Her Smoke

 Prologue- 5 Months Earlier

To preface, much of this story is influenced from my real life experiences, my goal is that this will be sincere and you the reader will be touched. I hope you fall in love with the characters the way I have. Please feel free to interact and give me feedback!! Much Love xx

This should never have happened, all of this wouldn't be my reality if I just had deleted the goddamn messages. That's all I can think about. Why didn't I delete the messages? Why am I so fucking stupid? How could I have let this happen?

I snap back into reality with the gut wrenching sobs of my brother.

"Why would you do this to me?" Is all I catch from his incoherent rambling that he somehow manages to get out through his sobs.

"I'm sorry, i'm so fucking sorry i'm such a fucking disaster," I scream out into the universe , to perhaps no one in particular. My brother, Liam, not comprehending the immense panic and fear that's abducting my mind, determines, (in poor taste) that was in reference to our nonexistent conversation.

"You are so selfish, can't you see that? You do all this... shit I don't even know what it is, and I don't want to, and your hurting mom and your hurting me," his voice breaks. "Gen, what the fuck am I supposed to do without my twin sister. Isn't that the rules or some shit, that we will go through life together, but you just threw that away for what? For drugs?"

I just stand there stunned not knowing how to respond. My ears are ringing, i'm so stoned I can not be doing this right now.

"Aren't you going to fucking say something??" Liam yells, practically spitting in my face.

After moments of silence I finally speak up, "I don't know what you expect me to say." And with that I walk away.