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I shoved my ice cold hands deep into my jacket's pocket as I clutched onto the room key and using a swift movement, passed the key on the door and sighed.
I pressed my lips into a thin line throughout until I entered the elevator and on the hear of a bing, moved out of the hotel.
Parting my lips, the white fog emitted my lips as my eyes came in contact with the familiar hazel ones. I glanced down on the watch wrapped around my wrist to read the time, it was sharp 10p.m.
The boy stood up from the bench and walked closer to me as he gulped, "Hey."
"Hey" I gave him a small smile, "So um are we gonna sit here or walk as we go."
He shrugged, "Anything that suits you."
"Hm,"I hummed in response, "I guess it's just better to talk as we walk along."
His hands were shoved deep into his jumper's pocket, so were mine as I closed my eyes and let the cold breeze his my ears. Although the night was shivering cold, the inside of my body felt as if it's warming up by each passing second. He glanced at me just before speaking up again.
"What brought you here?"
"My teacher. She signed me up for a judge at this competition when I didn't want to, but I couldn't reject her since I respect her a lot. But I didn't expect to....erm."
"Run into me like this?" He completed with a smile plastered over his lips.
"Run into you like this." I chuckled.
"But isn't it always like this," he stated while raising his eyebrows, taking another step ahead, "That I run into you and leave you stunned."
The side of my lips let out a small sigh, "Well it's not always that you run into me and leave me stunned." I looked over to him with glint in my eyes, "Sometimes you leave unexpectedly and leave me stunned."
"I knew it would get here," he mumbled which he thought was inaudible to me, "It was for the better."
"But it didn't do any better. The happiness you thought I would receive once you left never even touched me in the slightest." I objected, "Tell me, Louis, how can you encounter perfection once you have already seen it?"
His eyes came back to me slowly once he started to ponder what to say next, "What are you even talking about, who's happiness?" he asked absent-mindedly.
I raised my gaze up to meet his, "Is there even anything left to lie about, Lou?" I remarked and sighed defeatedly, "Judy told me everything, everything you did for me to receive the happiness you thought you could never give."
He moved his eyes around before he closed them, "So, you know?"
"I know," I breathed out. "Being flawless isn't even possible, Louis, it's a word to set boundaries off things that doesn't even exist. Then how can you expect someone to be it when no one has seen an example?"
I gazed over to him as his eyes were glued over to his footsteps as he listened carefully to what I was saying.
"The thing you did wasn't okay, okay?" my voice became more stern, "If it wasn't for you I wouldn't have experienced those little joys I never knew existed. Sticking together in every up and down is what brings happiness, not leaving anyone to be on their own. How can you smile once the reason you smiled all this time leaves?"
"You are the reason I am where I am right now. The reason to why those tiniest of the moments feel special with your presence. You told me to love myself, be strong and that, that is the greatest gift I have ever received."
The thick white fog emitted my lips once again, "And despite of the fact that you knew all of this clearly," I whispered, "You decided to leave."
All this time my eyes were stuck onto my feet until I realized I never looked at him to see how he was going. My eyes travelled to the pacing boy beside me who was blinking numerously and his nose was red, along with his glistening eyes that shone under the moonlight.
"Now are you gonna respond, are you?" I stated, "Look here, even after all these months you can't face me or my words."
"If I wouldn't have the courage I wouldn't be standing here." He finally responded.
"Right, proven you have the courage, but you have to speak." I said, almost in an orderly manner.
He moved his eyes to meet mine which caused my feet to come to a skidding stop as my heart swooned.
"Do you want me to tell you what I have been thinking everyday from the past months? What I have confined inside myself just waiting for the right moment to tell it to you?" He stopped walking.
I could only process a: "What?"
"Regret" he admitted openly, "An utter regret for taking things the wrong way, and even if I tried my best to go back and solve every confliction I have caused, I know there is no going back. I have closed every exist door for myself."
"You could have tried." I muttered.
"As if you could have welcomed me back into your life?"
I sniffled and whispered in response, "Gladly."
His eyebrows unknitted as his face softened upon hearing that word come out of my mouth. The worry for him inside me urged me to step out of my track and block his way. I stood right in front of him as our eyes met.
"This is the reason why both of us can never stop being hurt." I hissed.
"What?" he questioned in a raspy voice.
"Our wrong expectations of each other."
I stared into his eyes until he broke the eye contact and looked into the opposite direction, "And misunderstandings." He completed in a quiet voice.
I stepped out of his way and stood on his side, but I never stopped looking at him as I saw him avoiding my gaze. "You have to be straightforward, go on." I said, since I could predict something was going on inside his head he's too afraid to disclose.
I moved my hand to give his shoulder a comforting squeeze until we both shared a weak smile.
"Y/N?"
"Yeah?"
"I am sorry."
"Yeah."
"Do you think a happy ending is possible?"
I smiled. "I don't know, do you?" he chuckled at that.
He battled his eyelashes innocently, "I want this story of ours to be a happy one, would you want to do that?"
"Gladly."
"Y/N, I love you, maybe more than I could ever put into words. Only if you knew how much I want you, I want to experience every joy with you, fly with you, fall with you, cry with you, laugh with you, live my whole life with you. Will you allow me to cherish you till my last breath?"
I didn't realise our hands were intertwined into each other, wide goofy smiles plastered over our lips as we gazed into each other's irises. But even though we both knew our goofy smiles, red tomato faces, and the bags under our eyes weren't likeable to some, we both allowed ourselves to do whatever our heart desired.
A small giggle escaped my lips as I leaned in and rested my elbows over his shoulders until our faces were centimeters away.
"So what has the judge decided?" he questioned, whispering.
"The judge has decided that," I pressed my lips together playfully in thought until I whispered back, "shut up and kiss m-"
Before I could complete my sentence, he planted his warm lips onto mine. My hands reached behind his neck and his on the side of my hips as he gently pulled me in closer. His lips transformed into a smile while my eyebrows furrowed and we both giggled, surrounded by the bliss beginnings we chose for each other.
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