Think, thoroughly about what I'm about to do. I hadn't cut in three moths...
after almost bleeding out.
but then my worry was cut short. The ultimate reason I grabbed this object returning.
do it
'no, no, no. I can't start again'
do it
Tears stared prickling my eyes.
I didn't want to start again.. but the evil thoughts.
DO IT!
I let out with a whimper .
ƉƠ ıɬ D̤̈Ö̤ ï̤T̤̈ DΩ IT [̲̅D̲̅][̲̅O̲̅] [̲̅i̲̅][̲̅T̲̅] ԀȎ IṬ ⒟⒪ ⒤⒯ D̾O̾ I̾T̾ ԺՕ ÍԵ D⃣O⃣ I⃣T⃣ DOྉiྉTྉD༙O༙ I༙T༙ D̶O̶ I̶T̶!
all the thought of how and why I simply hated my existence melted to together and I hated it.
I hated it.
I throw the razer blade across the room and pulled at my hair.
F̤̈Մ[̲̅C̲̅][̲̅K̲̅]I̾N⃣G D༙[̲̅O̲̅] I͙T᷉᷈! Y⃠O͞͞Ꮜ FU̬̤̯C⃒ƘΊภ[̲̅G̲̅] Թ[̲̅u̲̅]ⓈՏ[̲̅Y̲̅]!
I tried to comfort my self, doing my mental exercises while pulling my hair as hard as I can to ground my self.
the many thought blended together, make me go wild.
.
that's right
feel the pain
that's what you get for being a nuisance
you dumb fuck
They started get smaller and smaller, as I worked out my breathing and thinking of thing that would bring me back to reality.
I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in.
Once I knew for sure the episode was over I weakly stood up.
I look at the clock on my nightstand again seeing that it's 8:30. I sighed as I let myself lose control again.
I went to my bathrrom again and cleaned myself up. I put make up on my face down to my neck, as I didn't want anyone seeing the deep and dark bags under my eyes along with my bruises up and down my neck and face.
I finish up going to my closet, throwing on some black skinny jeans a fitted turtleneck, as I didn't wash my clothes and had nothing left then throwing on a leather jacket along with some clone and chain bracelets.
I don't know why I'm getting so dressed up. whatever.
I pack my books and sling my book bag over my shoulder. I walk out my run down apartment. this side of town is pretty rough. I never go out to late and always carry a pocket knife with me.
I only live her because my parents kicked me out after finding out I was gay. that's when bts took me in with open arms. but look where I am now.
I can't afford anywhere else.
I dread bumping into my old aquatinces but I have no choice but to Finnish my studies and then be free.
If only the would happen
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broken n crazed - yg x bts
Fanfictionbts X yoongi bts has been making yoongi's life a living hell for betraying them. Or everyone has a secret they they'd rather keep buried alive. [🍷] ℒ.ℬ
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