In Between the Lines

Chapter 23

"You're not very nice Harry." I croak barely audible.

"I know." He replies.

"I don't like the fact that we let something so stupid ruin our friendship."

He remains silent looking down on the pavement.

"Do you want to come inside?" He pleads more with his eyes than his tone.

I walk past him and take my place on a couch while he sits on the other side.

No noise fills the house, only pure silence contaminates the air. All day I had planned out what to say to him. Before I went to bed I'd told myself what I would tell him if I was ever in this scenario. I would tell him how much he hurt me, how I would cry of the loss of our friendship, how immature he was, but now as I sit in front of him nothing comes out. I can't find the words to say to him.

"So.." We begin at the same time.

"You go first." Harry nudges me on.

"I can't believe you left so easily, like our friendship was nothing to you." I pause momentarily to see Harry looking down watching the floor as if it is the most interesting thing in the room.

"You are one of my closest friends and it really hurt when you left. I just don't know why, I just wanted to hear your side to the story because as they say there are always two sides to a story. I was just mad that you wanted to make me choose between you and Zack because I thought you would always be there for me regardless, that I would never have to choose with you. I'm sorry for acting so irrationally. I want to make things right and if we can't I would like to move on with my life. I don't want to have this constant cloud over my head reminding me of our broken friendship. We can either fix whatever we had or move on because I can't keep living like this. I can't be constantly missing you and wondering what went wrong."

"You always apologize even when it's not your fault." Harry deeply speaks. His thick deep accent melts my heart.

"I just want to do what's best for everyone. I do have things I have to apologize for as well."

"It's mostly my fault though. I didn't want to see you get hurt because I thought it would hurt me. I did the selfish thing and let go of you so I would be happy, but all it did was make me even more miserable. I knew you weren't going to pick me because your stubborn and I don't know why I did what I did but I'm sorry because you are one of the people who really sees me. Not like all the boys you really see me, past and beyond from anyone and it scares me. You scare me."

"I scare you." I question, Harry just nods. "Why?"

"I can't say, it would only increase my fear."

"I broke up with Zack today." I say out of the blue. Harry's eyes shoot up and I can't seem to read his expression. His green eyes darken at the mention of his name but contrast against each other to create a pool of colours.

"I didn't do it for you though Harry. I did it for me. I don't want to be sad anymore. I just want to be happy. "

"I'm glad you faced your fear and let go of him." Harry genuinely says.

"Yeah... I know why you didn't bother to call me or see me."

"Why?" Harry looks at me confused.

"Because I'm not worth fighting for. I've got so many people who are my first choice but I'm never theirs" I wipe away my tears.

Harry moves to sit next to me and drapes his arm over my shoulder in an attempt to console me.

"You're my first choice. Did Zack tell you you're not worth fighting for?" I just nod against his chest. This is the most vulnerable I've been in my whole life, shielded against Harry's chest as if a little kid hiding from the thunder.

"Do you want to know why I'm scared of you?" Harry whispers against my hair.

"Yes." I silently say.

"Because even though you think you're not worth fighting for, I'd go to war for you."

I didn't need to respond, heck I didn't know how. As Harry rocked me in his arms and as I laid on his chest, the silence seemed to connect us more than words ever could.

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I'm so sorry I've been so inactive and that this chapter took forever. I felt so bad for not updating.

I haven't been able to update because during the holidays my cousin had come to stay with us for 3 weeks. I haven't seen or talked to him for like 2 years so I wanted to spend as much time with him as possible.

I will try to update more regulary but since I'm short sighted my optomestrist told me I have to cut back on technology a bit :/

I'm so sad that the holidays are nearly over and I still haven't done my homework.... oh well.

I hope you guys enjoy your weekend and thank you so much for your voting these past few weeks. You guys are the best! Don't give up on this story because there is still alot to come.

So sorry for the delay again and for not the best chapter... I think I've forgotten how to write over these holiday :')

XOXO Fangirl.