I'm so tired.
It's what I feel almost every day.
There are some exceptions.
But you know when you have one of those days when your heart feels heavy? When you feel like nothing matters?
Or maybe one of those days where you just feel miserable and would like to wallow in pain
Yeah. That's what I feel right now.
Why do I have to pretend to be someone else in their eyes? Why do have to be this happy person that solves their problems?
Why can't they see my problems too?
Cant they see that I'm hurting?
That I'm miserable?
If they were acting weird, I would ask them what was wrong. If they wanted to talk about it.
If they said no the first time, I would reassure them if that they really didn't want to tell me, it was fine.
But I'll be there to help them the best I can if they needed help.
No one has ever done that for me.
Why do I have to be that person.
Who is constantly supporting others but no one ever notices when she needs support.
Why do I have to be the good one.
Its beacaue if I'm selfish, they will hate me for it.
I never tell them what's going on in my life.
They never ask.
That hurts.
Knowing that they never notice when I am hurt.
And I still have to smile and laugh and pretend like everythings okay.
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Lots of love and hugs,
Shxrx
