Star Crossed

SHE [1] Maahi

My phone is ringing repeatedly for past 4 hours. The D-day of our firm made everyone insanely nervous disposition. Through merging with internationally recognized coigzant group we expand into world wide. An ardous working and raising funds made us destructive,albeit our hardship paid finally to recover from being bankrupt. We waited for miracle since 7months. we barged them infinite times for this miracle. And the result is today's event. Bason want everything perfect so do i. Failure in any side means failure of our firm.

Oakland raises alike pollution of our country. Inbetween we got stuck and been immobile,this chance is our only hope. Being an event mangament firm that too after spliting partnership left as devastated, vikram always chosen us, Edison(other partner) chosen money over anything.oakland is my new home for the past 6years. Leaving my baggage behind, i am running,till i could no longer see the grief. This 6years felt like 60years, every pace is slower than snail, my heart is waiting for cool breeze,where the probability is minus. Around happy people i felt more lonely. I wasn't like this before. After him hurricane erupted in life,melancholic screaming inside, life turns into upside down for single person.

I had made the presentation late night. It's my last revise. Each point make remarkable acknowledgement of 'coigzant' ventures. I stay alone here in my filthy compartment. People pitty for my loneliness but this is the only serene and companion in my oakland life.

I dressed up. Wearing white backless gown with high neck i doubt my appearance. I don't bother other's thoughts but subtle looks of me is concern matter. I called Anty to pickme,he is half indian and american. Indian gene is high on him, Be late is his motto,mine too. So we got along and became a true company. I sat in my couch checking mails. Due to overwork it won't run in unplug. I plugged in and recheck my reflection. It's newyear,6 years back on this night he came to my life. In the dark i saw his shadow albeit i felt his warmth. Amdist darken life,he came like ray of hope into my life. Pushed me to the same darkness by him after that...i can feel him every second. In a blink of eye i smell his fragnace of wildness,i can feel those tight arms around me, his random kisses for every things i said, his smile for my mistakes, his beard is most adorable,it makes him what he is,and his last words for me,his walk from me. I opened my misty eyes. Whatever the memories the final emotion of him is always the same, 'Broken'.

Anty called me from doorsteps. I opened the door. His rushness hustled to aband my phone. His phone was ringing and rougly got the chance to explain to me.
"They backoff.Mother fuckers"he said in rage
"What???"i baffled."but why??"
"That pevert Edison betrayed us onemore. They got arms with him"he replied
I sat bewildered for one second
"He was a loser,again into track to prove his fuckness"he said in fury
"What gonna happen to us?" I asked
"We got another agent,vikram is discussing with them,they too in a hurry..its good for us"he replied
"Who are they??"i asked curiously
He got another call.
"She is with me"he said "her phone is switchef off" he said while biting his tongue and closing his eyes.
I gesticulated "it's your mistake"
He handoverd the phone to me.
"Yes vikram"i said
"Maahi.we don't have enough time. Go through our milestones once more,sent me the prepared slides,not me to hazel. She will do the rest. They are from india,do you have any idea for them?? It's newyear!!"he said all in one breath.
"Vikram,let me think once or else i will plan and arrange. The rest will be carried by hazel. Okay??"i said
"Yeah,perfect..reach soon"he hangup.
"India" it hovered in head for a minute. Whatever i heard all ended on him.
"India"i murmered
"Yeah"anty said. "They are in rush like as"
He continued talking where my brain tried to decode what he said but my heart failed to act beacuse of one word uttered by him. Losted in heartwarming thoughts from past i allured for memories stucked and twisted over my soul. The more i reminisce the more it shattered. Perhaps it meant to be smitheren every single time.

I wokeup from my thoughts when we reach our event place. It's on top floor of okland bay area.when i get down from the car i gazed giagantic building with my tiny eyes. He says "my stary eyes" alike stars,when we watch from earth it's tiny. My eyes always inquest for stars untill i found him, he said i am the brightest star he ever crossed,for him my tiny eyes radiates vibrant aura to life. The moment was flash when he decide to wrap his life with clouds and cherished being selnophile from a philoaster.

The view is breathtaking,the weather,lights,curtains,seemed perfect like i planned. White themed party bloomed in weather. It's chilly and clouds pour upon us at times. Top floor covered with glass ensembling starry dates. Enfold jacket kept aside and walked towards hazel in my semi backless gown. I might gone crazy to wear this on current weather. Albeit i wouldn't be outside without jacket neither on streets strolling around. With white roses,white curtains and more white around felt bliss on top of the city.

Hazel discussed about the slides and clarifications, we together decided she will host today and me being event coordinater.
While turning from hazel i bumped into ahaana,she looked stunning in her big eyes. While she tilted, her curls jumped on joy. Her smile ensemble kid by showing gum of aligned teeth. Her character didn't do justice to her appearance. Indeed she is indian with american fake accent,trying to be cute tilting her head frequently. The only indian, who supposed to my companion turned into eternal enemy,allergic to my existence in every aspects. She hated me for unknown causes, sharing good raporteir we emit negative vibe whenever we collide.
By seeing me her face got red. I can sense the irritation she had.
"I told you they aren't genuine and you insisted to stay away from indian company. At the end!!we only have them, it's our atmost luck to have them here or else we were finished!! She started blabbering same things by rearranging those words.

I direct every decor and arrangements. I have assistants who are always in high energy. Few minutes left for newyear, all are gathered with family and friends. I instruct to lightoff at exact 11.59 and lighten candles distantly to avoid complete darkness. At 12 fireworks will start.Through the transparent glass people can watch fireworks in mild darkness and when the room lightens the first sight on newyear will be their loveables face. While giving directions to Anty for placing candles at proper places ahaana called him deliberately. He handoverd candles into both my hands on rush,he rushes everything. I hold two candles in an immovable position. He said he will return in 2minutes through Bluetooth.

On my leftside a white curtain shinned in tiny lights, white sheer curtain on the floor remainded me aisle. Aisle memory bought my engagement preprations,mehendi on my hands of his name,his smiling face,our love...suddenly melted wax pourned into my hands.once again memories buried me in pain. I lost grasp and candle smacked, in a minute my aisle is dancing in red flames. Awestrucken me have no idea about further doings,i stood untill someone ran to me to blow away fire through his branded monk strap. Again the pointed black shoe reminded him. He stood pointing to opposite side of me being difficult to see his face. His firm voice possesed extremely calm words.
"Are you okay??"he turned and light went off.The voice..no,it's dream,he can't be here.
I feel being unconscious. I grasped candle for strength. I murmerd his name"jaan". My muscles in the stomach clenched, hard to breathe for a milli second.
In a glance i am wrapped in his arms,my skin sinking into his flesh i got my solace back,in his sigh i tasted his soul after aeons.
His voice hitten hard on my heart like a wrecked ship on rock. His bare hand folded my waist, i cursed myself for wearing those backless gown. His other hand on my wrist aiding in holding candle. I gasped by hearing his raising heartbeats. He is always such a smart person. By now he would have get me, evident in his rhythm of beats.
I heard his voice as surreal "maahi". I felt rejoice and distress at same time. I yearned more to hear. Slowly he moved my wrist closer to my face. His face glared in candle lights. He is all the same exept eyes. His eyes isn't lustrous anymore. Above our heads fireworks cracked in multiple colours and layers,under the sky i regained harmony on the same day after 6 years. I saw his face, the face which had been haunting extensively,the face that kept me alive these years, the face behind all my emotions. I couldn't deemed as alive. I feared to blink my eyes. But he is real,the emotion is real,we as together are real. We both didn't moved untill light went on and Anty came asking furiously on my condition. We lost in our own thoughts, the memories that helped to been alive by splintering us in each thought.The urge to hold him more,embraced in his hands,to feel him more,made me numb.

I murmured oncemore "jaan".