Soy Luna Tumblr ficweek 2021 (Day 2)
Ámbar stormed out of the Jam and Roller. Furious was an understatement for how she was feeling. "No Ámbar, wait," Simón yelled chasing after her. "For what. So you can tell me it was my fault and that I was the one to blame." Simon was able to catch up to her and took a hold of her arm so she could stop. She turned around facing him this time and pushed her arm out of his hand. She pursed her lips in anger and barely wanted to see his face.
"Look Ambar I wasn't trying to accuse you. I was only trying to ask if you were the one who took Luna's lucky keychain. Sometimes we take things by accident."
"Oh please Simón you know that's a lie what you're saying right now. You did accuse me of stealing it. Nobody just takes things by accident and you automatically assumed I purposely stole it. Look I know I've done bad things in the past but I have changed and I thought you saw that too but it turns out I was wrong."
Simón began to stutter seeing Ámbar's eyes water. "No no no I don't doubt for a second you have changed ok. I was only curious that's all. The keychain wasn't appearing anywhere and you didn't say a single word after Luna told us about it."
Ámbar bit her lip holding back the tears. She didn't say anything all day but for a reason. A reason she wasn't comfortable to say yet. "Simón you can't quickly assume it was me just because I stayed quiet in a conversation. That is a pity excuse and I thought you knew me very well and would have noticed I haven't said a word all day before that conversation happened. But I was wrong, you don't know me. All I am to you is some girl you imagine me to be. A vision of the perfect woman but you still linger onto the doubt that I haven't changed." Ámbar turns around and leaves clenching the strap of her shoulder back. The tears were slowly coming out now. She didn't mean to say all of those harsh things to Simón cause she knows he truly does love her but she felt it was best and that he deserved it. He shouldn't have assumed she would do something like that after she has numerously proved that she has changed for good. Out of all the people in the world, it had to be him who doubted her. When that thought settled in at that moment, the pain couldn't escape her lungs.
Simón with his head down ambled to the Jam and Roller. There, Luna immediately greeted him. "Simón what happened? I saw you chasing after Ámbar, how did it go?" Simón scratching his head replied, "Horrible. It was the worst. And to be honest I deserved it. What was I thinking to question Ámbar is if she did it? I should've trusted her. She changed to become a better person for good and I, the idiot, doubted her. Now I don't know what to do. She probably doesn't ever want to see me again." Luna didn't know what to say or do other than hug him.
After a two minute silent hug, Luna broke free from his arms and said, "Look it's going to take Ambar some time to forgive you but I know she will cause she loves you and knows you love her, but you will have to demonstrate that to her these upcoming days."
"Like how? How can I be able to erase my act of stupidity from existence."
Luna giggles. "Yes it was very stupid what you did but we're all human and the important thing is you learned from your mistakes. You won't be able to erase that moment from existence since that's not possible but like I said you can truly show her that you are sincerely sorry and really do love her."
"But the real question is how do I do that?" Simón being frustrated now.
Luna pauses for a second to think. "Well there are many ways you can show your love for Ámbar. You can write her a song, you can surprise her with a gift, or you can hire a mariachi band to sing to her how sorry you are." Luna then nudged Simon's arm and he let out a little chuckle.
"Luna, Mariachi bands may have been able to save us many times but I don't think it can save me this time. Tú Carcel isn't that powerful either so don't even think about it."
Luna then frowned and jokingly said, "Simón, how dare you disrespect our song that way. Ámbar probably wasn't singing it that day but I can guarantee you, she was singing it in her head."
"No but I really blew it this time Luna. I doubted her and lost all of her trust after everything we have gone through together."
Luna froze for a second. She hasn't seen Simón so disheartening in ages. "Look Simón, what you did was wrong but you can't give up on love so easily. Plus, we're all human and bound to make mistakes. Eventually she will understand and forgive you."
Simón rapidly took his hands out of his face to now cover his mouth in shock. "No no no I'm so stupid!"
"Well you definitely can be at times but I thought we already cleared up that topic since you came back here."
"No it's that I forgot to apologize. The whole time I was too busy trying to find excuses that I forgot to tell her I was sorry," Simón stuttered.
"Then what are you waiting for, do it now!" Luna demanded.
"I can't, it's too late already and I'm in charge of closing up the Jam and Roller today," Simón whined.
"Well then you'll do it first thing in the morning."
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Ámbar slammed the door shut behind her. Her anger lingered around the air, ever since she entered the mansion, like strong perfume. Everyone in the house noticed the vibe and felt it was best to leave her alone. Well almost everyone. She paraded around her room scrambling for her journal. She had officially decided for a month now to let out her anger in a journal. She felt like this coping mechanism was easier to work with than her mirror sessions. She had a precise plan laid out. She would write down her feelings, rip the page out of her notebook and stick it into the paper shredder. The paper shredder was a better choice than doing it by hand so no one would even be able to tape back the pieces.
Right when she finally found her journal and a pen to use, she heard a knocking at the door. "Who could it possibly be now," Ámbar agitated wondered. Ambar got up from the covers and annoyingly turned the knob of her door. Her face quickly changed when she saw it was Monica there. "Hi Ámbar. I wanted to tell you goodnight before you went to bed."
"Was that all you wanted to tell me cause it seems like there's more." Ámbar sounded more irritated than what she meant it to be. She sincerely was curious but found it hard to show it.
"Well you appeared upset ever since you came and it made me worried. Since I am a mom, maybe I can help. It's ok you can talk to me... or not whichever is your choice just know I'll always be here."
Ámbar now stared at the floor, contemplating what to say next. The only other person she felt a little more comfortable with when opening up, other than Simon, was surprisingly Luna's mom. She always wished ever since she was little to have somebody there to talk to and listen to her, no matter how stupid or unimportant the topic may have sounded.
"I guess you can come in."
Monica slowly took a few steps into Ámbar's room. At the time Ámbar didn't realize Monica was carrying something till now. She took out a tray of delicacies from her behind and placed them on the coffee table. There was a cup of milk, a plate of chocolate chip cookies, and a bowl of precisely cut fruit. They were in the shape of little stars. Ámbar couldn't stop but stare at the food.
"I already ate dinner," Ámbar coldly stated.
"I know you have but you forgot dessert. I brought you some options so you can pick what you like. I even cut up the fruit into little stars since I know that's your favorite shape."
"You do?!!"
"Of course I do. I remember you once said it in a conversation we had at the dinner table."
Ámbar couldn't help but get a little teary-eyed. No one has ever put this much effort for her. In fact no one has ever known her favorite shape was a star, not even her best friends Delfi and Jazmin. It's her favorite ship since it reminds her of the birthmark she has at the side of her stomach. Monica noticed the shiny, watery glare in Ámbar's eyes. She thought of the best thing to do, and that was to hug her. Ámbar really started crying in her warm, and gentle embrace.
"Shh it's ok hija. It's ok. You're safe with me."
The hug lasted for a good ten minutes. Once Ámbar cried out all the tears she had held in, she broke free from the hug.
"Thank you.... It's just me and Simon got in an argument and I know that may sound so stupid cause it's boy drama but it's more than that -"
Monica immediately cut Ámbar off and said, "It's not stupid at all and you don't have to give me an excuse dear, I completely understand."
This came as a shock to Ámbar. She wasn't used to this at all. Whenever she wanted to talk about anything outside of school to Sharon, her Madrina would scold her for wasting her attention on useless topics and people.
"Well it's just I'm worried that no one will ever believe the fact that I have truly changed. How everyone will probably still see me as the same manipulative mean girl I used to be. I'm tired of gaining everyone's trust and belief. I really have changed but I don't know what else to do so they can realize that," Ámbar now sat down slouching.
"Ámbar you don't have to prove to anyone that you have changed. You've already been showing it for quite a long time now. Don't beat yourself up so hard for this. For some people it takes longer than others to trust again. Try not to focus your energy on those people. If they can't see the incredible person I see right in front of me, then it's their loss."
"You truly think so."
"I know so."
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"Wait, Ámbar slow down," Simón yells out a mile away from her. Ámbar decided to skate in the morning to the Jam and Roller today. She tried to take the other route to avoid Simón, but he knew that she likes to take this path whenever she's angry, especially at him.
"Can you please stop following me. I don't want to talk to you."
"Ámbar I came to apologize and say I'm sorry."
This came off as a shock to Ámbar. "You wh-" Thump. Due to her attention being solely focused on Simón, she didn't realize the big hole on the pavement. Her foot lost control of the wheel and her knee slid on to the pure concrete. Ámbar was on the floor now in pain, clenching on to her knee. It was bleeding and she tried to not show any signs of pain.
Simón came faster than lightning. "ÁMBAR!" He bent down to the floor and examined her knee. He then slid his backpack off of his shoulders and unzipped it. He took out a napkin and hurriedly cleaned off the blood streaming down her lower leg. His touch felt like an electric zap and the way his fingers swept across her leg made her badly want to kick him now. She's still angry at him but deep down finds him very romantic the way in how he's stressing out about her. She shook her head out of a daydream, surprisingly feeling like her prince charming coming to the rescue. She doesn't need a prince even though having one right by her side feels nice. She may be a damsel in distress but can handle this all on her own.
"Look it's ok. I can fix it just let me be."
"No you're not okay Ámbar. I don't care what else you say, and be mad at me for all that matters but I'm not leaving you alone. I can't bear to witness you hurt. So go ahead and complain all you want but I'm not leaving."
Ámbar froze at his response. He untied the plaid shirt around his waist and instead wrapped it around her leg. Before he was able to hear a response from her, he picked her up and carried her bridal style. He skated like the Flash, almost never before. She couldn't help but stare at Simón's worry look plastered all over his face. Now the electricity in her is building up into fireworks, her heart has never beaten so fast in her life. She can feel his tense grasp around her waist and legs. This position actually felt comforting for her, as if she can stay in his arms forever.
Right then and there Ámbar realized how it didn't matter if people didn't believe her or not on whether she has changed. She has people by her side who truly care about her.
"You know I'm still mad at you."
"You can be mad at me for an eternity. I deserve it. As long as you're healthy and safe while you scold me, I'll forever be happy. I truly am sorry by the way. I do trust you and I don't know why I even doubted you for a second, it was such a dumb decision and I truly regret it," Simón panted.
"Good. You should regret it. You apologizing and running to help me, not necessarily saving since I don't need saving, has made me a little less angry at you."
Simón chuckled. "I love you so much bonita. Never forget that."
"I love you too, stupid," Ámbar giggled.