Tharn POV
Seems I lost my strength.
Doctor has told us about what happened to P'Thorn. It was so bad. I saw that Dad was too limp, seems he couldn't stood up. So, I helped him. We need to leave that room.
"Thank you, doctor", I told him when we left that room.
That doctor nodded, asked us to be stronger.
I hold dad's hand, I closed the door. Dad stop his pace, then leaned on the wall. He took his sight down, then he sat on the floor. It hurt me more than anything.
I stood up on my knee, in front of him. I hold his shoulder, I saw his face. That face is usually full of smile, but that day he was so suffering.
"Paralysis will be a nightmare for our family", he told me slowly.
But, I felt it was so deep.
I hold him, then I hug my dad. He leaned his head on my shoulder. No word. That time was so quiet. But, I knew that he was on the deepest zone of his life.
I didn't know what I should do. I was so confusing, a lot of things in my head. I imagined a lot of bad thing would happen in the next day. But, I tried to be calm.
I didn't want to make my dad worse.
"It will not happen", I told him.
"But how?", his voice mixed with tears.
So, I didn't talk to him anymore.
I just let him to express his feeling as long as he wanted to. I didn't want to bother him.
After a moment, he moved back. He swept his face for several times.
"We will fight for your brother", he told me.
I nodded.
"We will make him win", I replied dad.
He stood up.
We left the corridor.
"You need to go home", I told him.
"No", he refused. "This is your time for taking a rest at home. You never sleep at home since your brother entered hospital"
"I am okay, dad", I ensured him. "I will be here"
He looked at me.
"Type?", he asked me.
I nodded clumsily.
Dad smiled, then patted my head.
Then, he agreed to leave. I escort him until the parking lot.
"I will go home with a driver, so don't worry too much"
I nodded.
"I will try to get hospital for Thorn, we need to be fast"
"I know, but don't forget about your healthy"
"You too.....", he replied me with full of smile.
He cheered me up.
--*--
I walked back to P'Thorn room.
I need to check him that night. But, when I entered the corridor, I saw that Mae stood up in front of P'Thorn's room. So, I run toward her quickly.
"Are you looking for me?", I asked her rashly.
She nodded.
"Something happened to Type?"
She shook her heard.
"P'Thorn?"
She didn't reply me yet, I opened the room.
I saw that P'Thorn was laying on the bed as he did before.
"Don't worry too much", she asked me.
I was so relieved as P'Thorn was okay. It was actually not okay, but at least didn't worse than before.
"Don't you want to meet him?", Mae asked me.
"Who?"
She just smiled.
"Tell me who?"
She rolled her eyes.
"Type?"
She nodded.
"Really?", I asked he with full of curiosity.
I shake her body, I was too excited.
"Let's meet him"
I dragged her, she just followed me.
I was really excited.
Finally, I arrived in that room. It was so quiet. I saw that Por was sleeping on the sofa. Type was laying on the bed. Seems he also fallen asleep.
"Type woke up about an hour ago", Mae told me.
"Why don't you tell me, Mae?", I whined.
I saw that you have session with doctor.
I nodded, she was right.
"Look at him", she asked me. "Possibly he has been sleep again"
I nodded. Then, walked slowly to my boy.
I took a seat beside of the bed. I saw that he closed his eyes.
"Sorry, I am late to see you wake up"
I hold his hand and kissed it.
No answer. Just a quiet room.
I hold his hand tighter, then closed my eyes.
"If I see you with another one, I will kick your ass", that familiar tone shocked me. My eyes were opened widely. My boy talked to me.
His voice was so weak, but it was really his tone. I saw he opened his eyes, then smiled.
"I am not dead, yet", he told me again. "I am not a ghost"
I was too happy, I became freezing.
He looked at me with a confusing gaze.
"I think that you will be happy while looking at me", he made complain. "But when........"
He couldn't proceed his words. I shut his mouth up.
With my lips.
Just a short kiss, but it was really nice.
He mumbled.
He rolled his eyes aside.
"Mae and Por may look at us", he made another complain.
I just lifter my shoulders.
"Khun P.....", he whined.
"I missed my boy a lot. What should I do?"
He hold his smile.
"I miss you, boy", I told him.
He nodded.
"I told you that I miss you"
"I know", he replied me. "I miss you too"
I moved the seat closer to the bed side. I need to see him closer.
"You looks so ugly"
"Huh?", I asked him.
"You are tinier and .........."
"And what?"
He asked me to be closer toward him, he tried to whisper me.
So, I moved my ear closer to his lips.
Then, he pecked my cheek.
I smiled.
"Thank you for taking care of me", Type told me.
"I did for nothing"
"Mae told me everything"
He touched my cheek.
"You must be so tired", he told me slowly. "Come here"
I wondered what he asked me to.
"Lying beside of me", he asked me.
I turned my eyes aside.
"They already sleep", Type told me.
I saw that Mae and Por slept.
So, I moved to Type's side.
"Can you hug me while I am sleeping?", he asked me.
"Sure"
I laid beside of him.
"I am sorry for making you worry about me, Khun P", he told me.
"It's not. I am so happy"
"Do you know what I am thinking about when I opened my eyes and I don't find you?"
I waited for his voice.
"I worried that you left me"
"It will never happen", I ensured him.
He nodded.
I hug him.
"You are so warm, Khun P", he told me.
I couldn't talk further.
I was so happy as he woke up. But, at the same time, I faced a big problem in front of my eyes.
--*--
Next few days
After a few days, Type became healthier.
But, he still need wheelchair for moving. His legs were still so weak, he need time for recovery.
I felt guilty for him. I lied for so many things. Especially about P'Thorn.
I was startled as someone took a seat beside of me. I saw it was Por. It was almost dawn. I looked at him, seems he has intention on me.
He didn't start for any words.
"You are right", I told him.
He straighten his back.
"Type kept blaming himself for that accident", I told him. "So that, I need to hide P'Thorn's condition from him"
"Does it work?"
I shook my head.
"He will be depressed if he knows what happened to your brother", Por made his words clear.
I took my sight down.
"This morning, I saw a new hope from your father's eyes"
I nodded. "We got a perfect hospital for P'Thorn"
Por leaned on the sear again. He took a deep breath.
"Finding a perfect hospital is just a starting point", Por made a comment. "It must be a gate for your fighting"
I hold my forehead.
"Please help my son", I heard that voice from Por.
But, he stood up on his knee.
"What are you doing, Por?", I asked him.
"If your brother is living in that condition, Type will blame himself along his life"
"It is not"
"Please save your brother, you will also save Type's life"
I asked him to stand up.
I hug him.
"Your dad will not able to face this condition alone, you need to stand up beside of him. Then, I tell you my words again", he told me. "Leave my son"
"How can I do that?"
"When you leave, you have chance to save your brother and Type"
I looked at his face.
"This old man will make Type alive. He will be healthy as before"
I nodded.
"Then, promise me to make your brother stand up as before"
I couldn't answer him.
"If you can make it, then I give you a chance to be together with him"
He warmed my heart.
"But, I don't believe myself that I can live without him"
"Be strong", he told me while shaking my arm. "If you cannot save your brother, it must be the time you lost Type"
"Nope"
"So, promise me to save your brother"
I nodded.
"Good", he made a short comment. "Tomorrow, tell him that you will be leaving"
I stuttered.
"Your dad made schedule for departure. It must be hard for him to ask your help, so that I need to make it. I need to kick you, so that you will leave"
"Por...."
"I don't know you understand my words or not. But, I just want to tell you that you can save a lot of lives"
He caressed my shoulder.
"It will be not really easy. But, you have to face it"
The, Por left me.
I became so limp.
I didn't want to leave him.
--*--
I entered his room.
He was taking his breakfast. He looked at me.
"You didn't come for 3 days. Where are you going?", he asked me.
I didn't answer him. I just walked closer.
"You also didn't answer my call nor my message"
I looked to Mae and Por, they understood. Then left that room.
I took a seat beside of his bed.
"I am sorry for not visiting you lately", I apologized to him. "How are you doing?"
"I am going to be better. I can move my leg for a bit"
I nodded. I was so happy.
"If you are tired, then take a rest", he told me. "Don't leave without any words. You made me worry so much"
Something clogged in my throat.
"Did I make your burden on your shoulder heavier?", he asked me.
I took a deep breath.
"I am so tired with all of this", I told him.
He put his spoon, then looked at me.
"I understand", he replied me. "I know that it must be really hard for you. So, you don't have to meet me everyday"
"I think that I couldn't handle it anymore", I paused. "So, let's break up"
He didn't give me for any response.
"I said let's break up", I made it louder.
His eyes became watery.
"Why?", he asked me.
I didn't answer him.
"You don't have to take care of me while I am getting my recovery. I promise that I will be back as healthy as before"
"I cannot be with you anymore"
"But why?", he asked me while his tears falling.
I stood up.
"I finished about what I have to say"
"Don't I deserve for a reason?"
I shook my head.
Then, I turned back and left him. I walked to the door side.
He threw his phone to my back.
"You are such an asshole, Khun P"
My tears broke, but I didn't want him to know.
"When you leave me know, you will lost me forever"
It hurt me.
But, I kept walking.
"I regret my all effort to stand up beside of you along this time, Khun P"
I left that room, then close the door.
I knelled down.
Mae hold me tighter. I lost my world.
--*--