheeks and he was smiling, all I ever wanted to do was make him smile.
"Sorry..." Suddenly, I felt rather ashamed - I shouldn't have done that. It was going to make things awkward and he was probably dating Dorcas.
"Don't be"
"Huh?" hadn't I been confused enough for one day?!
"D'you know how long I've been waiting for you to do that?"
I couldn't help but grin, even though I still didn't really understand or even believe this was happening. "Really?"
"Uh huh."
I felt like I was on cloud nine, until a slightly worrying thought crossed my mind. "What about Dorcas?"
He laughed and I had no idea if it was a good or bad thing. "I don't think we're going to have to worry about her."
"Why?" Siriusly, could people just stop confusing me?!
"She's actually gay,"
"Really?! Then why were you..."
"On a date? Yeah she actually didn't want it getting out, so she wanted a fake date. And me, being my very gay self, seemed like a good option. Even if she did spend half the time talking about how beautiful Marlene is. " He rubbed the back of his neck nervously, "Kinda stupid now I think about it."
"Maybe..." Then I kissed him again because that was something I could do now, and I certainly wasn't going to let this opportunity go to waste
A/n - I don't know why there's so much reading in this one 😅