THE QUIET BOY || MICHAEL JACKSON

S1 🥀 E17

| Chapter 17 • The Breakup p2 |

~ two weeks later girlies ~

Michael•

My solo album "Off The Wall" was due to come out in less than two weeks and I have yet to complete it and put the songs in the order I want them. My mind hasn't been where it should've been. I missed Jt but she had blocked me everywhere.. I fucked up big time.

I cheated on her for my background dancer Tatiana and man that was the worst mistake of my life! I was just so caught up in the fame and the fans that I forgot about my main priority. I was dumb enough to let her go and now she probably doesn't want me anymore! I'd listen to her music every now and then and cry because of the mistake I made, it wasn't a mistake it was a choice, a bad choice and I regret it all

How can I get her to take me back? Maybe a song...I grabbed my notepad and instantly got to writing. In less than 6 minutes I was done with my apology song.

"Lets get it, Jerrid." I nod at my producer, I noticed Janet- my sister and quite frankly my best friend look at me with a hint of disappointment in her eye (song in the mm, and this is just the demo💕)

She's out of my life
She's out of my life
And I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I don't know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life

It's out of my hands
It's out of my hands
To think for two years she was here
And I took her for granted, I was so cavalier
Now, the way that it stands
She's out of my hands

So, I've learned that love's not possession
And I've learned that love won't wait
Now, I've learned that love needs expression
But, I've learned too late

And she's out of my life
She's out of my life
Damned indecision and cursed pride
Kept my love for her locked deep inside
And it cuts like a knife

I was already holding back my tears but at that moment I couldn't, her beautiful smile ran through my head. My voice cracked as I sang the last line, it was like I just realized I may never get her back.

She's out of my .... life

I finally let a small whimper out before humming a bit, I hung my head. I was embarrassed, not at the fact I just cried but at the fact that I lost the best thing ever.

I took the headphones off my head and opened the booth door, "Excuse me." I mumble before walking out of the studio.

I found the nearest empties bathroom and locked the door, I leaned my head on the door and sobbed. "Please, Jayden come back." I mumble

My heart was broken, and it was all my fault.

Jt•

I haven't left my apartment in 2 weeks, 2 full weeks. I was cuddling with a pillow that smells just like Michael, sobbing quietly. I haven't cried in 2 days but something about today just made me sad. I felt a stinging sensation in my chest that made me sob harder

My phone buzzed softly causing me to breathe and pick it up. It was a text from Janet, Michael's sister and quite frankly his bestfriend. It was a video, of Michael in the studio. The message under the video said

I don't know what type of hold you have on my brother, but you've got it on there good. Please, Jayden, we miss you- not just Applehead but ALL of us! Yes Applehead misses you more than us obviously but please, if this isn't enough for you then what is? It's his fault that all this happened, yes but please- we all fuck up but please...I'm begging you myself. Please make him happy again. We love you, Jayden. ❤️

I played the video and instantly let a tear fall, it was Michael singing and I could tell it was from the heart.

So, I've learned that love's not possession
And I've learned that love won't wait
Now, I've learned that love needs expression
But, I've learned too late
And she's out of my life
She's out of my life
Damned indecision and cursed pride
Kept my love for her locked deep inside
And it cuts like a knife

He pauses and puts his head down, a tear falls from his eye and he shakes his head.

She's out of my....life

His voice cracked, I knew he was hurting. He lets out a shaky hum before the video cuts off. I let the video play over and over just to hear his voice, I wanted to be in his embrace again. But my pride. Michael hurt me, so bad..so bad. Janet texted again

Jan🤍: Can we meet up? I won't tell Michael we're going to see each other, I just really wanna make sure you're okay. Have you been out since the breakup?

Me: I haven't honestly, I deleted every social media platform, canceled all performances. I needed time to myself.

Jan🤍: I saw the statement you put out, I'm so sorry...

Me: Its not your fault, Jan, dont apologize for your brother. I need him to apologize, the song was beautiful yes and I admit I played it over and over but I need him to admit to his faults face to face...

Jan🤍: I understand completely, I'll make sure he does don't worry.

Me: Okay, and yes we can meet up. I need to see the sunlight 😂..how does tomorrow sound?

Jan🤍: 😂 sounds great, love! Text me when you're ready and I'll be on the way tomorrow

Me: Will do!

Maybe I need this, maybe I need to go out and breathe.

SOOML