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imessage.com
kelsie
Good news!!
syd
yeahhh?
kelsie
Iris got the all good! you can record it for the album :)
syd
YOURE JOKING
kelsie
Yeah, totally just said all that for the shits n gigs 🤦🏽♀️
syd
oh my god
AHHH IM SO HAPPY
thank you kels!! x
kelsie
No worries! Btw, studio sessions are coming up... I sent you the emails with the times— please don't ignore them like last time
syd
i-
it was ONE time
kelsie
Yeah but you're forgetful smh, it could happen again
syd
i will fire you ❤️
kelsie
You wouldn't get far without me luv 😌🤚
syd
touché
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chase
hey fatty ❤️
syd
tf do you want
chase
okay ms attitude 🙄
pls come out of ur room
we miss u
and rudy is stressing about you
syd
no
i like it in here
it's very nice
chase
oh my fucking god
get out before i DRAG you out
syd
you wouldn't
chase
...you're right
uh
i'll get rudy to text you
syd
nO
CHASE
NO
chase
I WILL
WATCH ME
syd
CHASE
NO IM NOT READY TO FACE HIM
chase
FACE HIM?
BITCH ITS OVER A SCREEN
syd
SAME THING DIFFERENT SHAPE BITCH
chase
oh my god
you know what?
too late now whore ❤️
syd
FOR FUCKS SAKE
i hate you
chase
you'll thank me later
syd
i wont 😍
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rudy
hi
you haven't come out of your room and i feel bad
are you okay?
i feel like i did something
so um
if i did, i'm sorry... i didn't mean to
you don't have to text back
but it would be nice if you did
but it's okay
i'm rambling aren't i
i'm sorry
okay bye
syd
hi
you didn't do anything
rudy
are you sure?
syd
yes
i'm just embarrassed
rudy
...oh
syd
waiT NO
that came out so wrong
i didn't mean it like that
i meant that i'm just mad at myself about that whole thing, i chickened out and made things awkward
rudy
made things awkward? syd you did nothing wrong... it was chase who called me which distracted us, you're absolutely fine
syd
yeah but then i locked myself in my room for like three days to literally avoid you
ah fuck
i've really messed things up
this is my fault, i'm sorry for making things awkward
rudy
no it's okay, i understand where you're coming from
but can we please communicate more if this is going to become a thing? you really had me thinking that i fucked things up.... i was worried lmao
syd
yes, of course. i'm sorry, i'm not too good at these things
rudy
it's fine :)
thank you for answering me though
but now can we see each other in person please? i kinda miss you
syd
my door is unlocked :)
rudy
you sure you're not gonna kick me out again?
syd
hurry up and get in here before i don't talk to you for another three days 😔🤚
rudy
oH-
okay okay okay
coming now
syd
ty ☺️
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𝕤𝕪𝕕𝕟𝕖𝕪
It's the three knocks at my bedroom door that makes my heartbeat go a little faster.
I'm quick to walk to the door and open it, letting out a breath of air as I'm faced with the head of blonde hair who is dressed in black sweatpants and a white t-shirt. Before I can say anything or even step aside to let him in, he lunges forward and engulfs me in a tight hug.
"Oh-" I grunt from the force, eventually wrapping my arms around him. "It's good to see you too, Rudy." I chuckle.
He laughs and loosens his grip on me, stepping into my room. "M'sorry, I just didn't get to see you for like three days... I felt like being cliché."
"That makes sense," I respond, closing the door behind me and watching as he throws himself onto my bed. "I'm sorry again for what happened..."
He lifts his head up from the mattress to give me a dirty look and takes the pillow behind his head, throwing it at me straight after. I thankfully catch it before it hits me or anything on my walls behind me. "Rudy, for fuck sake! What was that for?"
"Stop apologising!" he whines like a child. "It's not your fault."
I roll my eyes and throw the pillow back at him, walking to the other side of the bed to lay next to him. "Yeah, yeah. Whatever you say." I grumble.
Rudy pulls me closer to him by my waist and places his head on my stomach, getting himself comfortable. "Okay, Ms attitude." he smirks.
"Oh my god," I groan, also trying to distract myself from not physically dying at the way he's cuddling into me at the moment. "That's exactly what Chase said!"
He shrugs. "What can I say? Good minds think alike."
I scoff at his words. "Sounds like a heap of bullshit to me."
"Mmm," he mutters. "I don't agree."
"Whatever." I sigh out, running my hands through his messy hair. It's clear the boy was tired... I'm pretty sure him and Chase had to do a few interviews today so I guess that could be the reason why. I cant help but blush as I watch him nuzzle himself into my stomach, tired eyes closed with a soft smile dancing around his features.
"Oh," I say after a few minutes, remembering the conversation I had with Kelsie not that long ago. "I have something to ask you."
He opens his eyes and adjusts his head so he's looking up at me. "Yeah?"
"So basically, we got the all clear from the producers of Iris to let me record a cover for the album. I don't wanna put any pressure on you, but I was wondering if you wanted to record the electric guitar for the song since, y'know, that one time you and I played it together..." I say, biting my lip after.
The boys jaw drops open and he props himself onto his elbows, making my hand slip from his hair. I started to get nervous about his reaction, a wave of anxiety rushing over me. "I- uh- you don't have to if you don't want to," I stammer. "Gosh— it was a stupid question anyway. Forget I ever as-"
But then, I'm silenced by his lips on mine.
My eyes fly open at the familiar— but yet also new feeling. Him kissing me was something that I was not expecting him to do, that's for sure. I ease into the kiss, eventually coming to my senses and kissing him back, moving my hands to the nape of his neck to play with the very soft curls back there. I feel him smile, his lips warm and firm against my own.
I thankfully wasn't freaking out too much... Rudy and I have kissed like a thousand times before thanks to the show. Though, each time we had a camera filming the whole thing and a room full of production crew, so this was very different. I cant help but notice how good it felt— the kiss held meaning, and lots of it too.
The two of us slowly pull away, staring into each others eyes as we do so. "Sooo," I mutter. "I'm gonna take that as a yes?"
He lets out a laugh. "Yes, Sydney, you can take that as a yes."
I grin. "Sweet." I say, leaning forward to peck his lips once again, feeling him chuckle against my lips as we go in for another kiss.
And then it hits me.
Oh my fucking god.
I'm falling for Rudy Pankow.
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HI
i wrote this in my crew room at work yUCK 😔🤚 I had to wait an hour after my shift finished so I was like fuck it and decided to write whatever the hell this is
moral of the story it's cheesy as fuck so i apologise 😃✌🏼
anYWAYS
they kissed lol