a couple weeks went by, they were hard. the only enjoyment you truly felt was when you'd sleep or hang out with helen.
depression started, and your anxiety got worse.
you couldn't keep living like this. living up to someone's expectations, trying to fit in. this felt like being back in school. you had nowhere else to go so you felt trapped.
this repeated every day, a month or two went by and you grew tired of it. tired of living with scary people. tired of seeing and hearing stuff about people dying. this isn't what you wanted. you wanted to live a normal life. yes you want helen by your side but not like this. he would never be convinced to leave this place.
"you okay?" helen asked, he asked this almost every 20 minutes, but it didn't bother you, you liked that he cared and noticed how miserable you started to get.
"yeah, i'm okay." you said as you quickly turned your head to him while smiling, "are you sure? just tell me the truth please." he said as he put his hand on top of yours, "yeah i promise." you said looking away.
he wasn't convinced but you didn't have much energy to really seem like everything really was okay. "well, we have to go soon." he said as he kissed your cheek.
"i know." you simply said, kissing him back gently. affection between you both started to get hard to hide, helen would sneak in kisses when nobody was looking and you'd do the same thing.
you remember your guys first time. he was passionate and gentle at first then at the end a bit rough but not in a bad way, it was perfect.
you got off him and shook the memory out of your head, "what's wrong?" he asked, "oh, it was nothing." you said smirking, he totally knew though. you made it obvious.
"soon okay?" he whispered as he pushed your hair behind your ear, "okay don't make me wait too long." you whispered back while smiling.
you both stood up and left the mansion.
you looked around and it was dark, "it's starting to get cold." you said as you shivered a little, "yeah kind of, not really." he responded back as he took your hand into his.
you looked around and saw the same old trees, you started to remember where everything was, which paths you can take and which ones took longer than others.
after about 15-20 minutes of walking, you saw a lamppost that was somewhat far away, that meant you guys were close to getting out of the woods.
"we're almost there" helen said as he let go of your hand and put on his mask. your stomach dropped, you knew what was going to happen but you kind of started to get used to it which you hated so much.
"okay.." you said quietly, taking a small sigh.
"i wont take too long, i promise." he said as he lifted up his mask to kiss you, you loved that he reassured you but hated knowing what he'd do every time he left.
"okay, i love you be careful, don't get caught." you said as you kissed him back, "i love you too (y/n)." he said as he adjusted his mask back.
you watched him continue walking until you couldn't see him anymore. you stayed back, like always and waited until he came back.
20 minutes or so went by, and you heard footsteps. you look up and see helen, covered in blood, like always. the next step was hard, you also had to be covered in blood so it really did seem like you were apart of it.
"just do it fast." you said as you closed your eyes, he pulled out a little jar of blood and splattered some on you, you messed around with your hair a bit and scratched your arms so it seemed like the victim was really putting up a fight.
on the way back, you thought about a lot. like always. how could you possibly be in love with a killer? how are you not afraid of him? how can you feel comfort from him? how could you possibly push away what he does just because of how much you're in love with him? maybe something is wrong with you. maybe it's this house that's making you go slowly insane. it's starting to feel normal and that's not what you wanted. you feared feeling like this was normal, you. can't. live. like. this. anymore.
couple more minutes of walking, you both finally get back to the house. "i forgot to mention but we're having some kind of special dinner tonight, i don't know what it's for but slender man wants us all to be there." helen said as he took off his jacket.
"wonder what it's for, i'll go get ready." you said as you started walking up the stairs and into your room. you rarely were ever in here since you always spent time with helen in his room. 'hm.. what to wear" you whispered to yourself, you looked around and saw a pretty dark short red dress, it wasn't too extreme but something soft and cute.
you showered and put the dress on. you starred at yourself in the mirror for a bit, you really weren't happy. you looked so so tired.
you went downstairs and went to the big dining area. some heads turned to look at you, others smiled and some glared. same old thing.
"you look so beautiful (y/n)." said helen as he looked at you up and down, "aww thank you." you said as you smiled at him.
everybody finally sat down and slender man spoke for a while, you honestly weren't paying attention.
"we can now eat." slender man said, there was various kinds of food, actual real food and other food was.. you know? guts etc.
helen gently tapped his shoe on your leg, making you look up at him. he was sitting in front of you, you playfully kicked him back.
you both did this a couple times until, your drink split on the person next to you..
"dude! what the fuck!" yelled an angry guy, he was wearing a black mask with red dots for eyes and a red smile. "calm down, it's not something to get angry about." said helen as he stood up, "i'm so sorry, i-i'll clean it up." you said as you grabbed a napkin, the guy ended up pushing you hard on the ground.
"get the fuck out of here you stupid bitch, you ruined my night!" he yelled, you can tell he was really drunk. he was wobbly. he raised his fist, sadly..you were ready for it, you quickly closed your eyes.
you heard a loud grunt coming from the masked man, you opened your eyes and saw helen on top of the masked man.
he repeatedly kept punching him, taking all his anger out on the man, "you drunk piece of shit, control yourself!" helen yelled as he gave him one final punch.
the other white masked man stood up from his seat and tackled helen down, getting him off the drunk man.
"toby, bring hoodie to his room. and you, you should've let her handle her own battle. you didn't have to intervene and make it worse." said the white masked man to helen, helen scoffed.
"well your little friend here shouldn't have made a huge scene over having water spilled on him!" helen yelled as he pushed the white masked man away.
"stop fighting! this is childish." said slender man, his loud voice echoed throughout the big room. everybody got very silent.
you got up and ran to your room. you couldn't deal with this anymore. you didn't want to keep living in a place where you have to fight for everything, even your life.
"i'm leaving.. i'm fucking leaving. i can't fucking stay here anymore." you said to yourself, sobbing and packing up your things in a black backpack.
"what are you doing?" helen asked closing the door behind him. "i'm fucking leaving. i can't stay here anymore okay." you said, looking into his eyes.
he had a worried face. "no.. no, i get it's tough being here but you can't leave. where would you even go?" he asked as he took the backpack away from you.
you snatched it back from him, "anywhere but here, i'm not staying here anymore and that's that." you said with a stern tone.
"well.. i'm not letting you! you won't leave! i can protect you—","i don't belong here! don't you get it? i'm miserable here! i can't keep being someone i'm not! it's so mentally draining!" you yelled at him.
he shook his head, "i understand.. but i don't want to lose you.. i can't leave this place." helen said, a single tear rolling off his cheek.
"you need to let me go. i'm sorry, but i can't live my life here forever.." you said, trying your hardest not to cry.
"no.. no way, a-are you breaking up with me..?" his lip quivered, more tears started to form in his eyes.
you stayed quiet, "answer me!" helen yelled, his voice cracked, you hated seeing him in pain.
"maybe i'm not the one for you.. i appreciate everything you've done for me. and i'll always love you, but this isn't my place. maybe it's just wrong for us to be together right now." you said as tears rolled down your cheeks.
"wrong for us..? right now..?" he said quietly, looking down at the ground.
you sighed, "maybe i'll come back and visit some time.. but i can't live here anymore. you have to understand." you said as you put on your shoes.
he stayed quiet, just starring down at the ground.
"i love you, i'll always love you. maybe we'll meet again some time in the future.." you said as you kissed his lips one last time. he still stayed frozen.
"goodbye.." you whispered.
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NO ITS NOT THE END LOL, i have so much more to write abt :) we'll get a bloody pov in the next update