If it truly is fate. | Kylo Ren x Reader.

chapter fifteen part 2

"I'm going, and that's final." He said with a firm voice. You shared a look with Rey, your plan just fell apart right before you.

Without Poe and Finn giving him a ride you won't be able to follow safely.

"You're still so selfish." You frowned.

"And what part of this selfish?" Kylo questioned in return.

"Everything!" You raised your voice. "You're going alone! What about me? I might never be able to get back home, I'm going to die any day--"

"Y/n--" you ignored him and continued.

"What about Rey? Doesn't she get to fight? She worked hard for this as well didn't she? And Vicrul? He risked his life to make sure your plan all works out and..." You let a sob escape your lips, you could feel the throbbing in your head but the pain in your chest drowned it away.

"I hate you." You said weakly, looking down to avoid his eyes.

"I'll wait then," he finally says with a softer voice, "...and I'll take Rey with me?"

He asked as if he was asking for your confirmation.

You gave him a nod, you felt his hand on your shoulders before he walked away.

"Oh thank god that worked." You looked up after a few moments.

"You're a lunatic." Vicrul gasps.

"Did he just go all soft on you?" Rey says, shocked. "I was sure he was about to kill us all."

"I was ready to have my head separated from my neck." Vicrul agrees with Rey.

"Good acting, woman."

----

You were laying on your bed, hoping to catch some sleep but your thoughts kept you awake, you thought about how you haven't talked properly with Kylo since you came here, and a proper talk means no one mentioning about what they were going to do.

You sat up from your bed, if you needed a proper talk you're going to get one.

As you walked towards Kylo's door, it suddenly opened. "Holy shit, you scared me."

"Why are you here?" He asked, you just shrugged.

"I can't sleep." He looked at you for a moment before opening the door wider for you to get in, after he closed the door, you immediately engulfed him in a hug.

"Why are you suddenly like this?" You felt the vibration in his chest as he spoke, "Ever since you came back all I heard was--"

"Are you really going to be affected by those? I was honestly waiting for you to fight back but it never came." You mumbled, "You changed so much.."

He sighed before pulling you away. "Come on."

You laid on the bed beside him and put your head on top of his chest, Kylo studied you, how your got a little bit thinner, your lips were paler and yet... It still seemed like stars shined in your eyes.

"Y/n?" He called, "I'm.. I'm glad I have you back."

You smiled at him. "Me too, so don't leave me again, hmm?"

"As long as you do the same."

You let out a chuckle. "I like this."

"Like what?"

"Soft and calm Kylo, Grumpy and Short tempered Kylo was good too but with this you're just a big teddy bear."

"I'm not." He scowled, "I was the supreme leader of the fi-"

"Grumpy and short tempered Kylo is back I guess." You teased, his face softened. "Aaaand, soft and calm Kylo returned."

"How are you still so positive even if you're..." He trailed off, not knowing if it was right to continue.

"I'm not going to die, atleast not now. I'm definitely not going to die because my body was too weak for my own abilities." You shook you head.

"Then how do you want to...die?"

"A heroic end would be nice." You joked.

"If you're planning to follow me, don't."

"Who says I was going to follow you?"

Kylo gave you a look, you sighed and nodded, it grew silent again, and this time you didn't bother to initiate another conversation.

"I wish we can stay like this forever." Kylo mumbled, heard drumming inside his chest. "But I guess tonight is all we can have."

"For now." You immediately added, trying to be optimistic.

Kylo nodded, agreeing with you. "For now."

You both knew that this might be one of the last moments you'll have together, everyone knew that, your own body is slowly giving up on you and Kylo was going off to a possible suicide mission.

But for now this was enough.

Each others warmth was enough. 

-----

Here's a chapter with 1k words, I'm really sorry for the wait. I was just a bit busy with stuff. I hope I can return to updating regularly soon! Thank you for still reading!