Mandy Moriah
+3 months later
"sometimes i feel like he isn't attracted to me anymore, and that makes me so sad sometimes." i said to myself looking in the mirror.
i usually would vent to Von, india, or my grandma, but my grandma is back in chicago and i'm all the way in Hawaii with my boyfriend and his friends on spring break.
i feel like crying most of the time , i don't know what happened either. i knew relationships come with problems but this landed heavy on me.
it's like me and Von's communication went downhill, quickly. and it was so sudden too.
i wanna talk to India about everything but she's been moving kinda funny lately.
ion like that shit.
i feel so alone sometimes, even thought i have all these people surrounding me- so alone.
i turned seeing Von walk into our room.
"where were you ?" i broke the silence turning around looking up at him.
he completely ignored my question taking off his shoes.
i exhaled feeling myself getting frustrated.
"you left and didn't say anything to me, are you okay?" i asked him again hearing him sigh.
"gimmie a kiss."he said roughly kissing my cheek hugging me tight.
"why are you acting so strange." i attempted to push him back but he kept kissing on me.
i scrunched my face up as the smell of alcohol wrapped around my nose.
Von doesn't even drink like that, this shit is getting somewhat scary right now.
"stop Von, the fuck has gotten into you." i forcefully pushed him off on the verge of tears at this point.
cause why is he like this ? what is really up.
he sat up rubbing his hand down his face sighing then chuckling lowly.
"what's yo problem Mandy?" he asked after a moment of silence between the two of us.
"huh?" he looked at me urging me to answer.
"fuck is you actin like a bitch fo." he snapped making me look at him sideways with tears in my eyes.
"you da only bitch bitch i see up in here." i mugged him up and down wiping my teary eyes.
"yea right, watch yo mouth lil fo nem." he laughed.
"Von talk to me" i grabbed his hand before he could walk out of the room.
"what's going on with you?" i hugged around his waist.
"ain't shit goin on wit me, you tweakin like always." he pushed me off of him brushing past me.
"do you even love me anymore" i sniffled as tears rolled down my cheeks and i looked up at him.
he looked at me before as his hand wrapped around the doorknob.
"to tell you the truth Mandy, ion even know."
India Royale
i fucked up bad this time.
and i'm so sorry.
i smile dead in my cousin's face on a daily basis and i'm doing her so bogus behind her back.
and then me and Durk back on good terms and we promised each other no more lies, sneaking around, and to be better this time.
it was genuine.
and we're happier now. i'm so glad we worked on things
but at the same time...
Von got me stuck. the first time we ever messed around was supposed to had been the last time. but i couldn't let him go that easy.
i can admit it be the raw ass sex for me, nothing else because i know Von still madly inlove with Mandy.
i can tell.
and because of that i get a little jealous from time to time which makes me lash out on Mandy sometimes.
we were so close, i can't blame her for distancing herself away from me over time. shit look how i treated her.
even though ian mean to, i still treated her bad. Mandy got the sweetest heart and all i was trying to do was protect it-
from mothafuckas like me.
Mandy Moriah
"what are they arguing about?" i whispered to Booka as i walked down the stairs seeing Durk and Von arguing loudly in the front room.
"ion know but them niggas finna kill each other" he shook his head eating a handful of chips.
i walked down the rest of the stairs seeing running to Von's side.
"what's going on" i asked India.
she just eyes me up and down making me straight face her.
see what i'm saying. but if i slap the piss out her in wrong-
right before my eyes Von swung on Durk and a fight between the two of them broke out that quickly.
"oh my god!" i exclaimed trying to break them up as they scuffled intensely. "somebody break this shit up!" i yelled sheeting everybody watching.
"na fuck that i'm tryna see a dread fly off" Louie said making some people laugh.
Reese and Breezy rushed in breaking them up.
"ian even have to up the blick on yo bitch ass !" Von yelled at Durk while i held him back the best i could.
"boa fo nem just whooped cho goof ass, you might as well up the pole!" Durk yelled back going up the stairs with India.
i tried pulling von in the opposite direction but he wouldn't budge at all. him and Durk just continued to go back and forth.
"baby calm down let's go u-"
"mandy get the fuck off me !!!" Von yelled in my face making everything stop for a moment.
i even froze up just looking up at him in disbelief.
"i don't even know who the fuck you are right now." i shook my head storming out of the house.
my heart is doing the thing where it beats rapidly , i get hot and feel like i can't breathe.
i just need some air.
i found a quiet spot by the water sitting there.
i want to break down right now.
"pretty flower for una chica guapa?" a hawaiian girl asked me smiling holding out a pretty flower waiting for me to accept it.
"gracias señorita." i smiled back taking the flower and she walked off with a smile leaving me.
i twirled the flower looking down at all the pretty colors in it.
"this shit decent as hell whole time." i heard Durk's voice making me look next to me seeing him sitting beside me taking in the view as well.
"it is." i mumbled looking down drawing in the sand.
"you ight g?" he asked making eye contact causing me to become tongue tied.
no.
"i'm okay." i smiled.
i've been suffering in silence for a minute now. i just hide it pretty.
"what happened why were you guys fighting?" i asked eager to know.
"some underlying issues, ian worried bout dat shit." she waved it off. "it is what it is."
mad he didn't give me a straight up answer, but it's okay i guess.
"what you doing out here?" i asked curiously.
"wanted to check up on you, since yo lame ass nigga le-" he started to say but i glared at him making him stop mid sentence laughing.
"wassup with that anyway ?"
"we're just going through some hard times right now, we're fine." i nodded looking up at him.
"you just keep lien n shit " he laughed making me look at him blinking tears away.
"you right, i just don't know what to do." i sighed looking down.
"how bout we do this." he said pulling my face close to his by his finger as our lips pressed into one another's.
i didn't want to- but i pulled away looking at him in shock standing up.
"what's wrong , you know you want feelin dat." he smiled pulling me back down next to him smiling.
this shit can't be foreal.
this is so wrong of me, it doesn't feel wrong though.
i slowly moved in kissing his lips again while he rested his hands on my waist.
i missed being kissed like this , being touched liked this. and as of right now i don't want this moment to end.
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~ 𝐦𝐲𝐚𝐚💘✍🏼