Julia P.O.V
I opened my eyes slowly, but the light was too much, and I closed them again, turning around, covering my face with the covers. I tried to remember what had happened before I had fallen asleep, and when I realised what I did, I was mortified. Absolutely mortified. I had run away, I had told them that they didn't love me enough, that I wasn't worth anything. I had fallen asleep mid-sentence. I was a horrible person and a horrible wife. I didn't remember much of what they looked like while I did that. They were probably angry. I peeked out the covers, with one eye closed and I recognised the walls of Gotar right away. I then covered my face again. They had brought me to Gotar, I was in trouble. I had misbehaved and I was bad. This was bad. O no, Trevor. Trevor was probably mortified and heartbroken.
"Trevor." I stammered, I needed Trevor. I needed to check if he was ok. I had held onto him. "Trevor." I said a bit louder. I needed Trevor.
"Love, I'm here." I heard a voice state. Love? That wasn't Trevor. That was William. O no, William. I had moved away from him when he wanted to comfort me, but he had flirted with Heather. He had smiled at her; he had been nice to her. He wasn't even nice to me when he was in grumpy goose modus. He wanted her. "And Hugo is here too." He added and I felt tears appear in my eyes. Hugo had yelled at me once again; he was angry at me. He hated me. He probably doubted the choice, wished he had gone back in time to choose Heather instead of me. I was a wreck, I was nothing. He needed someone stable by his side, and I was anything but. Hugo and William were here, but where was Trevor. I needed to hear Trevor, see if he was ok.
"Trevor." I whispered softly as the sleep overtook me again. I felt someone lower the covers by my face and press a kiss onto my forehead. I felt a tear fall on my forehead. I didn't know whom from, and I didn't want to know. I was so tired. All I wanted was Trevor right now. He would know how to cheer me up. He understood me.
I woke up after a while, forcing my body to wake up and the pain in my arm was gone. I was laying on my back again, my arms over the covers and I looked at my arm, squinting, as the light was too much. There was a band aid on it and I realised that I probably had been fed.
"How long?" I whispered softly, not realising that I was thinking out loud. How long had I been here?
"Three weeks" I heard a voice state and I closed my eyes, I was so tired, but I opened them again and I looked up and took my surroundings in. The bed was in the middle of the room, I had no idea where I was. There was a table with a desk, there was another bed, and then there was a couch. On that couch sat Hugo whom was reading a book. He was staring at me uncertain. "How are you?" He asked.
"I'm hungry." I whispered softly, staring into those familiar perfect brown eyes.
"I'll make sure you get some food" He said and I nodded slowly as I looked around, wondering if there was a mirror or anything, showing any sign that I was in Prison.
"Where am I?" I whispered softly as I put my hand on my belly, and my eyes widened as I looked down, holding up the covers. My bump was larger and I looked at Hugo. "What?"
"You're three months right now." Hugo said very carefully looking at me. "You've been asleep for three weeks, you woke up again and then slept for another two days." I nodded slowly; he didn't answer where I was. "We're in Gotar."
"O" I said with a bit of sadness as I looked at my little bump.
"Not in the prison." He said very carefully and I looked up from my little bump and looked into his brown eyes. Those darned brown eyes. "The door is locked though and we only have the keys. But you're not in the prison."
"O." I said again and I looked back down at my belly bump. "Makes sense." I whispered as I slowly sat up now and I rubbed my eyes carefully and Hugo kept looking at me. "Why are you so far away?" I whimpered a bit, I just wanted him to hold me. Even though I was upset by him, I wanted to be held.
"I assumed you didn't want me to be close" He said with a bit of sadness. "I'm also a tad upset."
"O" I said again and nodded. The door opened and for one fleeting second, I hoped it was Trevor; I needed to know if he was all right. Hugo and William were angry at me, I had this gut feeling they were angry at me. But Trevor? I didn't know. But my hope was crushed when I saw William walking in. Not that I was upset to see him, I wanted to see him too. I loved him; I think? His green eyes looked at me and there was sadness in his eyes. His hair was all over the place and he was dressed in his track pants and a simple shirt.
"Good morning" He said and I stared at him as he locked the door behind him and he walked up to me with a tray of food. He placed it on the bed next to me and I sat straighter as I started to eat; I was starving. I didn't reply to William, I just needed food. I realised after two minutes that this wasn't polite though and I looked up, a sandwich in my mouth. Hugo and William were observing me and I took a slow bite and put the rest of the sandwich down.
"Do you want anything?" I said through the chewing and they stared at me in a bit of disbelief and I could see a hint of amusement in their eyes.
"We're good. Thank you." William said and I nodded at that as I then continued to eat. "How are you feeling?" He asked as I then grabbed another piece of bread and put a huge layer of chocolate spread on it and then put it in my mouth and I moaned at the taste, closing my eyes.
"I think she's too preoccupied with her food." Hugo said and I nodded at that as I then smelled my armpits and I frowned as I opened my eyes.
"Why don't I stink?" I said through my chewing and they looked at me with some amusement.
"We showered you yesterday." Hugo replied and I frowned at that but then shrugged, they took me from my family, so showering me in my sleep was normal.
"How are you?" William repeated and I nodded as I took a glass of water and took a huge gulp.
"I'm tired." I admitted to them. "Not physically, but mentally I guess." I said with a frown as I looked ahead. "I'm a bit embarrassed too." I then said biting the top of my lip. "Really embarrassed actually."
"What are you embarrassed about?" Hugo asked and I gave him this look of, are you fucking kidding me. "We want to hear it from you." He said "We can make our guesses, but we want to hear it, communicate it."
"Shouldn't we wait until we're complete though." I said looking at them. "Or does he hate me?" I said with a softer voice
"Thanks to you, we got into contact with Dale." William said and my eyes widened at that. "And we have more information on the gang, and we've arrested over 100 people. Trevor is very busy with handling with that. He's here every night by your bedside, but he can't miss this."
"Is Dale ok?" I said and William showed me a small smile.
"For his own safety, he and his family are currently here in Gotar. They have gotten one of the largest houses and he's enrolled in the school here. Trevor has personally promised him that if he goes to medical school, he will get a high position within Gotar Prison" He said and tears appeared in his eyes. "His mother has gotten a job, right away, here at the bakery and I've heard that she loves it. His father sadly can't work a lot, but Natalie needed an administrative assistant and he can do that, so he works for Natalie now."
"Really?" I stammered. "That's so kind of you." I said as tears rolled down my cheeks. "I'm sure Macy is over the moon."
"She cried and hugged us, before realising what she did. Richard apologised for about two hours" Hugo said and I couldn't help but smile and nod looking at him.
"Good" I said and I took a deep breath as I put the food down and I sat up a bit and I let out a small breath. "What did they tell you?" I said looking at them now and they looked at one another and back at me.
"Dale said he found you laying on the streets, sobbing." Hugo said and I bit the top of my lip, fuck this was hard to hear, but I had to hear it. "That he took you to their home because he was afraid for your safety. He was going to bring you to a station of his friend; just like you told us." He said and I nodded slowly at that and I looked sideways for a second.
"I'm sorry" I said staring out the window, seeing rain falling down. "Not for my emotions, because I did, and I do, still feel like shit and betrayed and hurt." I said letting out a sigh "But for putting my personal security at risk, for putting our baby at risk" I said, tears rolling down my cheek. "And for forcing you to pull out the military and for" I let out a breath. "For worrying you" I said and I looked sideways. "I have my emotions under control most of the time, but I just. I was really hurt by what you did Will."
"What exactly hurt you?" Will said and I sighed at that "I can think of why, but I want to hear it so I can fully understand you better. Even though I know you pretty well and even though I can read you, I'm not like Hugo; I can't read minds." I smiled a bit at that and nodded.
"That you were nice to her, that you smiled at her. When you don't do that in public with me." I said, not daring to look at him, I looked at my hands.
"If roles were reversed, if you were the one waiting on us, and I was there with her." he said and I closed my eyes in pain. "I would've done the same thing."
"That's what hurts." I said staring ahead. "That I'm replaceable I guess, or I was. I don't know." I said and I looked at him now and tears were in his eyes and Hugo was staring ahead with tears in his eyes. "You guys might not understand that, because for you it's always been very clear that you had to share a wife, you knew what you had to do. But for me, it wasn't that clear. I lived in uncertainty and then for a while I was sure that I wasn't going to be with you. Then I'm chosen and I'm not a hundred percent sure that you guys made the right choice, or that you think you made the right choice." I said and he looked at me with tears in his eyes and the door opened and I looked up and my eyes widened as Trevor walked in. His blonde curly hair was currently straight and wet down his face, his blue eyes meeting mine and his eyes widened.
"You're awake" Trevor said and he looked at Hugo and William whom both had tears in their eyes.
"I am" I said and he nodded looking at me.
"Continue Julia" Hugo then said and I sighed a bit at that as Trevor grabbed at towel and dried off his hair and I looked at him before staring ahead.
"It's just confusing, and I just." I said and I stared ahead. "I'm afraid that you guys made the wrong choice, or think that, and I act out because of that, and because I act out it only confirms to me more that I'm the wrong choice and it's a vicious circle." I said and Hugo nodded looking at me.
"Like I said before, it would've been easier if we had chosen Heather." Hugo said and I closed my eyes and I looked down at my hands as I felt my body crumbling. "She would've been the perfect queen. But we don't want a perfect queen" he said and I looked back at the door and I sighed at that. "We want you; we love you, and I know that saying it a billion times won't convince you that, that comes with time. But we love you, we didn't make the wrong choice at all. I speak for both of my brothers and myself, that we are so lucky with you."
"Why?" I said looking at Hugo a bit annoyed, how dare he say that. "How can you be lucky with me? I'm a mess?" I replied. "I'm nothing but what you created in your heads? How can you say you love me and are lucky with me? How?"
"Because we are" William said and I looked at him now. "We love you for who you are, we love that you don't give a fuck that we're kings, you don't give a fuck who we are, and treat us like equals. We're not used to that Julia. Our whole life we've been treated differently because of whom we are and 69 potential wives did that for us, and then you came along and you remind us of what it's like to be human. Even now. Normally you would be locked up for the actions you pulled, but you reminded us that you are a human being with emotions and you act on them. So, we acted on that too. We are changing because of you, and you are changing because of us. We love you" He said and I shook my head.
"So, you love me because I treat you differently?" I said rolling my eyes.
"We love you because you're stubborn, creative, intelligent, insightful, caring, loving" Trevor said as he sat down and grabbed dinner from the door. "Challenging, you make every day fun. You're perfect" he said and I stared at him with tears in my eyes as I then looked sideways and I shook my head. "And you're really hot too, that helps." he said and that's what did it; just like I expected; I let out a small laugh and I shook my head. That fucking idiot. "What? Don't look at me like that. She has an ass you can do your shit with; her tits are totally what Will has been dreaming about ever since he sucked on mums, and her legs are my wonderland." Trevor said and I covered my face as I started to laugh and fully shaking laughter.
"Yeah, but you don't have to say it bro." William said with some amusement. "It was so romantic and so adorable and then you ruin it."
"What? It's been three weeks ok." Trevor said and I let myself fall back.
"You're an idiot, do you know that?" Hugo said and I sat back up wiping the tears from my face. "He's an idiot." Hugo said and I nodded.
"He is." I confirmed with a small smile as I then grabbed the bowl of fruits that was on that plate and I grabbed the grapes. "All of you are."
"That we are" William said "But we're all your idiots. Nobody else. Ever." He said and I nodded slowly at that. "Heather and Charlotte mean nothing to us, apart from that we once maybe thought we were going to marry them. But we didn't, we couldn't have, because it has always been you. Always." he said and I nodded slowly at that. "Like Hugo said, we can say that a billion times, but you won't believe that. You'll believe it with actions so we will spend the rest of our lives showing you how much we love you. But" he said and I knew that was coming "You can't pull shit like that again Julia. You can't run away. I would've been ok with you running out of the restaurant and then waiting outside, I would've been ok with you taking security men to run away with you, anything. But you can't leave alone, because it is not good for my heart." he said and I nodded slowly at that.
"Ok." I said and he nodded at that. "I understand that, I really once again am sorry for worrying you."
"Thank you." Hugo said and I nodded as I looked down at my bump.
"Three months" I said looking down at my belly "Is she healthy?"
"She?" Hugo said and I took a deep breath.
"I don't like saying It, so I say she." I said and I looked up at him.
"She is very healthy" Trevor said. "Had an echo three days ago, top drawer." he said and I grabbed them right away and looked at it, tears appearing in my eyes.
"She's perfect" I whispered softly and I looked up at them. "And adorable" I said turning my head sideways looking at the little blip. This was currently inside of me. "So, she really is healthy?"
"Her heart sounded healthy and she looked healthy." William confirmed once more.
"Are you sure?" I said my eyes widening as I looked up. "I don't want her to be-"
"She's healthy and immensely comfortable". Hugo said and I nodded as I looked back at the picture.
"Can you read the minds of baby's as well?" I asked and he giggled a bit at that.
"Of course." He said and I smiled a bit at that. I then looked at the date and my eyes widen.
"No" I shouted as I put my hand in front of my mouth. "Nat's wedding. Could that continue. I know I have to give permission on the day itself,"
"They got married. You already signed your permission. You were at home due to morning sickness" Trevor said and I nodded at that.
"Good" I said and I let out a small breath as I traced the picture. "How is Robert?"
"He passed away a week ago" Hugo said and I looked up, my eyes widening, tears already appearing. "Had the funeral four nights ago. He's with Seglusa, his brothers and wife now. He has peace"
"I wish I could've said goodbye" I whispered and I looked down at my hands and they were shaking. "Are we ok?" I asked after thirty seconds of silence, looking up carefully.
"We are" William said and I let out a relieved breath. They loved me. They said they loved me.