Default Title - Life

Did i ask for too much?

"I remember when i went to meet my ex for the last time, he did not dress the way i wanted..the night before i whined and begged to him so that he wears a good outfit... I have never seen him in one... He wears them when it is needed but i really loved to see him like that at least once...i told him to do so several times but he never did..he felt like it was a useless thing to do considering he needed to go to University by bus and wear it all day.... I like men when they tuck in their shirt and wear pants or jeans..just casual way... Nothing extensive... But he said it was too hot..always... He would occasionally wear panjabi..mostly the one i gave him..he was a keeper in many ways but he didn’t want to fulfill my single small wish...we had a fight over the way he said he will dress that night and he still was not interested...he said that i was annoying and he will wear it..by the end of it i was so pissed i didn’t want to tell him anything anymore...

I said i don’t care and the next day he knew i was angry but still he didn’t put any effort.. If anything he was angry that his pants tore while sitting on the bike and he needed to buy another one..his money was wasted because he had to come!.....it hurt like hell..but i Didn't say anything.. Then i was DOING a little touch up...  it was only  10 minutes late..he got Super angry and raised his tone..i said i also Won't put any effort into my clothes.. Usually when i was about to meet him i would wear pretty clothes but i wore something normal but i still took my makeup pouch to look pretty..and i did look pretty that day...
I was satisfied with my look..but he did not say anything...

It was raining so hard; we took a CNG and it was a beautiful day again..we were talking i was suddenly very shy..i looked at him and i felt like he is the best man in this world...the restaurant we went to was closed due to some inconvenience... Even tho i asked him to make sure if it is really open he Did not listen and then i was right...but  I was not angry...he was with me..the weather was romantic.. I was happy... And moreover it was something very small considering the issues we were having those  times.. I just wanted my man to look at me with those loving eyes again..i really did.."

Aastha stopped speaking.. I reached my hand out to her...,"it’s fine Aastha...don’t be sad.."  she is crying.. Soft weeping not like the gush of emotions she showed me back then when they first broke up..i handed her a glass of water and she took a few sips before starting again,

"We met for the first time in September, We fell in love in October ... We  confessed in November and we broke up in September..... The last date was mesmerizing... We went to eat pizza later on,he tried to win me a plushie...then we took a rickshaw ride while it was raining... We soaked together as if the love was endless... Then he dropped me home and went away...i was so happy... I came home and posted a story in my close friend... I told him to do the same..but he said he doesn’t want to.. Then he said he will do it later..i was very sad...i deleted my one as well...and then he said many bad words...i was crushed..." she started weeping..

I felt and urge to hit that man..anger boiled inside me...as i listened to her,
"Then we did not speak  for a long time..after that at night he said he needs to do work..even though i had day off after that day...i  was extremely sad...but he was busy and i did not have a say in it...i slowly told him good night and went to sleep..the next day he didn’t text until i texted him..and then he got angry that i didn’t tell him...i felt so hopeless..i cried and cried...then i had guest at home..later that night..i told him i wanna talk..i am sad...he did not take it into account and made me sad..i cried he felt like i was doing drama...i finally broke up with him by wishing him goodluck,i only wanted him to listen to me...did i ask for too much?? "
"You did well my dear..i am proud of you..," i said with affection. To be honest i never really liked Aastha's boyfriend to begin with, she was never the same after dating him.We have been best friends for quiet a long time and to see your always cheerful friend turn into an emotion less puppet...  hurts..it hurts more than one can imagine.