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this chapter contains the following; mentions of anxiety, mentions of suicide, mentions of depression, mature content, mature language, and violence.
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I cried while writing this. Enjoy.
I watched for a second as the three Gryffindors spoke amongst each other. Potter and Weasley looked angry while Naya kept a persistent smirk on her face.
Once the two Gryffindor boys saw me, they immediately stopped talking and raised their eyebrows in synchronization.
I slowly walked towards Naya Granger and before I could fully step in front of her, she stood up and opened her arms, inviting me in for a hug.
"Hey, girly," She said to me with a nasty grin on her lips, conniving as Hermione would say.
I pictured Hermione's face drop when she witnessed Pansy and Naya kissing, and it made me sick to my stomach.
Before I could even think, my palm connected with the right side of Naya's cheek.
"I- Uh-," The girl stuttered in frustration and anger as she held her reddened face, with a slightly swollen handprint caused by me.
"That's for being a bitch," I look her up and down intimidatingly, waiting for a response.
When she didn't say anything back, I could feel more anger growing inside of me, so the back of my hand flew to the lips of Naya Granger.
I watched as her lip trembled, before a few droplets of blood trickled down her bottom lip, finally resting on her chin.
She wiped the blood off her lips and chin as I said, "And that's for kissing my best friend. My friend's girlfriend. Your sister's girlfriend."
The girl continued to look into my eyes as if nothing I said mattered to her, so I got even more upset and shoved her back onto the couch.
I quickly stood over her, but then decided to play around with her. I straddled Naya as she sat with her back onto the couch.
She bit her lip seductively, but it actually made me cringe very hard. I pulled my wand out from my back pocket and pushed it against her throat.
I could see the terror in her eyes, and it made me happy. It was finally my time to smirk and grin, so I did.
Tears began to flood Naya's eyes, and quickly broke through and started to roll down her cheeks. I watched as her lip trembled even more and her breathing became unsteady.
"I should kill you right now. You and I both know I'd get away with it," I softly rested my hand on her cheek as I whispered those horrific words into her ear.
I could hear a slight and quiet squeal escape her mouth and I couldn't help but laugh.
"Pathetic bitch. Mess with one of my girls again, it will be the last thing you ever do, and I swear that on my baby," The words I spoke were truthful, and it made her melt underneath me. I enjoyed this power I held over her, and I couldn't help but crave more of that feeling.
I finally removed my wand from the midst of her neck and settled myself back to my feet. I watched as Naya continued to whimper and cry while sitting on the sofa, snaking with fear.
I'm glad I put fear in her heart. Someone needed to do it, especially a female who may be in her family's life for a long time.
Potter and Weasley's jaws were both dropped in shock. I said nothing as I looked at Naya and walked up to Hermione's dorm.
Once I opened the door, I saw Mione hysterically crying while the other two girls, Luna and Lola, were hugging her and trying to comfort her. I instantly feel so bad for this poor girl, who did nothing but love Pansy, just to get heartbroken.
Lola and Luna loosened their grip around Hermione's body and called me over silently, needing me to take over. I honestly would rather be sleeping in bed with Mattheo but I know my friend needs me more.
I watched as Lola and Luna stood up so I took a seat next to Hermione.
"Come on over here, honey," I said to Mione as I patted the spot next to me at the top of her bed. I am extremely exhausted so if I do fall asleep while comforting her, at least it would be in a good position.
She scooted up next to me and we both got under the covers. Everyone was already in their sleeping clothes so we just got in bed and talked.
"Whats wrong?" I asked Hermione as she was crying. When she spoke to me, I could smell alcohol on her breath. She was a blubbering mess and all I could make out was 'She kissed and I loved her but sister'.
I kept repeating 'I know' as she continued to sob and murmur. Hermione was so heartbroken and I knew one thing that could calm a drunk, broken girl down.
I pulled the girl closer to me and laid her head on my chest. She instantly felt comfort and wrapped her arms around my body and slowly loosened up in my hold.
She kept quiet and didn't speak as she sniffled into my shirt. Poor thing.
Soon, Hermione fell asleep and the rest of us were still awake.
"What did you guys do to her?" I asked the Ravenclaw girl and the Slytherin girl.
"She was very calm for some reason but also quite angry..." Luna started.
"...So we gave her vodka but she wanted something more so we gave her fire whiskey," Lola finished.
"Well at least she got some emotion out. Do you guys think she will be okay?" That last question was directed to the two Gryffindor boys who sat on the floor by Naya's bed.
"Hermione is very strong but I don't really know. She is always taking care of everyone but nobody takes care of her," Potter spoke with sadness in his voice, and he really meant what he said.
She never had anyone to love her or take care of her. Pansy was her first love, the person she did everything with. And now that's gone.
"She always spoke very highly of Parkinson, and she truly loved that girl. Now that is ruined and Hermione probably won't be able to love anyone that way," Weasley told me and the other girls.
"She is gonna get through this.
She will because we are gonna help her, no matter how hard it is and no matter how long it takes. Understood?" I demanded for the four of them, and myself, to help our friend get through this hard time.
We all agreed to set our differences aside and be there for the girl we love. We all decided to see each other as regular humans, not as our houses.
I think this will work out.
We all spoke for hours about lots of things before sleep eventually caught up to each and every one of us, little by little.
First one out was Luna. She slept behind Hermione, holding her from behind while Hermione held on to me.
Then Weasley, he slept on Naya's bed by himself while Potter still sat on the floor talking to Lola.
The next one out was Potter, he slept next to Weasley. Weasley is one to snore a lot and Potter talks to himself while he sleeps.
Lola and I stayed up for a while longer while everyone slept and we giggled when Potter would say something funny.
Soon after a few little conversations about something random, I was curious about Lola and Enzo's relationship.
"So you and Enzo. How's that going?"
"It's actually really good. I know you two are best friends and I hope you know i'm not trying to keep him away from you in any way," Lola says to me but that last sentence caught me off guard. Why would she say that out of nowhere?
"Yeah... I know you aren't. I'm just happy he is treating you well. I remember how amazing he was towards me, platonically of course. And it brings joy to my heart to know that another girl gets to experience that love from one," I spoke with true honesty. It really is great how Enzo is as a person. His father's raised him well.
We talked about Enzo and Theo for a while but then we both grew tired, said goodnight, and went to sleep.
The Next Morning
When I woke up, everyone was still sleeping but I took a look at the clock and noticed the time.
There was roughly about twenty minutes before breakfast and I can't afford to miss it, so I softly pried Hermione's arms from around my body.
Lola and Hermione's legs were intertwined with mine and one of Luna's legs were thrown over Hermione. I quickly but quietly pulled my legs from between the other two girls and stood up.
I put my feet into my slippers and grabbed my bag. I need to go to my dorm really quick and then to breakfast.
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I made it to breakfast only two minutes late. Teeth were brushed and my hair was also brushed. I still was in my Pajamas, so I grabbed two plates full of food and walked back to the Slytherin common room.
When I got there, I forgot what I wanted to do, but then I gained my thoughts back and walked to Mattheo's dorm.
"Theo can you open the door," I kicked the door slightly with my foot since my hands were full with the food.
A few seconds passed and Theo never answered, so I kicked the door harder.
"Theo!" I nearly broke the door with that last kick, but luckily he opened the door right after.
"Merlin's sake, Y/n. What do you want?" Mattheo angrily asked me as he moved to the side, allowing me to walk in his room.
"First of all, don't talk to me like that. And second of all, I brought you food," I said all of that while placing the plates down on his desk.
"I'm not hungry," He said as he walked back over to his bed, ready to go back to sleep.
"Okay, more for me," I exclaimed happily to Theo. He chuckled and then got under his covers.
As he laid in bed, I began to eat and tell him about everything that happened yesterday.
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After I was finished eating, I looked up from my plate for the first time to see Mattheo was not awake. If he wasn't awake, that means he didn't hear anything I told him.
Why is he so tired?
I ask so many questions but it's fine. I went to the bathroom to clean my hands and face, then walked back out and saw Theo still sleeping peacefully.
I decided to mess with him so I picked up a small pillow and threw it at his face pretty softly.
"Mmm," He groaned out frustratingly yet softly. Oh how his morning voice makes me feel.
"Wake up," I spoke loudly in hopes to get his attention but he still had his eyes closed.
I knew I would only be able to get his attention if I was across the room, so I went to his bed and sat down next to him.
Then, I realized he is actually tired and it's selfish of me to wake him up for something that can wait.
Plus, he doesn't care about anybody but me so he probably doesn't wanna hear about Pansy cheating on Hermione. But he also loves drama so maybe he will.
"Pansy cheated on Hermione," Once I said that, his eyes shot open in shock. I knew he would be interested. Well— no I didn't— but it's fine.
"What?" He spoke in his raspy morning voice.
"She cheated on Hermione last night," I cringed at the words coming out of my mouth. It still makes me mad.
"Come here, Tell me about it," He wrapped his arms around my waist and softly pulled me closer to him.
I laid in front of him, my back to his chest, and his arm was wrapped around me.
"So basically, We all were having a sleepover. Me, Hermione, Lola, Luna, and Pansy,"
"Mhm,"
"And Hermione's sister Naya forced us to let her join, so we did. Once I got in the shower, Hermione came in the bathroom because her sister and Pansy were flirting and stuff,"
"Wow,"
"So I had to get my bracelet back from Enzo and Blaises' room and told Mione to come with me. Instead of it being just her and I, Lola and Luna also came. We got my bracelet, talked about how evil Naya is, and we walked back to my room,"
"Okay..."
"When we walked in, Naya was on top of Pansy kissing her... And Pansy kissed her back,"
"Oh wow,"
"Now Hermione is depressed or something and she says she's fine but I don't believe her,"
"Why?"
"Because, Theo. She is good at hiding her feelings and I have trust issues. I don't think she's okay,"
"Give her some time, Y/n."
"But Theo-" I felt his cold hand glide over my stomach and up my shirt.
"Finish speaking," He had a slight smile in his tone.
"So uhm..." I lost my train of thought.
"She uh... She cried a lot last night," As I spoke, his hand had unclasped my bra, and pulled it off from under my shirt. Fast hands.
"What happened next?" After he said that, He threw my bra to the side and started kissing my cheek.
His kisses turned into sucking motions once he reached
my neck.
"I am just so stressed. I have to deal with baby stuff, Hermione, Pansy, Naya, And other things,"
"Mhm" He continued sucking on my neck and softly biting it.
"I need a break, Theo," I didn't really need a break but I knew what this would get me, so I said it.
"Okay,"
His hand that was in my shirt went from my neck and glided down to my chest. His soft yet cold fingertips gently massaged one of my nipples.
They are so sensitive but it feels amazing.
He continued to suck on my neck and kiss it, then kissed up to my jaw, then my cheek, and finally back to my lips.
Our tongues were swirling within each other's mouths as he continued to softly play with my nipples.
Theo pulled away from the kiss and angrily ripped my shirt open, revealing my half naked body.
He instantaneously went back to kissing me.
As he placed delicate kisses all down my neck, chest, and stomach, soft whimpers escaped my lips accidentally.
I felt as Mattheo's hand went down my abdomen and the tips of his fingers prying themselves under the lining on my pants.
"Please..." I moaned out to him, in his ear, as he sucked on my neck, and slid his fingers underneath my lace underwear.
"Please what?" The vibrations in his voice turned me on even more.
"P-Please-" I could barely get any words out as he sunk two of his fingers into me.
Smoothly gliding his fingers in and out of me, he decided to add another one.
Three.
Three of his fingers were inside of me at one time.
I continued to moan as he fingered me roughly.
"Harder, Please!" I whisper in his ear sweetly. He did as I asked and went harder, faster, and it felt good.
I was so sensitive everywhere, especially inside. As I squirmed around, he grabbed a fistful of my hair and pulled it, restraining me from going anywhere.
My back was arched and my legs were spread open for him to please me, however he wanted.
Out of nowhere, Loud and hard knocks were being heard from the bedroom door but we ignored it.
He kept up with his fast pace until someone knocked on the door again, but harder.
He slowed his pace inside of me so I whimpered to him, "Ignore it, keep going,"
And he did. He kept going and then stopped when someone knocked at the door once again
He slowly retracted his fingers and stood up, wiping them on a towel.
"WHO IS IT?!" I yelled angrily at the door, at whoever was behind it.
"Hermione! She's at the Astronomy tower!!" I could hear the panic in Lorenzo's voice when he said that.
I quickly fixed my pants and pulled on one of Theo's shirts.
I ran to the door and swung it open, "What do you mean she's at the Astronomy tower?"
"I mean she's standing on the ledge trying to jump! Let's go," He grabbed my hand and pulled me out of Theo's room quickly and to the hall.
I yanked my wrist from Enzo's grasp and we both began running down the corridors trying to get to Hermione in time.
I knew she wasn't okay. I should've stayed with her. I should've stayed.
I begin to panic and I could feel an anxiety attack creeping up on me but I need to stay calm.
My heart was beating awfully fast and my stomach started to hur5, as if I was going to throw up.
We continued to run up the Astronomy tower stairs until we reached the top.
There, I saw Hermione standing on the ledge, Pansy behind her trying to calm her ex girlfriend down, Lola and Luna crying, Potter talking to Hermione, and Weasley panicking.
"Hermione," I spoke softly as I walked up behind her.
Her head quickly turned to meet mine and I could see her numb face, even though she was crying.
"There is no reason to live anymore, Y/n. There isn't," Her voice cracked more and more with each word.
"Listen to me. Get down, please. We can- We can talk," I tried my best to get her down from the ledge. One step and she will fall off, and onto a concrete floor.
"There's nothing to talk about. I can't live like this anymore," She said calmly, wiping the tears off her cheeks.
"Babe, we can do whatever you want later, Anything. Please just get down from there, for me," Pansy spoke while choking on her words nervously.
"You did this to me... I have nobody. NOBODY! I have tried to be there for everyone, you especially, and you ruined it!" Hermione's cries were loud, but only loud enough for us to hear them.
"Hermione, Please. I promise we can just go back to my dorm and be by ourselves. Just me and you, okay?" My words just don't seem to matter to her. I am doing my absolute best.
"No. I don't want that. I want it to end. All of this, to just be done," She cried out loudly.
The others were hysterical as well, and I was on the brink of crying uncontrollably also.
"You have a niece on the way. Don't you want to see her grow up?" An unexpected voice spoke behind everyone.
We all turned our heads to see Mattheo walking up closer to Hermione.
"What?" She asked in confusion.
"She's gonna need a smart aunt to teach her how to do things. A beautiful woman to play dressup and do her hair. A kind person to teach her how to love herself, and others," Theo spoke with honesty as he walked up to her.
"Y/n can do all of that. She can do it, not me," She continued to cry at him.
"But I know for a fact you had it better growing up. You know what love feels like and what it should look like. You carry that motherly role instinctively," Mattheo walked up to her slowly.
"Stop," Her lip trembles as she speaks.
"I have been in this position before. Multiple times at that. It doesn't go away, and I'm not going to lie about that, but it gets better. Take it from me. The son of a dark lord, a death eater. My parents never loved me at all. I tried to end my life six times and each time I kept living, hoping to be here for a reason. I found my reason, Granger. I found love and now I have a daughter on the way. You will find that soon. You already have a family. Take it from me,"
She kept quiet as she contemplated getting down. Minutes passed of everyone, including myself, excluding Mattheo, crying hysterically. Everyone begged her to get down, but she wouldn't.
"Trust me when I say it gets better," Mattheo reached his hand out to her, and we all prayed she would take it.
And she did.
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So. Feedback? If you ever need to talk to someone, I'm here. You all know that.
Chapter eighteen was published later than expected and the suicide thing popped into my head last minute, so I just decided to publish tonight.
A/n: I will be putting Against it All on Inkitt and Ao3! Soon, maybe this weekend. Just because Wattpad is deleting some mature stories and I want to make sure you guys have other platforms to read off of!