💜Diana's POV 💜
Have been a month , and we are in tour , because the boys had to cancel the tour because of me , I'm feeling so guilty about that, during this month that have passed , I outpaced a little more my trauma , I can be around the boys and the male figure , but , I cant trust totally... you know .
I grew a really strong friendship with Zayn, my crush on Niall it's getting bigger and bigger everyday , the boys are finishing the third album , but they don't let me watch them record , because they said " it's a surprise " * rolling my eyes *
They were touring in the Europe and our next stop is in France , and I'm quite excited because Ivy , moved in , with her father for a while there , She moved like 1 month, a some weeks ago , so I'm gonna see her .
I saw louis crying in the his seat , we were on the plane , he looked like me some months ago , isolated and always sitting on the backseats without people around me .
" Hi Lou what's wrong? Why are you crying? " I asked worried
He shakes his head
" Lou cmon ... tell me I'm extremely worried, what's wrong?"
" it's harry " he said crying
" oh damn , what did he did this time ? Do you want me to slap him ?" I asked trying to cheer him up a bit
He smiled
" I mean who am I to forbid you?" He said smirking
" ok I will after you tell me what he did " I said
" ok ... he's going out with some blonde chick "he said
" oh ... yeah he really deserve it " I said , I kiss his forehead like a mom do when her kid it's sad and went to harry
I came closer , and slapped him a little bit hard that I thought...oops
" what the fuck , what was that for ?!" He said grabbing his face , I saw Niall and zayn laughing their asses off
" and you ask why , who's the blond bitch that you're hanging out with ? Huh ? " I asked
" What ? Why ? Why now? " he said really confused
I grabbed his face and turned to louis direction for him to see how hurt louis is
" oh ..." he said
" now you see ! Great , go talk to him or I swear that I'll slap you again " I said smirking , he obeyed me .
" now seriously who's the blond girl?" I asked to no one in specific
" i think it's some model that Simon contract to be his girlfriend , because he wants to keep them in the closet , and exactly like he said ' they are too obvious, they will make the band lose fans because they will see that he boys aren't free ...'" Liam said trying to make simon's
" he's such a mother fucker I swear " I said shocked." Wait a minute ... wasn't Louis that also had a ' girlfriend ' " I said
" yes " zayn said
" oh ... I hope louis understands that they're not really dating " I said
" Yeah " they said in union
Then harry came back " so do I need to slap you again?"
" No sis you don't , we are good now "
"and where's louis ?" I asked
" bathroom "
I nodded
" so are you excited? To go to France ?" Zayn asked
" yeah , ivy moved in with her father for a while so I'm gonna see her , it's ok if i invite her backstage with me ? "
" yeah it's ok. " my brother said
" thanks "
I was looking for my sketchbook but I couldn't find it, I remembered that I put it on my bag , I looked everywhere.
" you must be looking for this ?" Harry said with my sketchbook on his hands
Oh fuck that couldn't be happening to me, noooo , I had draw Niall a lot like when he wasn't looking .... if he showed this to them they'll know about my crush , oh fuck nooo.
" ye -Yes , ca-can you , give it to m-me?" I said nervous
" yeah sure , why are you so nervous?" He asked smirking, basically making fun of me
" I-I'm not ner-nervous, puff , I'm not " I said , I'm so bad hiding feelings, that I just wanna to slap myself
" here , we have to talk " he said deadly serious , and handing me my sketchbook
I swallowed, fuck he saw it
" b- bu -but now ?" I asked nervously
" no , you can relax, drawing, when we arrived at the hotel we'll talk " he said walking away
" fuck" I mumble
" Diana, c'mere sit with us I wanna see your drawings.... " zayn said
" oh fuck not now " I mean mumble to myself
I went sit down with them
" you didn't draw me yet , like without the rest of the band " he said pouting
" ok I draw you stay quiet " I said quickly, trying to shut him up , so that I can keep my sketchbook " occupied " , so that him don't asks to see all my drawings including the ones of Niall that I did , that he didn't dream about.
Then phone rang , but I was drawing
" Liam can you do me a favor" I asked without taking my eyes of the paper " can you give me my phone " he nodded and gave it to me , I hold it with my shoulder against my ear
" hello ?" I said keeping my eyes on my drawing
" hi Diana it me ivy , so are you coming to France?" She asked excited
" yes , I'm on my way "
" that's so cool "
" look , I asked the boys if I could bring you with me backstage,and they said yes "
" really omg !!!" She said I could tell that she was jumping up and down
" yeah , then I'll tell you the time for you to come to the arena " I said
" oh ok , well my father is calling me , I have to go bye and thanks " she said
" yeah sure bye " I said , she hang up and I put my phone down on my lap
" who was calling you?" Harry asked
" ivy "
" oh oki , well we're almost landing " he said
I nodded and continued my drawing almost finishing .
" did you finish? Can I see" he asked impatiently
" no let me add some details "
" and now did you ?" He asked again
" Jesus Christ ,Zayn , calm your ass down " I said rolling my eyes
" sorry " he said
He basically is my best friend
"Here " I said turning my scketchbook
" I'll made you another one when you'll be on stage , because I did this one with a little bit of hurry " I said
" it's ok , I love it thanks " he said happy like a kid when get a candy.
The plane landed , we went to the hotel rooms , Louis and Harry are sharing same with Liam and zayn , Niall has his own room , I was sharing with Lottie and Lou , and baby lux .
I went to my room basically running away from my brother , the girls came in another plane because they lost the plane due to baby lux , she was a little sick , but Lou went to the hospital and they said that she could fly , and gave her some medicines so.... yeah .
" DIANA " my brother yelled " open the door we have to talk " he said serious
I opened the door, and closed it letting my brother came in
" so ....I saw your sketchbook, there's something that you wanted to tell me ? " he asked , waiting for me to vent with him
" Nop " I said trying to escape
" are you sure ?"
I nodded
" well you don't want but I do " he started, oh fuck I'm screwed " I'm gonna be direct, do you like Niall , like do you have a crush on him ?"
Wow that was really direct ok ...." no " I lied looking away
" yes you do , I know you , Diana I'm not dumb "
" sometimes " I whispered
" I heard that " he said" but seriously do you ?"
I nodded " but don't tell anyone please "
He nodded " just for your information he likes you too he told me at the hospital "
" puff , sure , you're so funny " I said sarcastically
" no , I'm serious Diana "
" sure , you're such a comedian" I said
He gave up and went away
Does Niall really like me ? Or is just my brother trying to give me some hope , because it's impossible for him to like me like he's a pop star he can have whoever he wants.....
We were changing to the concert , I started to use some clothes that revealed my body a little bit more, since I felt comfortable with the boys ... so I pick this outfit
The girls were already here
" damn girl you're hot woooo " Lottie said
" thanks you too " I said blushing
" I like your top it's cute " Lou said
" thank you "
We went to the arena , I called ivy, to tell her that I'm already at the arena , she said that she was here in 20 minutes, cause she live near the arena .
" hey bestie " she said hugging me " I'm so sorry , I saw the news in the net that you tried..." she said
I look down " yeah it's everything ok now let's go inside "
" so can I ask you something?"
" yeah "
" which of the boys do you fancy ? It's the blonde one isn't it ? Huh? "
I froze am I that obvious ?
I blushed so hard that she noticed
" yeah it's the blonde " she said
I nodded embarrassed
I went present ivy to the boys
" hi guys this is my friend ivy " I said
" hey " she said
" hi " they said in union
" wow that was scary never do that again " I said
She looked at Niall up and down more like checking on him , I'm not gonna lie , I was jealous
" damn he's hot " she whispered looking at me
" yeah I know " I said
She was staring at him , I was starting to feel furious , so I just drag her into the makeup room
" wtf was that ?" She asked confused
" well the boys needed to change so ...yeah " I lied
" oh ok "
" well this is lou and Lottie " I said pointing
" so you're ivy right?" Lou asked , she nodded
Then Lottie pushed me to the corner of the room and whispered " I don't like her , there's something with her that I just can't take it idk , I know that she's your friend but I'm being honest with you ok don't be mad at me" she said
" yeah it's ok , I'm not mad , like it's your opinion right " I said she nodded and let me go