Great, I'll ask the nurse na lang if I could go out na and might as well as pay the bills na rin!
"Miss, can I go—"
I stopped when I saw that it was a man.
Literal na napatikom ang mga bibig ko. No word came out from my mouth again. Not even one single sound.
It felt like my feet were glued on the cold hard ground. I couldn't leave. I couldn't say anything either. Mukha lang akong timang na nakatayo sa harap niya, tinititigan ang mukha niya, at iniisip kung totoo ba 'tong nakikita ko o kung nananaginip lang ako.
"Yeah, it's me."
Fucking hell.
No, it's more like 'fucking heaven'.
"You're kidding," I awkwardly said. I didn't know what else to say! I couldn't even believe that I just said 'fuck' inside my head!
There was an awkward silence.
I was just looking at him, not even trying so hard to prevent myself from tearing up. There were already tears forming, and I just let them stream down freely.
"Please..." he trailed off. "Don't cry."
But of course, my eyes are stubborn. They keep doing otherwise.
Hindi ko alam kung saan ako lulugar. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang dapat kong maramdaman.
Am I happy? Am I sad? Am I pained?
Or perhaps, all three?
"Kylo, bakit ka nandito?" I asked, this time, not looking into his eyes. Nakayuko lang ako, nakatingin sa mga tuhod kong nanginginig dahil sa hindi makilalang dahilan.
"Ikaw... bakit ka umiiyak?"
"Dahil nandito ka," mabilis kong sagot nang walang bahid ng pag-aalinlangan. 'Yon ang totoo, eh.
That's what Isaiah told me last night. He told me to tell nothing but the truth. That way, I wouldn't have to worry about anything.
Wala na akong dapat na itago pa. Wala na akong imaheng kailangang protektahan pa.
"Ako rin. Nandito ako dahil nandito ka," sabi niya. "Why? Do you want me to leave?" he asked.
I shook my head. "No."
Alam ko naman na soon, he'll leave. Pero sa ngayon, 'wag muna. Ayoko pa.
"Okay," aniya. Napansin kong may tinignan siya sa likuran ko. "Can you sit on your bed? It's better for you to rest." Tinuro pa niya iyon.
I didn't protest. Sumunod na lang ako. Umupo ako sa kama, at siya, nilipat niya ang isang puting stool sa tabi ng kama ko. He sat there, facing me.
"Shanaia and Evelyn were here earlier. They went out to get food kaya ako na lang ang natira rito. They'll be back soon."
I remained silent. Alam kong nakatingin siya sa 'kin kaya mas lalo akong na-conscious kahit sa sariling paghinga ko.
BINABASA MO ANG
SORRY, I LIED
RomanceI kept a promise to a dying friend--that I'll have to lie to the love of her life that she's still alive and well to save him from pain, even if it meant taking her identity and making a fool out of him for days... or even months. I am Lauvien Hideo...
