I was the first, hence, I was alone.
Well, not totally alone. There were Leon san and Lola san. They taught me everything I needed to know, they looked after me when I first came. They were the first family I had.
But the thing is, there was a communication gap. It was impossible for me to speak or understand English, and it was hard for them to continuously speak Japanese. So, even though I'm eternally grateful to them, I didn't get the chance at that time to properly connect with them.
Eventually they had to leave to their own country, and thus I became truly alone.
I heard I was supposed to be released together with another vocaloid, but he got delayed.
Why did he had to be delayed?
A castle like house was made for me to stay. The house was magnificent, but there was only one problem.
It was too big for one person.
One lonely person.
Usually there would be two to three recordings a week for me. So it didn't become unbearable for me. The feedback from the fans also made me really happy. I genuinely liked singing for them.
But the lonliness was still there.
Slowly but steadily, a year and a half passed
Then that fated day came.
I perfectly remember that day. I was feeling depressed more than usual, as there were no recordings that week. I had nothing to do, all alone in that stupidly big house.
Stupidly big for one person.
And then, when I was feeling down the most in my life, you appeared outside my room.
A blue haired, blue scarf wearing, warm looking person- that was my first impression for you. You were looking pretty nervous back then. With a flustered and shy voice, you said, in clear Japanese, "Konichiwa, Meiko san. I- I am K-KAITO. I am the f-first Japanese male vocaloid. I will be living with you from now. I am still new to this, so I will be in your care."
I remember, that I quitely got up from the sofa. With a whisper-like voice, I had said,
" You-you finally came."
When I reminisce the next thing I did, I still feel embarrassed.
Without even hesitating for a bit, I ran towards him and tightly hugged him.
All my sorrow, suffering and lonliness stored up for the past 1 and a half year, I let it all out on his chest.
I was crying, but I was happy. Happy that I won't be alone anymore.
I don't how much time passed while we were like that, but eventually I came to my senses, and got really flustered realizing what I was doing. I legit got scared thinking that I might have freaked him out. But when I looked at you, when we finally made proper eye contact for the first time, I got embraced by the warmest smile I had ever seen. Holding that smile, with a soft voice you said, " It was tough, right? Living alone in this big house for a year. Don't worry, I am here now, so you won't be alone anymore. So cheer up."
After hearing those words, I couldn't hold back anymore. Tightly grasping him, I let it all out on his chest. And then, even though I was older than you, even though we had just met, without hesitation you gently pat my head, and then said those words. The words that got forever embedded on my heart.
"Sorry for keeping you waiting so long."
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12 years have already passed. The big house that was vastly empty, is now full with people. The house now doesn't have a moment of silence. Now that the family has grown so much, eventually we had to take on other rolls while being idols. Being a manager, a teacher and an idol sure is hard, isn't it? Though I'm not gonna lie, I really enjoy your everyday interactions with problem child's of your class. Fukase, Piko, Una, the hime twins sure give you a tough time, don't they? But the face you make when you complain about them makes it obvious how much you love them. Well, all the other vocaloids also love you too. Even though there are so many idols here, you still shine like a bright star.
The star that saved me from the darkness.
Though we have got way busier than before, we still manage to meet up at that room for the past 12 years. I know the girls whisper and giggle behind my back, but well, it's not like I don't like it.....
Even today, I'm sitting at that room, with two cups of coffee, waiting for you. Even today, you will be late like usual, and with a apologetic smile, you will say those words that you told me back then.
"Sorry for keeping you waiting so long."
