Ivan's POV:
After what happen to us kanina ni Alliah, ni isa samin ay walang nagsalita habang naghahapunan. Magsasalita man sya kakausapin nya lang ang pamilya nya or parents ko.
Nagsisisi ako. Oo nandun ako nung sinaktan ko sya, nung nagkulong sya sa mundo nya, yung inoperahan sya at nung namatay ang daddy nya.
Pero di ko magawang lapitan sya, kasi para syang basag na salamin na paghinawakan ay lalong masisira.
Napakatanga ko at sinaktan ko pa sya. Kahit sino naman magagalit sa lalaking manloloko. Si Alliah napakaperpekto nya bilang girlfriend. Hindi sya mahirap mahalin.
Pero wala akong nagawang mabuti para sa kanya. Nawalan ako ng oras sa kanya at maling natuon to sa iba. Habang si Alliah pala naghihintay sakin. Huli na para pagsisihan ko pa. Kasi kahit siguro magsisi ako wala ng babalik pa.
Kaya babawi ako. Kalimutan na ang nakaraan at gumawa na lang ng bagong alaala.
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Alliah's POV:
Tinutulungan ko ngayon si Aling Tere maghugas ng plato. "Madami ka atang nasa isip ngayon Alliah?" tanong nya habang naghuhugas.
"Tiya, natatakot lang po ko," sabi ko't pinunasan ang plato. Nagtataka naman na tumingin sakin si Aling Tere.
"Natatakot saan, Alliah?"
"Sa mangyayari kung hahayaan ko na naman na may pumasok ulit sa buhay ko na alam kong makakasakit lang sakin," balik ko sa kanya.
"Alam mo hija, kung ang buhay ay punong puno ng tinik at may nakita kang maliit na daanan na mas mapanganib pero makakatulong sayo makalabas sa lahat ng yun, tatahakin mo ba?" magulong na tanong ni tiya na pilit kong inintindi.
"Syempre naman po, minsan kailangan natin mahirapan para makaangat," bigla naman nyang tinapik ang braso ko.
"Tama hija, madami kang napagdaanan na problema kahit bata ka pa, pero tandaan mo na sa lahat ng hirap pagkatapos ay saya at ang ibang saya'y ang pagkatapos ay hirap, kaya matuto kang mamili ng daang tatahakin, Alliah," paliwanag nya pa.
Tinapos na ni Aling Tere ang kanyang hinuhugasan habang ako'y natambakan ng mga platong pupunasan. Hanggang ngayon kasi pinag-iisipan ko padin yung sinabi nya.
Kung babalik man si Ivan sa buhay ko, baka maulit lang ang nangyari at may iba na namang madamay.
3 years ago my father died because of me, I was rushed in ICU after kong mahirapan huminga at nagdudugo dahil nagbukas ulit ang butas sa puso ko. On the way to the hospital my father's car crashed hitting the road barrier. My mother didn't know that yet until he saw him in the same hospital fighting for his life.
I can't even imagine how my mom felt that time. Her daughter was having an emergency surgery and her husband is in a life and death situation.
I only heard the news two days after my surgery. I really wanted to go home that time but the doctors said it would be dangerous for me since my heart stitches are still fresh. If I went there, the grief I will feel will make my heart muscles to contract and it will affect me in a very dangerous way.
I visited my father after 2 weeks, right after I get discharged in the hospital. My mind went blank because the last time I saw my father I can still hold his hands and make him laugh but now I'm just talking to a pile of dirt and stones covering him and preventing us to touch.
Ivan was there when everything happened but I never blamed him for being the reason why I was rushed into the hospital. It was my fault for being weak and fragile. Since we lost my father our household changed. The twins are only 2 years old that time and they only have few memories with dad. The pressure of being the eldest daughter causes me depression, my weak heart makes me fragile and I can't express my emotion so well.
My mother ask for help and get me medicines to help me with my depression. I never attempted to take my life but I always got the feeling of getting tired of living like questioning my purpose.
Depression is not a disease, its like an invisible virus that eats our brain until we feel emptiness.
Losing someone is a different kind of heartbreak. It will drain you to very last drop of hope. It will take away everything you valued and give you no way to escape it. But there will be only one key to help you endure it all. Acceptance.
When I finished wiping the dishes I decided to take a rest. The twins are playing paper dolls in the living room so decided to join them. "Look ate, ang ganda dress ni Thalia-", her doll's name. "Mas maganda dress ng doll ko sayo Cassie."
Whenever I look at my sisters all I can see was my father's eyes. They got his light brown eyes and long lashes. They looked like asian dolls with big eyes and chubby cheeks. They continued to argue about who has the most beautiful doll.
"You know what, CC? They both looked beautiful okay, because you two made them look like that and stop arguing with each other because you are twins," I patted their head giving them a kiss after.
"Dad will be happy if he saw you two getting along and not fighting," they smiled at me and look at each other. "You know ate that we love you and we are thankful that you and ate Maddy and Mommy love us so much,"
"Of course, CC. No matter what happen Ate will be here okay? We want both of you to grow and become a good person. Can you promise me to do that?" The twins nodded and I told them to get change because it's timw for bed.
I took a quick bath before heading to my bed, taking my medicines and tucking myself between the sheets.
A ring from my cellphone make me gaze to my side table. I reach for my phone and see a text from an unknown number.
From:09568******
Good evening, Alliah. Get a goodnight sleep. See you.
I wonder who texted me. I can't reply because I don't have a load. I got a feeling that this is Ivan but where did he get my number?
Not a minute later I received another text.
From: 09427******
Hi! Sorry I texted you so late. I just want to say goodluck and see you tomorrow at the contest. :)
And who the heck is this right now? Two messages from two different number. Ni minsan di ko pinagsabi sa ibang di ko kilala nag number ko maliban kay Mommy, Aling tere, sa school principal at kay...Maddy.
I knew it she's setting me up sa ibang lalaki para dun sa kasunduan namin about kay Peter.
Well Maddy, if you want to make it this way then let's do it.
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The Last Letter for Alliah
किशोर उपन्यास☆ this is a work of fiction. names, places, events or organizations said in the story are only a part of writer's imagination, any similarity of said names, places, events, or organizations are only an accident and...
