"Some nights it do be feeling like you alone, right?
Reminiscing 'bout your old life
It be feeling you gon' die
Certain shit ain't goin' right"
~Durk
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~ Sanai POV ~
I got in the car and started driving to my moms house that's she had in Chicago. She didn't stay here but she visited sometimes. 30 minutes later I pulled up in the driveway.
I got out and knocked on the door seeing my mom open it a few minutes later.
"Haay Baby" she squealed hugging me
"Haay ma how you been?" I asked
"I'm good" she said walking in the house "how about you?"
"I'm good"
"That's good. Where's Durk?" She asked "and where's Von?"
"No clue where Durk is" I said " and Von probably somewhere fucking a bartender" I laughed
"What you mean?" She asked
"He cheated" I said and she gasped
"Fr? I'm sorryyy" she said hugging me
"I'm good. That hoe can have him on my mama I'm off that" I laughed
"Girl don't lie on me" she said smacking my shoulder "cause yk you in love with him yeen off nothing"
"Not you acting like a friend more than a mom" I said rolling my eyes
"Girl anyways" she laughed "tell me what happened"
I told her what happened "so you gone go back home?" She asked
"Probably not today, I left my main phone there so he can't find my location" I shrugged
"You tryna smile through the pain yeen slick" she laughed
"Man you posed to be my mama and you up here laughing at me" I said smacking my teeth
My mama became more like my friend than a mom after my dad died. I wasn't complaining tho cause she was just like me.
"Why you acting like you don't care?" She asked "and you know I'm not good at this advice stuff"
"I'm acting like ion care cause I got that feeling" I said and she looked at me like I was speaking another language
"The same one you had on that birthday?" She asked and I nodded causing her to make a 😬 face
On my birthday the year my dad died I had been feeling like I was gonna throw up the whole day like my stomach was in knots and the feeling didn't go away until my mom told me my dad had died.
"So when I caught him in the bed with the girl and the feeling went away I was over it" I said
"You gone be alright?" She asked
"Duh" I laughed "imma big gangstaaaaa" I cheesed causing her to laugh
"Girl you a trip" she said "but im here if you need anything yk?"
"Yes I know" I said "but I'm finna go to Von mama house cause she ACTUALLY will give me advice" I added laughing
"Girl @ me next time" she said "see you later tho stay safe love you"
"Love you too" I said hugging her
I walked out the door and made my way to Von mom house
15 minutes later I pulled into her driveway and knocked on the door
"Don't nobody knock like that but Sanai" I heard as Tee opened the door
"Oh Sanai baby" she squealed hugging me
"How you been?" She asked stepping aside letting me in
"Uhmmm" I dragged sitting on the couch "we all have minor setbacks for a major comeback right?" I asked
"Lord what Von do?" She asked
"I caught him in bed with somebody else" I said playing with my fingers
"Oohh I'm so sorry baby" she said pulling me into a hug
"It's okay" I said
"You sure?" She asked and I nodded
"Yeah" I said "right person wrong time right?" I asked
"I hate seeing you like this, knowing how much you care about Von. He's trying baby I promise please be patient. One day he's gonna realize what he has and that he needs to keep what he has. Imma talk to him later for you alright?" She asked
I nodded "and stop putting everybody else first without caring for yourself first. you and your mental health is important. You can't take care of others without taking care of yourself first. Remember that ok?"
"I will" I said "I'm sprung though idk what to do. My mind is everywhere with so many questions"
"Imma tell you this" she said grabbing my hands "when it's genuine and meant to be it won't be easy. No relationship is all sunshine but two people can share one umbrella and survive a storm together"
"Sooo I'm guessing Von daddy was stupid cause" I dragged laughing
"Girl tell me about it"she laughed
~ Von POV ~
I fucked up big time. Ion even know why I cheated it was just a heat in the moment type thing.
When I she left I was gone track her location but she left her phone here.
I heard the door opened and I thought it was her so I went downstairs only to see Durk and Reese and Muwop
"Wassup" Durk said and I nodded my head
"Where Sanai bobbled headed ass at?" Reese asked
"She gone" I mumbled
"Gone where?" Durk asked
"Idk" I said "she left her phone here so idk where she at"
"What you do?" Reese asked
"Yaal know that bartender from the day we went to the show?" I asked and they nodded
"Von I know yo ass ain't" Durk said and I nodded
"Yo ass stupid. How you gone talk about that girl in the club but fuck on ha?" He asked
"Man ionk bro" I sighed "she came texting me talm bout she need advice next thing you know"
"What Sanai tell you?" Muwop asked
" I tried to talk to ha but she was like it ain't nun to talk about I fucked up and then she told me that if she come back I need to be gone" I said rubbing my head
"You pull out?" Reese asked and I slowly shook my head no
"You wrap up?" Durk asked
"Nigga me and Nai don't use condoms where tf imma find condoms at?" I asked looking at him like he was stupid
"THEY AINT NAI THO" he yelled getting up "YOU CANT BE FUCKING ON THESE HOES UNPROTECTED"
"NIGGA WHO YOU SCREAMING AT" I screamed back getting up
"Aye yaal chill" Muwop said getting between us
Durk sat back down "look all I'm saying is, if yeen pull out or wrap up and she wasn't on birth control and if she get pregnant Nai gone really leave yo ass and she gone be doing ha and you gone be sick."
Reese hit the blunt "aye he right tho"
"No shit" I said
"Aye don't be mad at me for yo fuck up. You my brother and it's nun but love but this all you. I'd be wrong if I ain't tell you when you in the wrong. That girl was just in the hospital and you pull sumn like this? On the day you was supposed to meet ha mama as ha nigga? You testing yo luck. Nai got a big heart but it ain't gone be much forgiving after this. Especially if that girl end up pregnant. You did ha wrong fa no reason and you know it " Reese said
"Damn nigga" Durk said "that's the realist shit I done heard you say since I knew you"
"Yaal be acting like I'm just stupid" Reese said
"Wait you was supposed to meet ha mama?" Muwop asked
"Yeah" I mumbled
"You talk to yo og?" He asked
"Nah" I started "she gone give me a mouth full"
"That's what you need" Durk said
"Man yaal niggas ain't no help" I said smacking my teeth
"Nigga how can we help you?" Muwop asked "ain't nobody else better for you other than Sanai. fooling with them other hoes yo ass would've still been in jail with 3 kids paying child support while they other here fucking on other niggas. Ain't nobody else gone save yo ass like Sanai did. These bitches don't care about you like Sanai do. All they see is money,dick,and clout. You ain't gone find nobody else forgiving and understanding like Sanai. Bitches is grimey these days bro , you find somebody that ain't like that and you fuck over ha? I love you bruh but you dug yo hole too deep it ain't no helping this" he said getting up
"I'm finna see if I can find ha Imma be back" he adding walking out
"I'm finna go to my mama house" I said getting up
"Imma stay here in case Sanai come back" Durk said
"Same" Reese said and I nodded
I got in the car and drove to my mama house and knocked on the door.
"Dayvon you gone get enough of knocking on my door like that" my mama said opening the door
"Haay baby" she said hugging me "what you do this time?"
"Damn ma I gotta do sumn?" I asked
"I can tell by the look in your face" she said walking in the house sitting on the couch
"She been by here?" I asked
"She came by here earlier she seemed distracted" she said "how you gone try to fix this?" She asked
"Idk" I said "my mind all over the place rn I can't think straight"
"Obviously" she said "you better pray she forgive you. That girl got a heart of gold dont turn it into stone"
"I'm trying ma" I said sighing
"Not hard enough. Stop being stupid. Act like you got some sense " she said slapping me upside my head
"Muwop told me that ain't nobody else better for me other than her"
"He was right. I seen the way you look when you talk about that girl that's why I can't believe you did this" she said
"Ma what if she don't wanna be with me nomo" I said
"Why you say that?" She asked
"Cause it's just seem like she falling outta love with me and this could've just been the cherry on top" I sighed "I be trying to tell her she can talk to me about anything and that I'm always listening but she be acting like everything fine but I know it's something bothering her"
"Imma tell you that same thing I told her" she said "when it's genuine and meant to be it won't be easy. No relationship is all sunshine but two people can share one umbrella and survive a storm together"
I smacked my teeth "look at you tryna be Maya Angelou assum"
"See this why you single now you always tryna get out on somebody" she said
"Too soon ma" I said
~ Sanai POV ~
After I left Von mom house I had to go back to my house to get my rolling stuff.
I walked in seeing Durk and Reese on the couch
"Wassup sis" Durk said
"Haay" I said walking upstairs
I walked in my room getting a bag and putting my rolling stuff in there before walking downstairs
"Where you finna go?" Durk asked
"Riding" I replied getting a bottle of water out the fridge
"Riding where?" He asked
"Around-" I started "you asking me questions I don't know the answer to"
"My fault,you good tho?" He asked and I nodded
"Yup" I said
"Good cause don't nobody got time for yo ugly ass to be round here crying" Reese said
"Stfu before I shoot you in yo neck and make that whisper worse" I said flicking him off
"You left yo phone here" Durk said
"I'm aware" I replied "I'm out see yaal later"
I walked out and got in my car and drove off getting a text from Muwop
Wop 👺💙
Wya?
Leaving my house why?
Where you finna go?
The park
Imma meet you there
Alr
I made it to the park a couple minutes later. I sat on the bench and started rolling up when Muwop sat beside me.
"Wassup" he said hugging me "you good?"
I nodded lighting up the blunt "yup"
"You sure? Old you would've been cried by now"
"I'm sick of yaal asses calling me out whenever I cry bruh" I laughed passing it to him
"Fr tho" he said "old you would've been somewhere with puffy eyes and shit"
"Old me ain't get kidnapped, almost raped for the 3rd time and was in a coma for 2 months" I laughed
"Damn Nai" he said "you really the strongest female ik"
"I guess"
"I'm fr" he said "who yk can go through all that and still have love in they heart?"
"That's cause I'm me" I shrugged
"Don't get cocky now, ole bean headed ass" he said mushing my head
"So what's the plan?" He asked
"What you mean?" I asked
"Where you going after this"
"I got this lil q&a thing at 4 but idk after that" I said
"Going back home?" He asked
"Probably not, might get a hotel" I said opening a bag of chips
"What? You eating today?" He asked sarcastically
"It's these pills" I laughed "if ion take em I might eat once maybe twice but if I do imma eat twice maybe 3 times"
"That's good tho" he nodded "no reason yo ass should be only 100 pounds at 24"
"Hush up" I said
"Aye gimmie some" he said reaching in my bag
"You could've just got your own bag-" I said handing him the bag I was eating out of
"A hotel tho?" He asked "Von ain't gone like that"
"It don't matter what he like" I said
"I'm not letting you stay in one anyways. You can stay with me" he said
"As long as you don't plan a InTeRvEnTiOn we good" I laughed
"Damn" he said sarcastically "ruined my plans"
"Shut the hell up" I said
"Aye it's 3:15" he said
"Shit" I said "you wanna come?"
"I will" he shrugged "ian tryna go back to yo house and yell at Von sad ass again"
"Whatchu yell at him for?" I asked getting up putting my stuff up
"Cause he was talm bout we ain't no help" he laughed "how tf I'm supposed to help if youn want his ass youn want his ass"
"Child-" I said spraying myself with some stuff so I don't smell like weed before getting in the car
"I'm just saying" Muwop said spraying himself too
"Ofc you are" I said driving to the place
20 minutes later we pulled up and I walked in
"Hi I'm Sanai Banks I'm here for the keep it 100 thing" I said to the front desk lady
"Uhm .. " she said typing in her computer "studio 1b it's to your right"
I nodded and walked to the right finding the place and walked in
"Sanaiii" my new manager squealed hugging me "Haay girl" she said
There was a camera man recording from when I first walked in
"Haay yaal" I smiled "this Muwop as yaal know"
"Wassup" he said
"Alright so we asked your supporters to comment some questions for you to answer" She said and I nodded
"Okay so first question what made you become a influencer?" She asked
"Uhmmm" I started "I don't really know growing up Ian never liked to be seen I still don't really but my brother is known so but I was always in the shadows by choice ofc and then Durk started rapping and he would post clips of him in the studio and I was always in the studio with him for support and then on my 23rd birthday he gave me some money and he posted it and captioned it something like "gave my sister a bag this really pocket change" and he tagged me in it-"
"I remember that , that's that day I met you and I clowned him for that stupid ass caption" Muwop said laughing
"Then people started following me and most of my posts on Instagram was from me randomly getting bored and putting on clothes then people started reaching out for me for promos and stuff" I added
"Now she think she cute assum" Muwop said
"Hush" I said
"Okay how would you describe you and Muwop relationship?" She asked
"This my besty" Muwop said in a girly voice patting his head
"You can do it on a interview but when I take a picture it's a problem?" I asked
"Anyways this ugly as- wait can I cuss" I asked and she laughed and nodded
"This ugly ass nigga my best friend. But ain't first I couldn't stand his ass because he was always mugging somebody and he stand like he got a foot up his ass in his pictures" I laughed
"Fuck you" he said mushing my head
"I'm just saying"
"Okay we know you're an expensive girl but some girls wanna be a baddie on a budget any tips?" She asked
"Yaal Shein will be your best friend" I started " and uhm don't buy something on the first site you see cause you'll pay $250 for some pants but on another website they $130 but you paid the $250 cause you saw the $250 one first instead of looking more" I added and she nodded
"Okay we're almost done your supporters realized you went MIA for almost 3 months and Von went live and you were in the hospital?" She asked
"Uhm" I said looking at Muwop who looked back at me with a shocked expression
"I uhm I can't say too much but I have insomnia and I'm asthmatic. And I was in Miami but I forgot my pills and i was drinking and I ended up passing out and hitting my head which caused me to slip into a coma. And before I passed out I had eaten maybe once or twice the past couple days so I became malnutrition and when I woke up I had a asthma attack" I nodded
"Oh wow" she said and I nodded
"How is it?" She asked
"I'm back to normal" I said " I feel good"
"And she be cracking them dry ass jokes" Muwop mumbled
"Bro" I said straight facing him "I'm sick of you"
"2nd to last question a few months ago you spoke up about your battles with rape and depression and we were wondering how have you stayed positive and coped with everything. Like is it hard?"
"It was hard at first" I started "especially when it feels as the word is against you and it feel like that you have nobody to talk to and you feel that you have nobody here for you" I added and she nodded
"When I was raped at 16 I didn't tell anybody but I got real distant especially considering the fact that the one person I felt safe with 24/7 had passed 2 years before"
"I'm guessing you're referring to your dad?" She asked and I nodded
"That was my best friend" I said holding the necklace around my neck
"So when it happened nobody knew and I didn't tell Durk until I was 23 and that was after the thing with my ex went down. After that me and Von was getting closer and Durk started coming around and bringing me around more but when I was alone it was like I was alone in my thoughts and that's all I would think about that's when i started cutting myself also so I just stayed sleep whenever I wasn't with people. But now I'm better and that's what give me the confidence to speak about it today. It gets better and it won't always feel like the world against you. But you can't rush it you have to take your time because if you rush it you tryna convince yourself that you're better when you're not basically putting on this mask and that's not doing anything but tearing you down more. And I have no problem speaking on this because there's people who look up to us and it's important to show even with having money,designer, and stuff like that but we still go through things like this because we shouldn't act like life as a influencer or a known person is all fine and dandy cause it isn't and that's okay. It's okay to not be okay and that's what I want my supporters to know. But it's not okay to pretend like everything is okay it's not okay to act like you're fine when deep down inside you're hurting"
(A/N lmfaooo real supportive shit coming from a suicidal bitch 🤔🤔🤔 )
She nodded and looked at the iPad in her hand "most of the questions are asking about your dad or Von. how's your relationship with both?"
" me and my dad was real close like inseparable for 14 years. Like me and Durk was close but me and my dad was reallll close I was a daddy's girl fasho. He bent over backwards for me over the smallest things. I remember one night I was like 5 he had to work late but he would always tuck me in so I stayed up waiting for him to tuck me in and he came home at like 1 am and we stayed up cause he was reading me bedtime stories and I finally fell asleep at 3 am and I missed school that day and he missed work cause we were so tired" I said laughing
"Yo ass just like being up under people" Muwop said
"I'm leaving you on the side of the road next time" I mumbled
"Uhm me and Von aren't together rn actually. But no hard feelings and no love lost still gone be my dawg regardless. We straight good or bad" I said
"What happened if you do mind me asking? Do you believe he's your soulmate" She asked
"That's ha soulmate fasho they act just alike. Both of them dumb as hell" Muwop said
I rolled my eyes "anyways I just think right person wrong time yk? You can't try to be clear with someone and you aren't clear with yourself right? About the do I think he my soulmate uhm he definitely gave me a different feeling like I was floating assum that sound corny but for real it felt like he protected me from all my problems. But ain't no relationship easy but if it's meant to be it's worth it"
"Nawl it ain't relationships that's hard you ain't easy to deal with" Muwop said
"You gotta comment on everything huh?" I asked
"Well that's all the questions I enjoyed talking to you today Sanai I'm glad you came" she said
"No problem" I said hugging her before leaving
"That bitch nosey as hell" Muwop said making me laugh
"On god" I said
"Where you finna go?" He asked
"India house" I said "Ari and Megan over there too"
"Where you finna go?" I asked driving him back to his car
"To my house" he said and I nodded "Durk and them still at yo house"
"Yaal be at my house more than I do" I laughed driving away
"Imma be here later. But I'll find somewhere else to go after tomorrow" I said pulling in his driveway
"Nah you good. You can stay how long you want to" he said handing me some keys
"Thank you wop" I said hugging him "I love you for real"
"No problem sis" he said "I love you too yk how it is"
* 2 weeks later*
~ Von POV ~
After I left my mama house I went back to Sanai house. She ain't been home in 2 weeks. She asked me to leave but I will. Eventually. Whenever she come back.
I walked in seeing Durk and Reese there "wassup" Durk said
"Wassup" I said sitting on the couch
"Sanai came by here like 2 weeks ago" Reese said as Muwop walked in
"Yaal just now telling me-" I asked "what she say?"
"Nothing she came by and got a bag and said she was going riding around" Durk said
"Oh yeah I was with here like 2 weeks ago" Muwop said
"Where yaal go?" I asked
"She had this lil interview shit it's probably up now" he said turning on the tv going to YouTube
After we watched the interview Durk said "Damn she been going through it"
"You think?" Muwop said "that girl be trying her hardest to put on a smile everyday"
"Why she ain't never tell me nun like this?" I asked
"Me either" Durk said
"Ionk man" Muwop said "all I know is what she be telling me"
"But I'm ha nigga and Durk ha brother but she tell you this?" I asked
"May-" Muwop started but was interrupted by my phone ringing
"Hello?" I said
"Von" the bartender said
"Bitch why is you still calling my phone?" I asked
"I just called to tell you I'm pregnant and it's yours"
"Stop all that lying gang" I said
"I'm fr" she screamed crying
"Ion believe you" I said smacking my teeth
"I could get you a dna test" she said
"Yeah do that" I said hanging up
"What that was" Durk asked
"That bartender" I said
"What she say?" Reese asked and I stayed quiet
"Aye" Muwop said "don't tell me she pregnant"
I didn't respond to him and Durk smacked his teeth
" I told yo ass" he said
"She getting a dna test" I said
"Whatchu gone do if it's yours?" Reese asked
"Man ion have no choice. That's gone be my first kid" I said
Reese cleared his throat and scratched his head and Muwop slapped him at the back of his head
"Aye gang shut up" Muwop said
"What yaal talm bout?" Durk asked
"Huh?" Reese asked
"Why when I say that's gone be my first kid Reese cleared his throat and scratched his head and Muwop tell him to shut up?" I asked
"My throat was itching" Reese said
"Nahhhh yaal know sumn we don't" Durk said
"What is it?" I asked
"It ain't my place to tell" Muwop said and Reese nodded
"Imma figure it out" I said "I gotta find out what imma do about Sanai if this is my kid. Finna have my first lil me running around" I added causing Reese to start 'choking' on air and Muwop to hit him in his chest
"Yo gang is you good?" I asked
"What you talm bout?" Reese asked
"Everytime Von mentioned that kid you start acting like you dying assum" Durk said
"I got asthma" Reese shrugged
"Nah it's sumn yaal ain't telling us" Durk said
"Who is yaal" Muwop said
"You and Reese" I said "what yaal ain't telling us"
"We don't know what you talm bout" Muwop said
"WE?" Reese asked? "Speak for yourself nigga"
"Reese shut the hell you before you get to flying at the mouth" Muwop said
"Nahhh tell us" Durk said
"Don't do it" Muwop said
Reese sighed
"She gone kill yo ass" Muwop added
"Alright look" he started ...
A/N
HAAA YAAL THOUGHT ☠️.
yaal deserve this cliffhanger 🤔.
4500+ words 😍😍
yaal he cheated it's no excuse get over it 💔.
What yaal think Reese and Muwop know that Durk and Von don't?
PartyNextFriday guessed it in one chapter 🤔 ....
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