I got up this morning and put on the clothes I wore yesterday. everything was still at jax's house. I made my way downstairs and sat tully sat on the couch. he had a coffee mug in his hand and a cigar between his fingers. I stood off to the side until he noticed me.
"morning beauty queen" he said.
"morning" I said.
"apparently youre still the queen" he said with narrow lips.
"I can change it" I said.
"don't, just leave it" he said.
"why" I asked.
"because it doesn't matter anymore, I was easy to trade in" he said.
"I threatened their lives, and killed multiples" I said.
"back in the day, that wouldn't have mattered, theyd have killed you after one" he said.
"youd rather they killed me" I asked.
"if they were really my crew they would have" he said.
"sorry I didn't die" I shot back.
"its not about you, not everything is about you" he said.
"noted" I said.
"why did you kill wendy" he asked.
"it was needed" I said.
"for who, you or jax" he asked.
"both" I said.
"why" he stood up finally and I realized he had a gun in his free hand.
"I wanted her away from you. and she knew too much about jax that could have taken him from his boys" I said.
"you always rush to save the day for him" he stared at me.
"ive always rushed to save yours too" I said.
"how many times were you in his bed" he asked setting his mug down and putting the cigar in the ash tray.
"every time" I said.
"wendy was with me once" he said.
"she was here everyday tully" I said.
"on the couch" he said.
"and on your arm" I said.
"you were on jax's" he said.
"and now im here" I said.
"what, did jax kick you out" he asked.
"fuck you tully" I said walking towards the door.
"no, you see that's the issue, im never good enough" he said causing me to stop short.
I turned and walked right up to him and stood in front of him. I grabbed the gun from his hand and held it to my head.
"let me take care of your only issue in the world" I said pulling the trigger.
it clicked.
"and here I thought youd try to kill me" he said.
I pulled the clip and it was empty. I dropped the gun and pulled my own holding it to my head. tullys face changed, he was scared I was going to pull the trigger. scared he was going to lose it all.
"you have a way of fucking yourself out of a good thing" I said.
"I always have" he said looking nervous.
"tell me to do it" I said.
"no" he replied.
"why" I asked.
"because I love you" he replied.
"then fucking start acting like it" I put the gun away and punched him.
he stumbled but came back up with a bloody lip. I walked out the door and headed to jax's house. I parked and got all of my stuff before heading to tm. I parked and went into the clubhouse. I walked into the chapel to see jax and happy sat down.
"happy out" I said.
"what" he asked.
"get out" I roared.
happy left shutting the doors behind him. I walked to jax and collapsed in his arms. I cried until I couldn't cry anymore. jax was genuinely worried. once I finally calmed down I told him everything. he was pissed.
"he was going to let you kill yourself" he asked.
"I don't know what, I cant, I don't know" I stammered.
"stay here" he said.
"jax no" I said.
"yes, this conversation needs to happen" he said.
jax left and I headed back to the dorms. I ended up in happys room, I told him everything and he cuddled with me until I fell asleep.
