MY COMFORT

PROLOGUE

I like singing. Kahit nasaan akong lugar kapag nalilibang ako o may ginagawa kumakanta ako o di kaya nama'y naghu-humming. Sabe saken noon ni mama may talento ako sa pagkanta. Maganda daw ang boses ko. Of course, I don't believe her. Wala kong confidence para sa sarili ko. I keep myself low. I don't want to be on top. I just want to stay where I am standing. I will remain like this forever.

"There's a songs that inside 0f my soul. It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again....So, I lay my head back down. And I lift my hand and pray. To be only yours I pray, to be only yours I know now. You're my only hope."

Pagkanta ko habang tumitingin tingin sa mga damit na nasa harapan ko. I am here, at some prestigious mall. Niyaya ako ni Mama mamili ng mga damit. May party daw kase kaming dadaluhan mamaya. Actually, I don't like social gatherings. I just don't feel like it. Mas gusto ko pang magkulong maghapon sa kwarto at magsulat ng mga kwento. Yes, I'm a writer. An anonymous writer. No one knows that I'm a writer. Even my parents don't know. This is just my comfort whenever I'm stress from work or so whatever happening to my surroundings. I don't like party. The last time I attended one, it actually broke my heart. I caught my lovely boyfriend with someone. Funny. I thought he's loyal. Akala ko lang pala yon. Boys will always be boys. Yes, they are loyal. But never be faithful. It's a curse for them kapag hindi ata nangbabae. Boys nature and their toys. Kung manloloko lang pala sila sana hindi na sila nanggulo sa buhay naten. Kung mangangaliwala lang sila. It's their pride that they are saying. Kapag hindi nila makuha kuha ang gusto nila sayo sa iba nila hahanapin. Nakakagago diba? Well, that's life. Continue living. Endure the pain. You will used to it. Then one day, wala na yan.

I continue humming a random songs while I'm picking clothes. Singing always calms me down. This is my way of expressing my thoughts and how I feel. And my favorite song off all time is Far Away by Nickelback. I don't know. This song really touch my heart. It's like, may pinaghahandugan ako ng kantang ito kahit wala naman. Parang tanga lang. I am very single. Ang arte ng choice of song ko. Siguro dahil na rin ang ganda ng boses ng vocalist. Husky and very manly. I really like mellow rock songs. Naiinlove ako sa mga boses ng vocalist.

Back to where am I. I saw a man. His eyes. Caught my attention. His eyes seems very sad. I don't know why. I can see it through his beautiful eyes. Isa sa mga natutunan ko sa Papa ko. Ang basahin ang nararamdaman ng tao through eyes or voice. If a person knows how to wear a mask. Sa boses mo obserbahan. And this man is really sad. Or broken to be exact. I wonder why?

An idea came to my mind. Since malapit lang doon kay Kuyang Sad Eyes yung jacket na gusto ko pasimple akong lumapit. And right there and then I started humming. Well, sana makatulong. My mom said to me that I have a comfort voice. A woman can hope right? Gusto ko lang i-lift yung mood niya. Gloomy kase eh. Sayang he's handsome pa naman.

Habang palapit ako ng pasimple naghuhumming nako ng favorite kong kanta. Ang special nitong si Mr. Sad Eyes. Favorite song ko pa kakantahin ko para sa kanya. Dapat may libre akong Piattos barbeque flavor, yung maanghang.

Kunwaring nagtitingin ako ng mga jacket ng magsimula akong kantahin ng medyo mahina na yung kaming dalawa lang nakakarinig. Syempre kunyare di ko ramdam presenysa niya. Magpapatay malisya akong may katabi. Hehehehe.

"But you know, you know.....
I wanted, I wanted you to stay.
Cause I needed, I need to hear you say....
That I loved you, I have loved you all along.
That I forgive you, for being away for far too long.
So keep breathing, Cause I'm not leaving you anymore.
Believe it, hold on to me and never let me go..."

I continue singing like I'm the only one person in that store. Ng malapitan ko na ang jacket na gusto ko. Kinuha ko yon at umalis na doon. I hope okay na siya. Sana nakatulong ang pagkanta ko doon. Hope your fine Mr. Sad Eyes.