this is a request from SneakySnake571 i hope you like it! i really enjoyed writing this it was fun :)
note: mentions of sewing a mouth shut, mentions of blood, flashbacks, panic attacks
please dont read if any of these things trigger you! just skip this and come back next update! :) <3
also happy world book day and sorry this took so long to do!!! (kinda took a break but im back now so enjoyyyyyy!!!!)
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Loki was happy that Thor had decided to visit the Tower. His Brother had been away attending duties in Asgard for the past week which left Loki bored out of his mind, sure he could have gone back to Asgard with the man but he wasn't ready for that. That place still held memories he didn't want to revisit.
Either way he had truly missed Thor, for once he was happy to say that he geniunly was looking forward to seeing his Brother.
He had been sat on the sofa in the main area for the past hour engrossed in a book. His fingers tapped against the leather bind, tracing the letters which stood out in a gold font while his eyes skimmed across the the pages.
Tony and Bruce entered at some point, along with Steve, Sam and Bucky a few moments later all situating themselves on the chairs opposite the God. The hours continued to pass until Thor arrived, startling all of them as he suddenly walked into the room they were all in.
"Greetings friends! Brother, good to see you." Thor boomed.
Loki looked up from his book to greet him simply, a small smile and nod. "Thor."
"Point Break, how was your visit?" Tony asked, downing his cup of coffee in one go.
"Oh it was productive Man of Iron."
Thor sat down next to Loki as the younger man shuffled to the left slightly to make room. "How are you Loki?" He asked.
"I am fine, you?"
"Splendid."
Around an hour passed, Bruce putting on the TV at some point to catch the show that he liked with quiet chatter in the background. The atmosphere was broken however when Friday announced there was someone entering, causing Tony to get up and leave for a moment.
Loki raised his eye level just above his book to watch as the man re-entered with a young boy at his side. He recognised it as the intern that he seen before in the lab with Tony. He had a few books in his hands, a backpack slung over his shoulder loosely and a large smile on his face.
"Come sit here Pete, you gonna work on some schoolwork?" Tony asked, as he got himself comfortable on the sofa again, this time moving over so the boy could use the arm of it as a make-shift desk.
"When did May want you back?"
"Uh, about 2 hours since we're going out to eat."
Loki drowned out the rest of the conversation to focus back on his book, relaxing at the comforting presence of his Brother by his side. It felt like old times, when Loki would hide in the consolation of different realites in his books to escape from Odin's constant rage. And when Thor would finally find him tucked away in a dark corner and just hold him.
He almost felt like nodding off right there and then but the conversation that was happening between Tony and Thor caught the last of attention.
"So you and Loki actually did that?" Tony asked shocked.
"Yes! I remember that adventure very well! What else is in the myths?" Thor replied.
"Uh...wait what about that time when Reindeer Games over there got his mouth sewn shut?"
Loki heard the words piece through the air and he almost choked. He could remember every fine detail of that day, the pain, the blood, the overwhelming feeling of being alone. His hands were shaking slightly and, was it just him was it harder to breath?
Voices were still talking but it felt like he was underwater, it was all drowned out and unclear. What was happening? His lungs had started to constrict and he could barely fill them with air. He was drowning.
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Peter was excited to say the least when Tony invited him over to the Tower. He had visited a few times prior but that was when he needed to work with the man in the lab, now it was just...for fun?
He sat comfortably on the sofa, his chemistry book blanced on the end of it with his textbook and pencils in his lap. He could hear Tony talking to Thor about some myths but he was more focused on his work. Why was chemistry so easy?
He finished off the last question before shutting the heavy book which caused his pencil to fall onto the floor by his feet. Peter leaned forward and picked it up, but he noticed something odd. Loki was shaking every so slightly. His hands that were clutched around the book were pale white and he could see the heavy rise and fall off his chest, as if he couldn't breath.
The boy looked to meet the God's eyes but they were unfocused, staring off into the distance as if he wasn't seeing what he was seeing.
"Oh my God the pain! Ugh imagine the pulling and tickling sensation." Tony said next to him as he talked to Thor and Bucky.
Then everything quickly clicked in his head. Panic Attack. The converstaion was bringing back memories, bad memories that was senidng Loki into panic.
"Uh Mr Stark?" He said, keeping his eyes dead set on Loki.
"Jesus that would- in a moment Peter." Tony replied not even batting an eye at them.
"No Mr Stark-"
"Look kid in a-"
"No Mr Stark now, please stop talking." Peter said firmly, his eyes widened slightly at his own voice and by the look Tony gave him he wasn't too happy.
"I'm sorry for being rude but Mr Loki is having a panic attack and I think it has got something to do with what you're talking about."
"Pe-what?"
Tony's head whipped around to stare at Loki, closely followed by Thor who immediately walked towards his brother. "Loki? Loki hello?"
He grabbed the God's hand and held it tightly.
"Hey Point Break you good? Do you want-"
"I'll be alright."
"Okay bud let's give them some space." Tony whispered to Peter, placing a hand on his back and leading the both of them out, signalling for the others to leave too.
Thor turned his attention back to Loki and gently grasped his shoulders. "Loki look at me, please Brother."
But Loki couldn't. Thor wasn't really there, he was back, alone where he couldn't talk. His mouth tasted of iron and salt from the blood and tears and he couldn't breath.
"Loki please, just listen to me. Listen to my voice Brother."
The soft voice felt like it was easier to hear, was he near the surface yet? Then there was a hand on his own. It was grounding him, bringing him back to where he was.
"It's me Thor, okay? Just..open your eyes please."
Thor? Thor was here? But it was just in his head right? Just for comfort not real.
"I am real."
Did he say that out loud?
"Please Brother."
And then he broke through the surface and air reached this lungs. His eyes flew open as he inhaled deeply and breathed in the forbidden air.
"Th...Thor.."
The God blinked a few times to clear his vision as he looked to his side to see Thor. "Come here Brother it's okay." And Loki practically fell into his arms.
"Thor-..w-what? I-"
Thor just held him tightly, stroking his hair while rubbing a hand up and down his back gently. "You're not there now I'm here, we're here."
All Loki could do was nod slightly. He was here. Thor was here. They were safe. They were safe.
As if they spent the remainder of the night curled up on the sofa, Thor holding Loki tightly...no one had to know...
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