~edited may 29, 2021~
you:
hey...bo
can we meet up at (insert random park)?
it's about akaashi
you knew that it was a probably long shot for bokuto to respond to your text seeing as it was almost one in the morning. but you still hoped he would answer.
bo‼️:
yeah sure
i'll see you there in twenty minutes?
you:
yup sounds good :))
you put your shoes and your jacket on and climbed out your window as quietly as you could in case alisa was still awake doing her homework. you put one airpod in your ear and started walking towards the park.
you left earlier so you could have some time to just collect your thoughts and what to exactly tell bokuto. you knew bokuto wasn't dumb, he catches onto more than what other people think. the only thing you didn't know was how much he could catch onto.
sitting down on a random bench, you were contemplating whether or not to tell bokuto that this whole relationship thing between you and akaashi was fake. based on what you heard from the volleyball team, bokuto was a trustworthy person. and it's not like he had anyone to tell it to, and it would make understanding your situation easier.
ten minutes later, you saw bokuto in his volleyball team jacket walking up to you.
"you know, you shouldn't be sitting all alone on a park bench at one in the morning. that's a little dangerous, don't you think?" bokuto asked you as he sat down next to you.
you put your airpod back in its case and turned to face bokuto. "nah, i have pepper spray on me. i'll be okay." you gave him a thumbs up and bokuto laughed, quite loudly.
"so, what is it about akaashi you want to talk about? it better not be something bad." bokuto's voice turned serious his last words. akaashi was his best friend and he was naturally going to take his side, in most cases anyway.
"well...it's not bad but it's not good, i guess." bokuto nodded as he listened to your words, signaling you to continue.
"so, this is going to sound kind of stupid but...my relationship with akaashi is kind sorta fake..."
"...wow. i want to say i'm super surprised but i'm not that surprised." you looked at bokuto with a mixture of confusion and surprised.
"what do you mean by that?"
"well, i didn't think it was fake but i did think it was suspicious. i mean, you and akaashi had never interacted from what i saw. he had just broken up with mai, and no offense, but he has never mentioned you. well, from what i remember anyway." bokuto had a proud smile on his face after he finished speaking while you still had your look of surprise.
you didn't expect bokuto to retain that much, you knew he could retain some information. he was captain for a reason, but you just didn't know how much. apparently, it's more than you thought.
"...well then. i guess this makes my storytelling a little easier for me." so you ended up telling bokuto everything that had happened in the past two months.
the mystery sender of the letters, the backstory of the letters, the whole kenma-akaashi debacle at the park when they had their practice match, the talk you had with akaashi in that café, and then your final decision.
"if you didn't look so serious and you weren't telling me this at 1 in the morning, i'd assume you were lying. but i can tell you're serious about it. so what's the issue here?"
"well...one of the rules i subconsciously made when we made that contract thi—" bokuto interrupted you mid sentence.
"wait wait wait, you and akaashi made a contract? f/n what the fuck? was it akaashi's idea? i bet it was his."
"actually no, it was mine. can we get back to my story please?" bokuto gestured you to continue after he got his giggles to a silence.
"so i told myself, i wouldn't catch feelings for him. i knew that after we 'break up' it'll go back to how it used it to be."
"and how it used to be was you and him never acknowledging each other? and you'd quit your manager position?" bokuto asked you, even though he already knew your answer. your nodding confirmed his thoughts.
"look it's just...i've been spending all this time with him. he walks me home, he walks me to school, we hang out like every week, i've met his parents and i absolutely adore them, he's been over my house, he's met my sister and my parents, and i just UGH!" you let out a scream as you buried your face in your hands. bokuto awkwardly rubbed your back.
you sat up straight, taking your hands off your face. "okay, i'm good now. that felt kinda good."
"you want to tell me more about this?"
you nodded and proceeded to speak. "well, there was the time when it was raining and he put his umbrella over us since i didn't have one. and then i got sick because i ran in the rain and he took care of me after school. and when he calmed me down by holding my hand when he met my parents." you kept telling these moments to bokuto.
you didn't notice that when you spoke of these moments, you had a love struck expression on your face. bokuto could practically see hearts in your eyes and an aura of pink flowers around you as you told him of those sweet little moments you and akaashi had.
"hey f/n," bokuto interrupted you as you started to tell him about how you two went stargazing at midnight. "this may not help you, like at all, but i'm like 99% sure you have feelings for akaashi."
sure, you knew you had some form of feelings for akaashi. you just thought it was because of how he was treating you.
with the way akaashi treated you, anyone would've gotten flustered. that's what you thought it was anyway. a small part of you knew you had feelings for him, but you ignored it.
"...no, no, nope, no, no. i don't have feelings for keiji. i don't, it has to be something else." you full out denied it. but bokuto saw right through you.
"f/n, if you're denying it this much, then lord, do i have some news for you." he patted your shoulder as you ,once again, buried your face in your hands and let out a small scream.
"okay, i think i have an idea that'll help you out. come on." bokuto got up from his seat and held his hand out towards you.
you grabbed his hand and he started walking, with you in tow. he stopped walking when you two had reached a bridge.
"why exactly are we at a bridge?"
"well my dear f/n, you seem to be screaming a lot and you need this. i do this a lot actually."
you still didn't understand the purpose of you two being at a bridge in the dead of night.
"do what exactly?"
"whenever i get stressed out about something or just simply need to scream, i come here and i just scream my worries out. it's oddly therapeutic. try it." bokuto ran to the other side of the sidewalk you two were on.
"can you hear me!" you yelled out to him. bokuto shook his head no.
"if you want! i can go first!" you nodded your head and bokuto gave you smile with two thumbs up.
"FUCK! I HATE BEING A THIRD YEAR!" you could barely hear him, but you could still make out some of the words he was saying.
"I WISH I HAD MORE TIME TO PLAY WITH MY TEAM! THEY'RE THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME! AND I REALLY WANT TO WIN NATIONALS FOR THEM AND MYSELF!"
your eyes widened at the amount of sentiment that came from bokuto. obviously, you knew bokuto cared for his team. you just didn't know what the extent of his love for his team was.
"f/n! your turn! just face the water and scream your heart out!"
from what you saw, you didn't need to do much thinking. it was the first thing that came to your mind.
the first thing that came to your mind? well, it was none other than akaashi keiji, yet your scream contained mixed feelings.
"FUCK YOU AKAASHI KEIJI! FUCK YOU FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE THIS!" bokuto's eyes widened as soon as you started screaming.
"I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I COULD FEEL THIS WAY! I REALLY LIKE YOU! LIKE A LOT! AND IT SUCKS! BECAUSE THIS IS DEEPER THAN WHAT I FELT WHEN I WROTE THOSE STUPID FUCKING LETTERS!" your throat started to burn from all the yelling, yet you weren't finished yet.
"I'M NOT READY TO LET YOU GO YET! I LIKE HAVING YOU IN MY LIFE AGAIN!" that's when you stopped. it was a repressed feeling you didn't like having.
you weren't ready for things to go back to normal, you weren't ready to let akaashi go, you weren't ready to the face the inevitable result of this "relationship".
you clenched your fists, your fingernails making tiny crescents on the palms of your hand as you took deep breaths. then you felt two buff arms around you.
"i'm so proud of you f/n! you did it!" bokuto yelled out, wrapping his arms around your shoulders. a smile appeared on your face as you started laughing.
"feeling better?" bokuto asked you as you started walking the way back to your place.
"yeah, i actually do. thanks for this bo, it means a lot really." bokuto gave you a big smile and he walked with you the rest of the way back to your house. you told him to not worry about it but he insisted on it.
he only left when he saw you climb back into your room, safely. he gave you a wave and whispered-yelled goodbye to you and started walking back to his house.
that night you slept better than other nights, some form of stress being relieved off of your shoulders.
all you had to do was figure out what you wanted to do with those feelings you harbored for akaashi.
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