Remember me

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14years, that's how long it's been since that day. I thought about it again today because it's your birthday. It still makes me cry, even though I've forgiven you. It doesn't occupy my mind and control my life the way it used to but I still think about it from time to time.
14years ago I was almost 16, and so in love with you. Thinking back it seems silly but back then it felt like it was everything. You didn't feel the same, which I don't blame you for. I was different, the weird girl, always too happy and too hyper. So I get it. What I do blame you for is for taking advantage of my feelings. My naive self was thrilled when one day you showed me just a bit of attention. We had an excursion to the zoo. Me being me tried to get as close to you as possible, trying not to seem stalkerish. You smiled at me a few times and that was as far as it went. And I was content with those few moments you gave me. Until the end of that day, I saw you walking towards me. My heartbeat skyrocketed because my crush was coming to me. You said hi and asked if I had fun that day. You touched my arm. All simple enough things. Everyone was leaving for the bus to go home when that touch suddenly wasn't so simple anymore. You held me back and nobody noticed, it didn't seem that weird. I didn't know what was going on yet so I didn't say anything. And I never would say anything. That day you took a piece of me that to this day I haven't gotten back and probably never will.