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I never knew what love was, I knew the idea but not what it feels like. I always went to the people who I thought deserved and no matter how much they hurt me I went back. The weird thing about love though, is that you don't know really what it is. Some people never experience it, I was sure that I was one of those people for so long until I met Draco. I don't know if I am or was in love all I know is that the void that I had was gone.
I couldn't stop thinking about this as we headed to the great hall. I sat down next to Luna, I just kind of stared at nothing. I felt such numbness that I hadn't felt with him. I was ripped out of my thoughts when Dumbledore clinked his fork against his glass. We all looked up and listened.
I didn't really listen, I never do until I heard that Slughorn was the potions professor, I looked at Luna and back at Dumbledore. "Does that mean..." I said quietly but my question was answered, Snape was the defense of the dark arts teacher.
We all started whispering but Dumbledore quieted us, we all went silent. He said a few more things but I didn't listen. As soon as the speech ended Luna piled food on my plate and nudged me with her elbow. "Eat," she said and I took a bite. I looked up to see Draco looking down at his food, he looked really...numb. I knew how he felt, it was how I felt when Lee broke up with me, except this time
I was his Lee.
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Eventually, the feast ended and we all got up, I saw him snap out of whatever he was thinking, noticing everyone around him suddenly. I wondered what he was thinking about probably nothing big.
As we walked out I looked over at Harry who's face was all bloody, I took a deep breath and walked up to him, noticing Hermonie and Ron looking tense. "Harry, what happened are you okay?"
He looked at me and glared slightly "Nothing happened, you'd defend him anyways" He said and started walking away. I realized immediately what he meant. I pulled him back, which he was clearly surprised about, "What. Did. He. Do" I said angrily, I didn't care when he hurt me but he had no right to hurt harry after everything he's been through.
He told me everything that happened on the train, Draco mocking his mother's death, stomping on his face, and leaving him there. I clenched my fist so hard that I had fingernail marks on my palms. I apologized profusely and walked away. I saw Malfoy in the hall and before I could stop myself I yelled to him"
"Oi! Malfoy, what is wrong with you?" I said and saw some people turn around but not him, he ignored me "Oh you can't respond? You seem to never be able to shut that mouth when you bully everyone else here!" I said louder
He stopped walking and said in an oddly calm "Y/N shut it" He said and went to keep walking. I laughed angrily "No." he turned around
"What did you just say?" Draco looked at me, I saw a crowd of students discreetly listen to us "I said no. You are a bully Malfoy. You are nothing but a cruel and sadistic bully. You don't care what anyone else feels. You are selfish" I sneered at him
He stared at me for a second, then sighed, and walked away. The last thing I heard when before he walked too far away is "I wish it didn't have to be like this,". I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned around "Detention Miss L/N" the person behind me, who turned out to be Snape, said and walked away.
I groaned and stormed to my common room. I angrily stormed into the room and grabbed the pictures off of the ceiling of my bed. I grabbed the picture of Draco and me, I stared at it, my teardrops falling as the kids in the picture avoided my tears.
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We were sitting on the grass by the black lakes, he had called me to sit with him while everyone was in class. It was the only time I had skipped class, I knew the missing class would worry my professors and lose points, I didn't care. He had been really off all week and I wanted to see if I could lighten his mood.
We had set up a picnic with all of our favorite foods. We talked about our weeks until I finally asked him what's wrong, I took a bite of food while he answered.
"I just...feel like I am an awful person. I'm so mean and...I don't know" He looked down and took a bite of his food quickly. I moved closer to him and spoke softly.
"Draco, you are amazing. You just put on that cold front but underneath that, you are an amazing person" He smiled and hugged me tightly.
After we finish eating we put everything away and laid back, staring at the blue sky above me. He laid next to me but on his stomach, he stared up at the sky and immediately groaned in pain. "Fuck the sun," he said
I laughed "Bloody hell you're an idiot". He sat up and stared at me "What'd you say?". I looked over at him and smirked "Bloody. Hell. You're. An. Idiot" I said and before you could say 'brilliant' he was on top of me.
He started tickling me until I was crying with laughter, he knew every tickle spot on me. "Stop Stop. I'm sorry!" He got off of me as I tried to catch my breath "and for your information, I didn't see the sun"
"yeah obviously" I laughed, he rolled his eyes and suddenly got up. "Hey wait I didn't make you upset right?" He opened his bag and pulled out a photo, "Mom sent me this the other day, I thought you'd want it".
He handed me the photo, it was of me and him when I assume, we were around 7/8. We were sitting under the stars and her broom was in between us. I saw her smile and point up. She was pointed at Scorpius.
I smiled and hugged him "Thank you Draco!" I put it in my bag. We left a while later, him of course leaving 10 minutes after me.
I hung it on the ceiling of my bed that way it was along with all my other memories
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I went to rip it off before an airy voice said behind me "Don't do it". I jumped and turned around to see Luna sitting on the floor near the door. I didn't question it.
"Why he's a-" I began but she sighed, stopping me "you don't think that Y/N. You like him" she sat on my bed and took the photo from my hand. She hung it back up on the top of my bed while talking "I know you don't want to but I've known it for quite a long time. Your eyes are filled with thoughts of him at all times." I sighed and sat on my bed. I sniffled back tears and held my head down.
"Did you know that when we kissed he'd always smile on my lips, and when we were together he'd draw his name on my palms" I sobbed out, trying to catch my breath, luna pulled me close to her "it's gone, it all gone.." I said, my voice wavering as I tried to breathe.
She held me tight "It's not, I promise you that he'll come back"
I sniffled "no luna I left, again" she shook her head "No I know, I'm saying that I think something is happening that we don't know. You saw how he's been acting. Just breathe" We did a breathing technique that we had practiced in the first year when I first cried in front of her.
After my breathing calmed and I put my head back up and she got up and pulled out a vial of an unknown liquid. "Here, you need this, it's for dreamless sleep" She handed me it and I tried to hand it back but she pushed it back to me. I took a drink of it and yawned, she smiled and I sat down and went under my covers.
"Good night Y/N"
"Good night Luna," I said before falling asleep
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The next day I woke up and everyone was gone I had my free period early in the morning so I got to wake up late. I walked out of my dorm and saw Flitwick in the common room. I started to walk away before he called me "Y/N turn around"
I sighed and walked over to him "How's my favorite professor?" he smiled but shook his head "and why aren't you in class?" he asked
"Oh, it's my free period," I said but Flitwick shook his head "Don't you want to be an Auror, you have to take potions"
I smiled sadly "I know but I needed an 'O' to pass and it wasn't available"
He smiled "well lucky for you, Slughorn only asked for an 'A' so I'll be expecting to hear you are there tomorrow!
I groaned but covered my mouth, he luckily didn't take points and went to walk back up to my room. I heard professor Flitwick begin to talk "Oh and Miss L/N, I heard you'll be learning Amortentia tomorrow, so that's exciting!"
I smiled but ran back up to my dorm shutting the door shut and sliding down it.
What would I smell
or even worse who would I smell
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