I was never the type to have my heart broken
I am not the type to get upset and cry
Because I’ll never let my heart open to you
And it doesn’t hurt me to say goodbye
A relationship to me isn’t that deep I must admit
I never really understood the whole in love bit
Someone can say that they truly and dearly love me
And at one time it would have meant something to me
But now it doesn’t mean a damned thing
Now my mind is gone, spinning so effortlessly
And deep within myself, my tears will drown
I’m starting to lose my grip on reality
I’m giving in to my insanity, praying it offers me sanctuary
What’s happening to me?
It feels like my mind is being ripped in half by all of these things
Buzzing around like some angry bees
I’ve strayed from the love
I strayed from the path
And now I am lost inside of myself
You have asked me so many times
What is going on, what’s wrong with you man?
This is how I feel:
This time I felt like it was different
Turns out I was just so wrong again
I was just a victim in this crime
And the regret cut me just like a knife
When you up and walked out of my door
I prayed to God he’d end my discorded life
Now I have this condition
And I have all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what, you will never see me cry
Did it happen when we first kiss?
Was that when you beguiled me to be yours?
‘Cause it’s killing me to let you go
Maybe it’s because we spent so much time
And I know it’ll never be us again
I should have never let you be mine, baby
I don’t know why I’m so sad to see us apart
I didn’t give you my heart on purpose
I gotta figure how you stole
So I can get it back again
My soul is dead, and my world is atwirlin’
And deep inside, my sorrow has died
I am losing myself, inside of my grief
When you ask, what my problem is,
This is how I feel:
I thought you were different from the rest
But it turns out you were never for the best
Then the anger and the sadness overflowed to a gun
And when I pull the trigger, know that I’m done!
Now I’m in this new kind of condition
Where my body is just another addition
To the countless bodies piled in the ground
Where no more will I ever hear another sound
Nor will I ever have to feel another broken heart
And I will no longer play that part
Of being the one who always cries alone
Now that my brains have been blown
And I wonder how I got here with you
How this thing we had was ever really true
I never meant for things to get personal
And the things that you do are making me criminal
After all I did to stay away from this
I hate to admit that being with you is bliss
But what you’ve done has left me broken
Now I am telling you to go without as much as a token
I just can’t let know and I won’t let it show
But I just have this desire to know
Was the love you had for me real?
What was your true ideal?
I keep on bleeding from the wounds you gave
Leaving me with this storm to brave
You will never be the one to send me to my grave
Because it will always be you that I save
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Darker Sides Of Me
PoetryThese are poems written by myself and I hope you like them. I'm sorry if some are like fifty miles long, but please bear with me. I try to be as raw as I can and that entails a lot of...length to my works. If you aren't into reading dark things, the...