Dead Expressions with a side of fun(Rewriting In Progress)

CH 4

Opening his eyes was the hardest thing to do. Something doesn't feel right. Everything feels ....wrong

"He's awake guys!"

The room is very bright and blurry. His body feels heavy, its like he's been hit and set flying only to hit a wall. It was still a bit blurry for him to see but after a blinking a couple of times his vision cleared. Is he evening breathing? It kind of hurts a little. Where even is he, his bed isn't as soft as this bed and the room looks like someones room but smells like cleaning products and sanitizer. He saw tails jump out of a chair and yell into the hall, soon after he hears many footsteps running up and into his room. Why does he feel like crying.He attempted to sit up but his body doesn't respond, he doesn't think he can even more his fingers. His arm hurts and now his head. What did he do? Everyone gathered around the bed rouge held out a pill and a cup of water with a straw.

"Hey buddy how do you feel."

"Like trash really, but nothing I can't live through. Also I can't really move so, could you?"

Rouge nods her head and moves closer to him, she raises her hand to his mouth and pop the pill in lucky they gave him an straw so drinking wouldn't be too much of a problem right now. Sonic knows why he's here and frankly he feels disgusted yet empty about what he did. Everyone released a sign they were holding they but they still looked nervous. Sonic doesn't like hospitals, especially when it comes to missions and adventures, yet it gets you into trouble one way or another, sadly its something he and his friends are use too but this trip isn't that.

"Sonic." Amy not only sounded hesitant but looked scared to even voice what she wanted to say, everyone shifted where they were. He doesn't have a good feeling about this. After some time of silence rouge spoke up.

"Sonic dear, do you....do you want anything you must be hungry."

"....." How is he supposed to respond, what does he even say! He can't even bring himself to look his friends in the eyes. His eyes feel heavy now. It seemed like hours before Knuckles spoke up.

"Sonic I want to first say that we're not mad or angry or dissapointed with you, we're just worried. This is a dark time for you but when your ready we'll listen."

He wants to dissapear. He doesn't want to deal with this now or ever, what's he suppose to say HOW'S he suppose to say it. His eyes are watering. He...he can't think. He can't breathe his chest feels tight. Blaze was the next one that spoke up.

" We were all with tails helping him with his inventions, he said that he didn't want to bother you about it so we agreed but he said he left something at your house so we decided to come with him. Your door wasn't locked when we got there so tails ran in."

He's trying his hardest not to cry. He takes a deep breath and that was his biggest mistake the dam broke. Tears ran down his face hard and his voice felt like an anvil in his throat but he has to speak, he has to.

"I......I was in a state where I felt horrible and panicked..... I practical ran to the kitchen for more water I felt like I had to keep myself busy. My shirt..or something got ripped I think but I noticed that the knife draw was open and...... I let it happen. I couldn't think straight, it felt like that was my only choice."

It's not an easy thing to hear yourself admit that death felt like your only option out. Sonic felt so disheartened so ashamed and so frightened, what would everyone do? Mobius what will they say?! What would they think.

*They're disgusted with you, everything you do they have to deal with the outcome how can they stand to be with you. You have everything a home, fans, fame and glory yet you had to be selfish while your here everyone could be dying as we speak. But then again who cares about you when the time comes your a disposable toy after all.*

His body still feels heavy but the want to hide his face pushes him through more than anything to move.

Sonic hugged his knees to himself. It hurts to move so bad but the need to hide fuels his movements. He felt so bad for what he did he hurt his family and loved ones he made them worry. After some silence Blaze spoke up.

"Sonic by no means are we mad or disgusted with you, this is just a dark time for you and we can help you work through it with time. We love you no matter what you've been there for us during our darkest times and we can't begin to thank you enough for that, we're your family sonic and this family will always be with you."

Blazes voice was filled with sincerity and confidence. In the most heavy of situations blaze seems to always have the right words to say and in this moment it's the words sonic needs the most. Sonic looks up, eyes red and nose stuffy from crying.

"Really?" His voice maybe cracked to all hell but he needs this.

"Of course, always and forever."

Everyone nod their heads and murmured in agreement. He can't guarantee that he'll open up right away its gonna take a long time to even start. He's scared.

"So how long have I been here and when do we get to leave?"

"Well it's been...awhile and the doctor told us that they would come back in a bit."

"Ok. Where's shadow?"

As if on cue shadow walks into the room with an arm full of drinks but as soon as he locked eyes with sonic his arms fall to his side the clatter of bottles hitting the floor the only source of sound in the silent room. So many emotions were flashing through his face before it settled on relief and nervousness, it seemed like he wanted to run to his side but his hesitation just seemed to make him more nervous. Slowly he walked fowards as if any sudden movement could scare him off he even started fidgeting with his pockets. The room was silent no one spoke a word until either sonic or shadow did but for a few minutes it was nothing but silence. Shadow stood there hands just wanting something to keep them busy just looking at him and you can tell he wants to say something do something anything everyone can mostly defiantly say that they never saw this much raw nervousness and restraint with shadow before it almost seemed like a completely different person.

"Shadow."

Shadow was so caught up in his thoughts he didn't notice that he didn't blink when he locked eyes with sonic but the moment sonic said his name he snapped out of his trance. Sonic sounded and looked dead tired but his eyes shined with a certain softness that could put puppy dog eyes to shame.

"Grab a chair and sit next to me." 

Hesitation really has a good grasp on shadow today it seemed like he didn't want to look away from sonic but he had to. It seemed like everything from there moved in slow motion for him; grabbing the chair that was in the middle of the floor to the side of the bed and sitting down. Sonic reaches his hand out.

"What?"

"Give me your hand shads."

A flash of worry splashed shadows face after finding sonic on the floor bleeding out his grip has flew out the window gradually he's retaining it but he's very afraid to hurt him. He wants to grab his hand but he's not sure-

"Shadow it's ok take your time."

Shadow takes a couple of deep breath and then slowly grabs sonics hand feeling the warmth. Just from that alone had them calming down bit by bit however sonic felt much more tired than ever. He woke up not too long ago and yet it felt like he did seven missions in one. Strangely enough everyone seemed to have left at some point leaving sonic and shadow alone he feels his hand being lifted and turns to shadow gently placing a kiss on his hand and gives him the softest smile he has every seen in his life it almost made his heart stop. Just for this moment he'll rest some more.