Hit Due the Shuttles Move (Gambol Series #4)

Chapter 4

It's been 1 week since Haines and I had a fight. We don't talk that much this past few days unlike before. I really gave him what he wants, space. It's not that big deal for me now 'couz I realize we really need it after what happened and also Haines situation.

It's not my intention not to tell Haines what happened between me and Andrei before he got in the accident. That time I don't really know him at all, that's why I didn't think twice to gave Andrei what he wants. I really want Andrei that time to not bother me anymore, that's why....

I admit, na-inlove ako sa kanya before. But things happened and boom! My feelings for him were gone. Just like that. That day I met Haines. He saw me crying so bad but I didn't bother to stop 'couz it really hurts and I don't care anymore who's watching at me. Gusto ko lang ng araw na 'yon na ilabas yung sakit na nararamdaman ko.

"Hey! Your phone is ringing," I heard Anychee.

Oh yeah, I was zoning out again. I let out a sigh and answer the call without looking who's the caller.

"Hello..."

[Nix..]

I was shocked when I heard his voice. It's been 3 days when I last talked to him. I can't believe he's calling me right now. Oh, maybe he needs something? Help?

[Nix, are you there?]

Nag-panic naman agad ako kaya napa-upo ako ng maayos. I don't even know why I was on a panic mode.

"Yes, Haines,"

I heard him sigh the moment I spoke.

[I'm sorry...]

I still remain silent but I cannot hold my tears anymore. By that I totally gave up on my strong girl image.

"Haines, I'm sorry kung may mga bagay ako na hindi nasabi sayo noon. Mga bagay na gusto kong kalimutan, mga bagay na ayoko na sanang malaman mo...Hindi dahil sa tinago ko 'yon sayo...ayoko lang sanang malaman mo, dahil kahit ako gusto ko na kalimutan 'yon. Sobrang saya ko na dumating ka sa buhay ko. Ikaw nagpakita sa 'kin ng halaga ko...I love you, Haines," I cried so bad.

[Nix, it's my fault too. Kasalanan ko rin. I'm sorry, Nix. Sorry kung nagpaapekto ako sa past mo. I'm sorry if naramdaman mo na iniwan kita, na hinusgahan kita. Sobrang sorry, Nix. Naisip ko na baka kaya nangyari 'to sa 'tin, para mas lalo tayong tumatag. Mas makilala kita, mas makilala mo 'ko. Gusto kong malaman ang lahat-lahat. Oo, alam kong mahirap dahil bumabalik 'yung sakit sa tuwing naaalala mo...But please, i want to know you more...Alam kong may dahilan kung bakit ako nagka-amnesia, Nix. For us to start all over again. With no pretensions...No lies...Just the true, beautiful you...I know it will hurt you and it will hurt me...But I will listen and I will never leave you again...]

I can't control my emotions anymore. I sobbed for what he told me.

"I'm sorry, Haines...for everything. Natakot lang ako na baka magbago tingin mo sa 'kin 'pag nalaman mo ang lahat ng tungkol sa past ko. Ayoko rin saktan ka kasi kapag nasasaktan ka, nasasaktan din ako. I'm sorry..."

[Let's forget about this and start a new beginning...Shall we? This time open up to me. Open your doors, give me the key and show me everything...And I promise to accept you, to listen to you, and be with you no matter what...]

"I love you, Haines..."

[Nix, I think I'm inlove with you...And yes, I love you too. You will always be in my heart...]