I fell asleep mad at griffin because he keeps on yelling at me because I waisted his money. I didn't want to go In the first place. He's making me go and stay the whole session tomorrow and I think the whole thing is bs. Then he yelled at me for not eating. I didn't want to eat. Oh then he yell at me cause I stayed in my room all day. And he wonders why I did.
I woke up because my phone was ringing. I answered it without checking the caller ID
S: hello
I said squinting my eyes because the light coming off the phone.
P: hey I would've called sooner but I was doing something. Are you ok
S: Payton
I said looking into the screen
P: yeah who else would it be
S: Idk but you do know it's 2 am
P: oh sorry did I wake you
S: yeah kinda but it's fine
P: oh yeah um I got your clothes you left at the park
S: um thanks. I-I still have your hoodie I'll c-
P: no it's ok you can keep it I'll come by and drop your clothes off
S: ok
It was silent for a few minutes
P: oh yeah why did you call me earlier
S: its nothing I got it handled.
P: ok. You know you can still talk to me it's not like we hate each other. I know I was the only one you talked to about personal stuff.
S: yeah griffin got me a therapist because he thinks it's going to help me stop drinking and smoking. It's stupid. I'm not going to talk to a random person I don't know about my problems. Then he was yelling at me because I waisted his money. But I didn't want to go so it's his own fault. Now he's making me go tomorrow and i have to stay the full session witch I don't want to and I already got plans with this guy that I meet in the lobby when I skipped the session yesterday. Bu-
I said as I sat up leaning on the head bored and turned my lamp on.
P: w-wait you meet a guy in the lobby and you have plans with him
S: yeah
I said as I looking into the camera
S: oh not like that we were just planing on to ditch it I don't even know his name.
I heard him sigh in relief
S: but I just don't want to go but he's going to make me. I can't do anything because my leg. Ugh I want to go back to school
P: why can't you
S: griffin already sighed this thing saying I'm going to do the rest of this semester online and.... you know
P: oh. I can just tell them you didn't because you didn't.
S: what changed your mind
P: idk ask griffin
S: oh no what did he say
P: open your text
I went to my text and opened up my messages
S: I'm going to kill him.
I hopped up and hopped to his room still on the phone with Payton
S: grif- ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I scream. I seen Dixie and griffin doing IT. I fell to the ground after closing the door with Payton still in my hand
P: skye are you ok
S: yeah I just need a sec
I gulped trying to get the image out of my head
G: skye why are you up it's 3 am
He said opening the door half way with a blanket wrapped around his lower half.
S: I-I-I I'm going to my room
I stood up and hopped as fast as I could to my room. I closed the door and went back to my bed I felt like I was going to throw up.
P: what happened
S: th-th-they w-wer-were
S: they were um
I made and circle with my thumb and pointer finger and put my finger through it.
P: and you seen
S:yeah I'm about to throw up or something. I'm about to bleach my eyes
P: I think your being over dramatic
S: oh really if I could send you the image I saw you would be the same way.
The Kio came in my room
K; why did you scream
S: nothing
K: ok well go to sleep it's 3
I nodded and he left closing the door behind him. Me and Payton talked for the rest of the night. We both fell asleep on the phone when it was like 5.
I woke up and Payton was still on the phone I smiled. I sat up and got dressed in a shirt that has a few holes and rips in it. It was also cropped were you could see my stomach. I put on black jean shorts on and went into the bathroom brushed my teeth and hair putting it up in a ponytail.
P: hello skye you there
S: yeah hold on
I hopped over to the phone and picked it up.
S: I don't want to go out there
He started laughing. Then Anthony came in
A: hey Dixie made breakfast.
S: ok
He left and I looked back at the phone and my eyes widened.
S: wait.
I put my phone down and got my AirPods and put one in. I picked up the phone.
S: here we go.
I hopped to the elevator and went into the kitchen. Everyone was already there. I sat down next to griffin and josh.
G: how'd you sleep
S: g-good where's buddy
Jh: idk
K: she was in my room.
J: she's probably pooping in my room.
I giggled a little
D: ok it's ready.
She brought everyone a plate.
S: t-thanks
She sat down next to griffin. Everyone was silent and I looked at my phone and Payton was still on.
B: how was y'all's date yesterday
I laughed but tried to hold it and so did Payton.
P: pretty good I guess
He said. I started to laugh and tried to hold it in but it slipped out.
A: why are you laughing
S: n-no reason
It was silent again but I couldn't keep it in
S: Dixie w-
I yelled out but Griffin put his hand over my mouth.
G: shut up
He said in my ear. He took his hand off slowly
J: wait no I want to hear
G: no
It was silent for a couple of seconds and Payton was talking to me.
P: are you going to tell them
I thought about it
S: idk
I whispered
G: what who are you talking to
S: no one
P: you could just yell it out of nowhere.
S: ok
Jh: who are you taking to
S: no one
It was silent for a few seconds.
P: ok 1...2....3
S: Dixie was getting dick
I yelled out Payton started to laugh and so did everyone else
G: skye
D: omg
She put her head on her hands
G: go to your room.
P: oOooOoOOo your in trouble
S: shut up
G: excuse me
S: I wasn't talking to you
G: then who was you talking to them
S: no one
I said going into the elevator.
A: she's talking to Payton
He yelled.
S: no I'm not
I yelled back
Payton started to laugh again
S: it's not funny
I stepped out of the elevator and hopped to my room. We kept on talking for a while then griffin came in
G: your grounded and c'mon therapy
S: I've been grounded and it's not like I could go anywhere and I don't what to.
G: oh well come on
S: oH wElL cOmE oN
I mocked. He gave me a death glare.
S: bye
P: bye
I hung up and took my AirPod out. I got my crutches and went to the elevator.
I sat down and put my crutches down
G: I'M picking you up stay the whole time.
He closed the door
C: so has anything happened
She tried to start a conversation
S: no not really. Payton and I are talking again
C: who's Payton
S: ugh I have to tell you so much. Ok so Payton i-was my boyfriend. Griffin my dad he is sorta famous on this app tiktok. Well when he adopted me of course I got "famous". So well this drama page, tiktokroom, had posted a picture of 'me' cheating. When I could barely walk because my leg. Anyway he found out and broke up with me. But last night we were talking.
I looked at her and she was writing something down.
S: what are you writing
C: I have to keep track of what you say.
S: oh do you give it to griffin
C: no
S: when I was on the phone with Payton I walked into griffin and Dixie doing it. It was disgusting.
S: do you know why I'm here
C: nope but I'm guessing to help
S: I don't get why it would help
C: some people it help.
I just nodded. I got up and hopped around the room and stopped at a shelf that had toys on it
S: can I play with this
C: you can do whatever.
I picked it and started to stretch it out then push it back together I leaned against the wall.
C: so what else has happened
S: griffin was mad at me yesterday just be....
I stoped because I was to entertain about the toy.
S: I'm sorry but this is really cool.
She laughed a little
S: anyway. Because....
I told her and just talked to her about some stuff while playing with the ball thing.
S: oh and my dream I had a while ago. It was cra-
I was cut off by the door opening
G: you ready
S: sure. I'll tell you about it later. Can I keep this
C: yes
S: ok Bye
I got my crutches. And we went into the lobby. I seen the guy that I was supposed to meet. Fuck I forgot
He looked at me and I pointed to griffin. He nodded and mouthed tomorrow. I nodded and continued to walk out with griffin.
G: so how was it
S: normal I guess
G: what did you talk about
S; nothing.
We drove home and the rest of the day went on and I fell asleep cuddling buddy.
I'm not going to lie school got me stressed I've been getting panic attacks more but there little nothing big. And I've been getting headaches more often . Mostly because all the teachers scream and I sit right in front of her but yeah.
