Kung Ika'y Mawawala [complete!!!]

chapter 26

Hila-hila ko pa din ang kamay ni Spencer nang pumasok kami sa kwarto ko. Sinarado ko ang pinto at hinarap ko si Spencer.

"You can't do this to him! You can't buy him expensive things like that! IPAD is one thing, but those things, sobra sobra na yon!"

"You're over reacting."

"Hindi ako nag-o-over react!"

"I really can't see anything wrong with it. Natuwa ako sa bata. Is it wrong to give him something para makita din ng bata na na-aapreciate ko ang efforts nya sa pag-aaral?"

AAAARRRGGGG!!!!

"Hindi mo kasi naiintindihan e!"

Lumapit sya sa kin na halos ilang inches na lang ang pagitan naming dalawa.

"Then explain it to me."

Naginit ang mga pisngi ko at parang may nagwawala sa dibdib ko! Humakbang ako patalikod pero lumapit ulit sya, as if he's maintaining our close distance. Hinawakan ko ang dibdib nya at tinulak ko sya ng marahan.

"You're too close."

Nginisian nya ako.

"Why? Do I make you feel uncomfortable?"

"Hindi rin." Pero grabe na talaga ang kabog ng dibdib ko at parang nag-hy-hyper ventillate na ako!

"Really?"

Mas lalo pa syang lumapit habang ako naman ay paurong hanggang naramdaman ko na nakadikit na ang katawan ko sa dingding, and there's no way out!

"Now, do I make you feel uncomfortable?"

I tried to make my voice steady even if i feel so much turmoil inside!

"Ano ba talaga ang gusto mo?" 

"You, and everything that comes from the package. I want you and Clyde." 

I laughed without humor.

"Ano yon? Gustohin mo lang pwede mo nang makuha? Like what you're doing to Clyde right now? You give him all those things para mapalapit lang sya sa 'yo?"

Parang nagdilim ang mukha nya. I think I've hit a nerve.

"I'm not bribing him. He deserves whatever I give him and a whole lot more. That kid means so much to me do I'll do whatever I think is good for him." 

"At anong karapatan mo sa anak ko?" 

"I have all the right Sab." 

"Wow! Hindi porket ikaw ang may ari ng isa sa pinakalamaking konpanya dito sa Pilipinas ay may karapatan ka na sa lahat ng bagay? Excuse me Mr. Spencer Altamerano, Hindi lahat ng bagay nabibili!" 

"You are so frustrating sometimes SAB! You're as stobborn as before! Malalaman mo din kung anong sinasabi ko. But for now..." Isinandal nya ang magkabilang kamay nya sa dinding at mas lalo pa nyang inilapit ang mukha nya sa akin. He is so close that our noses are almost touching. I feel like a trapped animal! I didn't realize that I was already holding my breath, waiting for his next move.

"Don't you dare... " I said in almost a whispher.

Nginisian nya lang ako. And I can feel him getting closer that I have to close my eyes... and wait... Wait for the obvious.. I didn't realize that I'm waiting for something that I crave! I can feel his minty breath against my cheek, teasing me. But still... I wait.... 

Pero hindi nangyari ang iniitay ko. I felt him withdrew and I opened my eyes. Nakatalikod na sya sa kin at nakahawak na sya sa doonknob para lumabas. Hindi pa din ako makagalaw. There's something in me that feels releived but at the same time, may nararamdaman din akong kawalan na hindi ko maintindihan!