I woke up the next morning to "All of me" by John Legend and a bucket of ice-cream right infront of my eyes. Sydney had prepared a so called "Ex flushing" procedure that began with John Legend and ice-cream for a week. The next level was going to the bar every night to get drunk for a week. And the last stage consisted in having one-night-stands for a week. I had to agree, she really had it all figured out, but it wasn't worthed. Wasting three weeks of my life sobbing over a playboy cheater who had broken the heart of a thousand girls, karma was going to get him. I had a strong feeling about it.
"Sydney, he was a cheater, I broke up with him. I'm perfectly fine. Now will you please turn that damn thing off, it's a saturday and I really desire to sleep" I said with my head burried in the softness of my pink pillow.
"Oh honey, you say that now, but trust me, you are going to need this. You haven't had a date in a long time sweety and after Rahul and this, you need this. I mean you might have broken up with him, but I know, I just do, that you had some good times with him. And after you lost you virginity to him-" I instantly interrupted her to correct her incorrect thoughts
"Wow wow wow, calm down there. I never slept with him Syd. And besides you know I'm over Bhatia. He is history, and if I would have been heartbroken about David, don't you think I would have been crying the whole night?" I said frustrated, up from my bed walking towards my closet.
"Ok so you didn't sleep with him and so you didn't cry all night but that doesn't make a difference. You broke up and every girl deserves the Ex Flush in their life. And by the way, if you were so over Bhatia then why do you still carry around the flowers he gave to you at the Scott ball?" She said with her arms on her hips, as if she just proved her point. I stood there with a puzzled face and an open mouth with absolutley no words coming out of it. Then I suddenly spoke.
"So what your trying to say is that I still have feelings for Rahul?" I questioned with an angry look on my face, hoping the answer would be yes. It was true that I hated Rahul for what he did to me, but even after everything, I still believed there was good in him, that he was still my best friend. I even believed that there could still be and him and me. It was a stupid and rather distracting thought, but my mind refused to eliminate the thought at all costs. Rahul was still in my mind, my heart and my life. He was and is my best friend and even though I wanted to I couldn't get rid of him.
"Yes! Don't you get it? He was your best friend back when you were young, and you might have fallen for him then, but you still love him now. I mean why else would you have done so much for him. You pretended to be his girlfriend despite the fact that you started liking him and it was for him to get voldemort, you hid the fact that Michaela took drugs just so you wouldn't hurt him, you went to the extent of helping him ge rid of drugs, you broke your leg for heavens sake, and still had hope for both of you even though he told you that he would have fallen for you if Michaela didn't exist, but she does. And don't even get me started on how you blush or act everytime you see him." She said walking around the room listing the facts. Sydney was right. I still had feelings for Rahul, but I wasn't ready to accept it.
"Look I did all of that because as you said, he is my best friend. And the leg breaking was an accident, I got hit by a deer, by accident. In addition, I do not blush when he is around, you just see it that way but I don't have anything for him anymore. " At this point I wasn't even sure who I was trying to convince of that. I had feelings for Rahul. There was no going back. Sydney stared at me waiting for me to confess. It was clear, so there was no point in hiding it. "Alright, fine. I have feelings for him, happy? But that doesn't really matter because he is with Michaela, remember? The girl he used me to impress? The girl with the drug addiction. Voldemort. He is with her now and there is nothing I can do about it. ´ I would have fallen for you if Michaela didn't exist´ is what he said, not I am falling in love with you with or without Michaela. " By this time my nerves were getting tensed up and I couldn't help but fall into tears. The thought of losing him as a friend was tragic, but the thought of losing him to Michaela was just stupid. She had taken over what I wanted in the blink of an eye. She had everything, popularity, money, perfect body, guys drooling on her, DRUGS. There is nothing I ever took from her, nevertheless she took the thing that I most wanted in my life and the thing I finally had a chance to get, Rahul. Sydney came up to me and hugged me tightly, stroking my hair as I cried in her arms. I was hurt and he didn't realise it. I know it wasn't his fault, but I wish, I just wish he would have stopped liking that bitch after he found out after her drug addiction. He had never fallen for a girl so hard, and he was oblivious of his surroundings when he was with her. She made him a different person, a bad person and he couldn't see that. I wanted to tell him, show him what he had become, but just like a person with a drug addiction, there is no going back. I stopped crying and got up from the bed, I know this might have been the millionth time I thought this, but this time I intended on following my thought. I wanted to get over Rahul, again. The pain hurt more than I thought and at this point I was even willing to use the Ex Flushing procedure, even if it was a waste of time, I was willing to do anything to make the pain stop. There was an issue though, everytime I tried, something stopped me. It stopped me back then and it stopped me now, fate. I recieved a message from Rahul telling me to meet him at his apartment as soon as possible and that it was an emergency. I didn't want to go, but the word emergency kept clicking in my mind like the noise of a police car.
I stood outside his door, taking a deep breath before I knocked. My mind kept questioning why he had called me over. There was only one way to find out. I knocked on the brown wooden door. He opened the door and didn't even look at me. His eyes were facing the floor, as if he was trying to avoid me. I entered nervousley as my hands started shaking. For a minute there was nothing but silence, Rahul stood by the door, not uttering a word, still looking at the floor. It looked as if he was about to start crying so I spoke to break the tension.
"Well? Will you tell me what the hell is going on or are you just going to stand there all day?" I asked curiousley. He finally looked up at me and still without saying a word walked up to the couch and sat down. I walked after him and joined him on the soft green couch. He was about to speak but the words weren't coming out of his mouth. Clearly something was wrong. He was trembling and his leg was shaking. All of a sudden I held his hand to stop him from trembling and asked him "Are you ok? Why are you trembling? Rahul what is going on?" He let go of my hand and got up with a blast, then, he spoke.
"I came to visit you to your dorm today, I wanted to check how you were doing after David, but turns out some of my unanswered questions about you stood right outside your door." I looked at him with a puzzled face. What was he trying to say? When did he ever visit me? What?
"Rahul, what are you talking about? I'm confused-"
"Oh come on, I heard everything Priya, every word you said, about me, about Michaela, how you knew her drug addiction, how you call her voldemort " He paused before he looked right at me and continued "How you have feellings for me" My face turned red as I filled myself with embarrasment. He overheard me and Sydney talking, he heard everything. I mentally slapped myself for talking so much and stood there paralized, looking at the carpeted floor in his apartment. I couldn't face this right now, I wasn't ready. My stomach started pulling and my head starting spinning. I wanted to run, run as fast I could, nevertheless, I was in the situation now, and wether I liked it or not, I had to face it. I stood up and was just about to open my mouth when he interrupted me again. "Why? Why didn't you tell me? Is this why you stopped contacting me after you left? Answer me."
"Yes, ok. I couldn't take it anymore, you and I were impossible back then, and now when we had the chance you chose her over me. So yes I am very badly hurt. Hurt by none other thatn you Mr Bhatia. I did all of that for you. I wanted to be with you, but I also wanted you to be happy. I chose your happiness over mine." Water started escaping my eyes as I spoke. I wiped them off quickly and headed towards the door, but he stopped me.
"Oh no, this fight isn't over yet Priya Gupta. You lied to me. I get that you did it for my happiness, but don't try to pin this on me. I asked for your help, I didn't beg for it. You got yourself into this mess. If you wanted me then you should have told me a lont time ago. Hiding it was not the solution, you got yourself into this problem. Don't think about blaming me or Michaela on this." I couldn't believe those words were being said to me. Despite everything I did for him he wasn't ready to accept his mistake, and he was still supporting the devil. I was angry and emotional. Words couldn't describe my emotions, I wanted to punch him so hard and at the same time cry in a corner for the rest of my life. I had been humiliated and unappreciated. I had it. He wanted to fight, he got a fight.
"I can't believe this, after everything I did for you wether you got me into this or I did, you still support her. Over your best friend. I might have gotten myself into this but I did it anyways. You got the girl because of me, without me you wouldn't have got her. And your blaming me? You should be thanking me" I yelled. He started laughing as he walked back and front.
"Thank you, for what? I could have got her without your help, I didn't need you. I liked Michela since the beggining and I am always going to like her. She is the one. Your not. You were my best friend Priya, but you stopped being it the day you stopped contacting me. Why? Because you had feelings for me. God, you and your stupid feelings." The anger inside me started pulling out like a wild hungry bear. He was crossing the line. Things were getting intense.
"Wow, it's amazing that you don't see what she has turned you into. A big fat selfish little monster. You know what? I regret it, having feelings for you is the worst thing that can ever happen to anyone, god I just hope you have a sad and pathetic little life with your pathetic little drugged bitch. Oh and your right, your not my best friend. Sydney is. You could never be anybody's best friend, you don't even know the meaning of it." I was about to exit the door, when he held me and pushed me against the wall. He was so close to me I could smell his mint breath and his axe diodrent. He held me against the wall staring at me with his dark coffee brown eyes. He wanted to speak but was muted. I wanted to kiss him, there and then, but he was just another jerk. I pushed him away and was about to exit the door.
"Don't ever contact me in your life again." He said with water at the front of his eye lids.
"I did it once, I can do it again." Those were my last words to him as I shut the door behind me with a thump. I couldn't help but cry. Cry as much as I could walking down the stairs. He didn't just put a whole through my heart, he killed it. He was not the guy I knew. He had turned into a monster. She had turned him into a monster. I never wanted to see him again. Ever. Never.
HEY GUYS, SO THIS IS MY LAST CHAPTER FOR PART ONE. PLEASE PLEASE COMMENT AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT THIS CHAPTER AND PART ONE!! AND WHAT DO YOU THINK IS GOING TO HAPPEN IN PART TWO?? PLEASE COMMENT AND VOTE. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING LOVLIESS!! XO