Alice took it upon herself to be my personal escort for the rest of the week. I couldn't get her to leave me alone, no matter how hard I tried. Now that it's finally the weekend, I decide to spend some time alone and go explore California. I put on a pair of ripped denim jean shorts (I didn't realize how short they were when I decided to put them on) and a black tank with a red flannel over top, which I tied in a knot in the front. I grabbed my black combat boots and put them on too. I pulled my brown/blonde hair up into a messy bun and checked my appearance in the mirror.
"Something's missing..." I mutter to myself.
I grab my white and black bandanna that I brought from Juvy and tie it around my head like a headband. I put on some makeup and grab my purse. I lock the door behind me and walk out of the school, waving to Mrs. Dobbs, the lady behind the desk.
I fish my sunglasses out of my purse and slide them on my face. I walk to the exit of the parking lot where I hail a cab.
I climb in and say, "I'm just planning to go sightseeing, so drop me off wherever."
The car doesn't move.
"Is that ok?" I ask.
The driver gives me a sly grin and removes his sunglasses. "In case you haven't put it together yet," he says, "I drive a cab on the weekends."
I roll my eyes and groan. Jack.
"Why do you keep pestering me, Jack Tyler?" I whine.
"Pestering...thats a fancy word," he muses, the car finally starting to move.
"It means you're annoying," I shoot back.
"Alice was right, you really don't want friends," he says.
"Yes, she is right. So just stop trying, ok?" I say.
"Why?" he asks. It's a simple question, but it catches me off guard.
"Why what?" I respond.
"Why don't you want friends? Why should I stop trying? Why won't you let anybody into your life?"
"That's more than one question," I point out.
"We've got time. After all, you don't even know where you're going," he says.
Maybe telling him to drop me off anywhere wasn't the best idea... I scold myself.
"I don't want friends because I don't like people," I snap at Jack.
"And why is that?" he asks calmly.
"That's just the way it is," I say.
"Doesn't have to be," he mutters quietly, but I hear him.
I don't reply. I have nothing to say to him. The rest of the car ride passes by in scilence.
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It's almost dark when I finally get back to the school. My feet are aching in my boots and my hair is an absolute disaster. I trudge back to my dorm room and flop down onto the bed, wrapping myself up like a burrito still in all of my clothes- including my boots. I reach for my laptop and pull up Netflux. I flick through all of the options and eventually settle on watching some Nicholas Cage movie.
A few minutes into the movie, someone knocks on my door. I groan and unwrap the blanket from around myself. I adjust my clothes- straighten my shirt, pull down my shorts a bit- and walk over to the door. I fling it open and I see...
My aunt.
"Hi sweetie," she says warmly.
I struggle to find words.
"Can I come in?" she asks.
Still not able to form words, I nod mutely and move out of her way.
She walks in and looks around my room. "Very clean," she comments.
"Uhh, thanks," I mutter.
She moves my laptop and glances at the screen while doing so. She chuckles and says, "Nicholas Cage? Seriously?"
I smile.
She pats the bed, signaling for me to sit down next to her. I walk over and jump onto the bed, then take off my boots, which I hadn't done yet. I pulled my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around my legs. After a few minutes of silence, my aunt says, "How are you, sweetheart?"
I shrug my shoulders. "I'm fine, I suppose. I mean, it's still new... But I'm getting used to it."
She nods her head. "I assume you're wondering why I'm here," she says, looking towards me.
I nod and stare at her.
She looks at me and says, "I got an email, from your teacher, Mr. Morris... He told me that you seem depressed."
I snap my head up and stare at her. "Aunt Lucinda, I'm not depressed."
"He said that you're extremely quiet, not talking to people, and not making friends- even though people have tried."
"I guess that's true..." She looks at me expectantly. "But I am not depressed!"
"Why won't you make friends?" she asks quietly.
"I don't want any," I whisper.
"Honey...please. Your not even giving this place a shot!"
I consider her words, then nod my head. She's right. I have to give it a shot.
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