♡Blossoming into love♡ Dazai x reader

♡Meeting him♡

Hi, this is the writer Kat-san hope you enjoy the story! 

!T/W suicide! If sensitive to anything like this please don't read 

Today is the last day of my life. There's no turning back now, I'm tired, there's no point here I just want to disappear from here. Nothing and no one can save from this living hell there's no hope for me. I gave up a long time ago on myself and so did the others, they have given up on me like the world. 

This world is a selfish place where people only care for themselves. I can't say much for myself we're all the same no matter what anyone says. We are all the same, selfish and disgusting. It's about to become one less selfish disgusting person here on this earth. After I get off this subway It's over for me, I'm going to jump. No more of this worthless life no more struggles no more suffering for me here. 

The doors finally open on the train a whole swarm of people walk out of the subway on their way to work or school. I walk out of the train and then out of the subway station, I look up at the clouds, they look heavy as if it's about to rain. At least on my last day on the earth, the weather was decent today. 

I look up at the sky one more time before I try to find a high enough place to jump off. I then saw a building that is about 13 stories tall, I then went inside the building there was an elevator to get to the top. I get to the top of the building and I can feel the cool breeze, finally, at last, I think. I walk to the edge and I look down at the road. It looks terrifying down 13 stories but It's better than living in this world. 

I take one last deep breath as I do. I say "goodbye" as I close my eyes and jump.

Until I feel someone's hand grab mine, what the hell I think to myself who stopped me?
I open my eyes to see a tall brunette man with sharp chocolate eyes staring at me still holding my hand. 

We stare at each other blankly for a few seconds which felt like hours, "Why did you save me?" I ask the man. 

"Hmm, I couldn't just see a beautiful lady like you jump off of here." He answers me. "That's the dumbest reason I have ever heard to save someone, Who are you anyway?" I ask him pissed off. "Oh me haha I'm Dazai Osamu I work for the Armed Detective Agency, and you are?" 

How the hell is he so cheerful, whatever I guess I'm just gonna have to deal with him for a while longer. I clear my throat " I'm y/n and I have no idea what you are even doing here so can you please mind your business."

"Oh y/n is your name what a cute name hmm, I have an idea I'm going to call you y/n-san no y/n-chan that suits you better!" Dazai says cheerfully

"Ok well, I'm going to go see ya!" I say walking away from him.
"Wait will you please let me treat you to lunch at least" Dazai whines. His eyes look like puppy eyes. There was no way I could say no. "Ok fine only once!"
"Yay!!"

·͙*̩̩͙˚̩̥̩̥*̩̩̥͙　✩　*̩̩̥͙˚̩̥̩̥*̩̩͙‧͙ 　Lunch with dazai　.·͙*̩̩͙˚̩̥̩̥*̩̩̥͙　✩　*̩̩̥͙˚̩̥̩̥*̩̩͙‧͙ .
Dazai and I walk into a Ramen shop. "I haven't been in a ramen shop for years," I say looking around at all the people talking and eating ramen. 

" Well I guess I picked the perfect place then," Dazai says smiling at you. The two of you sit down at a table together, right as you sit down a waitress comes up to you and Dazai and asks you want to order. "Um I would like them an um-" you say, stuttering over your words not knowing what to order. Dazai then interrupts you " She would like the same thing as me." The waitress writes down our order then walks off.

"Why did you do that, I can order by myself I'm not a little kid anymore you know that right! I yelled at Dazai. 

"Haha, you couldn't even get a word out of your mouth so that's why I ordered for you!" He laughed at me. " Whatever, you said you were part of the armed detective agency right? Don't you guys have special abilities or something like that, or is that just a rumor?" I ask Dazai.

"Yes I am in the armed detective agency and almost everyone who works there has a special ability, I have a great idea you should come to work with me tomorrow!"

This crazy man really wants me to go to work with him tomorrow. What am I supposed to do stay at his house? I think blocking out most of what he was saying to me I then say "yeah" to make It looked like I was paying attention to him.

"Yay I'm so happy that you're going to see my work with me tomorrow and stay at my house tonight!" I hear him say excitedly.
"Wait what are you talking about?!" Did my dumbass really say yes to this because I wasn't paying attention?!

"You must forget things really easily y/n, don't worry I have an extra room for you!" Dazai says with a smile.

"Ugh I'm not staying at your house you will probably assault me or something!" I yell at Dazai.
"It's not like you have anywhere else to stay, I bet you lived in that apartment that burned down recently, that's why you tried to kill yourself right?"
"How did you know that! You were stalking me or something I bet?" I say with my face flushed trying to hide it.

"First of all I would never stalk anyone and like I would have time for that. I heard on the news that an apartment burned down, the whole town pretty much knows at this point."
"Yeah, I guess that's part of It," I say back to him 

Dazai then looks down at my clothes and says "do you have any other clothes than those that you're wearing?"
"No, I don't........"
"Why don't we go shopping then!" Dazai says with a smile.
We then leave the ramen shop and go to a small clothing shop close by.
"You know you don't have to do all of this for me," I tell Dazai

"Well I couldn't let you walk around with those clothes all day with those scorch marks on your outfit, also that's how I can tell that you were in that apartment that burned down."
I looked down at my clothes embarrassed, I forgot they had all these marks from the fire in my apartment. Why didn't I think about this before that's how he could tell.
"Oh haha, I didn't think of that." I laugh

I start looking through the racks of clothes for something that will suit me. Dazai then comes up to me holding a dress in his hands.
"Why don't you try this outfit on y/n-chan!" Dazai says in a sing-songy voice
"Okay, I guess I will then," I tell him walking into the fitting room. 

.✫*ﾟ･ﾟ｡.★.*｡･ﾟ✫*.Dazai's Pov .✫*ﾟ･ﾟ｡.★.*｡･ﾟ✫*.
I stand outside the fitting room waiting for y/n to finish getting dressed into the dress I picked for her.
"Well, what do you think..." Y/n says bashfully her face pink from embarrassment looking down out the floor.
"I think you look great!" I smile at her.
"Well thank you again." y/n says to me
"Really It's no problem," I say as we check out all the clothes for y/n. 

We then start walking to my apartment complex which is only a mile away. Y/n is shaking from how cold it is, so I lead her my jacket. She puts it on, It's about two sizes too big for her but she still looks adorable in my coat.

Y/n's pov
When me and Dazai walk out of the clothing store It's already dark out. Me and him start walking to his apartment that is only a mile away. I start shivering due to how cold it is outside. I'm only wearing a long sleeve shirt after all. 

Then Dazai puts his big jacket over me and he gives me a warm smile when doing so. Me and him look at each other not saying anything and we then start walking again. I feel my cheeks starting to get warm.

 I look over at Dazai again to see if he is still looking at me but he's not. So I quickly look away again, why am I blushing and why do I keep looking at him.

Why do I feel like this....?

I must be in love with him then....