This imagine is based on the song Stomach Tied In Knots by Sleeping With Sirens cause I love that song and it's beautiful. It's about someone you can't live without and that applies perfectly here.
Enjoy
~X 💚
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I awake in the middle of my little flat in Brighton on the sofa again. I don't sit up and go about my day, instead I stare at the ceiling and zone out, my body numb from the pain I feel inside.
I've been like this for the past 2 months, in a constant state of misery and hopelessness. All I do with my days is sit around and watch telly, barely eating or sleeping.
The reason I'm like this is because he left me here. He told me to leave, that he doesn't want me hurt. I refused to leave, I told him no. But he found a way.
I look over at the clock on the mantle to see that the time is 6:30 pm. 'Man my sleep schedule is fucked' I think to my self.
I pick up my phone off the coffee table and open it to instagram to see how my friends lives are going compared to my recently sad existence.
As I scroll through, I see one of my friends posted an ascetic photo of them with the caption 'my stomach's tied in knots and I can't live without you'. Lyrics from a Sleeping With Sirens song that I forgot about until now.
Seeing that song lyric gave me a sudden shred of motivation to play the song on my 6 string acoustic guitar, seeing as I was already in a sad mood. I get up and head to my bedroom where my instruments live and pick up my acoustic. I make sure it's in tune and that my capo is on the second fret.
Then I start to play.
Oh, my stomach's tied in knots
I'm afraid of what I'll find if you want to talk tonight
Oh oh
See the problem isn't you, it's me I know
I can tell, I've seen it time after time
I'll push you away
I get so afraid, oh no
This song makes me think of him. How he pushed me away cause he was afraid of me getting hurt. I remember it clearly. He asked me if I wanted to grab a coffee with him. I agreed.
That was the biggest mistake I have ever made.
He said to me "Go ahead, I just need to grab some cash." I should have know by the sad look in his eyes and the tone of his voice that as soon as I stepped out of that stupid box he would leave me.
He said he didn't want me getting hurt, but doesn't he know? By leaving me, he ripped a hole in my heart that will bleed forevermore.
And I can't live without you now, oh oh
I can't even live with myself,
oh oh oh
I can't live without you now,
oh oh
And I don't want nobody else,
oh oh oh
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again
'Cause I can't live without you
Who am I kidding? I know that I'm a mess without him and I know that that's all my fault.
We meet when I followed him back to the Tardis after he saved me from being killed by a Cyberman. I always liked a good mystery and he was a mysterious man. Curiosity got the better of me then and now I'm paying for it.
Oh, my stomach's tied in knots
I'm afraid of what I'll find if I see you again tonight
Oooo oooo
See problem isn't you, it's me I know
I do this every single time
I'll push you away
Oh, I get so afraid, oh no
And I can't live without you now, oh oh
I can't even live with myself,
oh oh oh
I can't live without you now,
oh oh
And I don't want nobody else,
oh oh oh
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