I'm Not Perfect (Sequel to 'I'm Alive')

Chapter 5

It's been a week and today is my first day on the elite team at the ALDC.  Boy am I nervous. 

I walked into the dancers den and everybody stared at me, before jumping up and hugging me.

"We are so glad you're on the team" they yelled,  I smiled and everyone let go of me.

I took my crop top off, revealing my pink bra top and I slid my shorts down, revealing black dance shorts.

 I walked into Studio C with everyone else.  I saw something that looked like a pyramid on the mirror.

I stood beside Mia and Mya, the mini elite team does pyramid with us, then they go to Studio B with Aerial, their coach.

"I will start with the mini pyramid, on the bottom is Katherine, YOU FORGOT YOUR SOLO, YOU ARE 10 YOU SHOULDN'T BE FORGETTING SOLOS" Amanda yelled.

"Next we have, Kolby, POINT YOUR DANG FEET, I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO TELL YOU THIS!"

"Now, Hannah, two words APPLY CORRECTIONS"

"Moving on, Lola, you fell out of your side aerial, you are 10 you have had that move down for over a year WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU"

"Next, Yailin, you fell out of a turn.  COME ON, YOU HAVE TO WORK TO BE ON THIS TEAM, QUIT BEING LAZY"

"Now we have Isabelle, You were outshined by Mia in the group.  YOU NEED TO BE MORE INTO THE DANCE"

"Next, Mya, you got second maybe second is all you'll ever be"

"And on top is Mia, you were amazing, is there room for improvement?  Absolutely"

"Now you all go with Aerial" the little ones rushed out.

"Onto you alls pyramid, on the bottom is London" I saw my headshot with a slip of paper saying probation on it.

"You are on probation as of now because you are new, do good and you'll be off proation" I nodded.

"Next we have Abby, get your dang act together and stop being lazy!"

"Moving on, Kaley, learn the dance, it was so obvious that you were looking at Katherine the whole time during the group!"

"Next I have, Jasmine, You forgot your solo, atleat you stayed on stage and made a dance up, don't screw up again"

"Now we have, Amy, How many times do I have to tell you to point your feet?  I shouldn't have to tell you anymore!"

"Moving on, Jennifer, STRAIGHTEN YOUR LEGS!  I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO KEEP TELLING YOU THIS!  YOU'RE 12 NOT 5"

"Next, Katherine, You did okay with your solo, but I've seen you dance better"

"And on top Lewis, you were the lead in the group and you were flawless, but there's always room for improvement" I knew for a fact Lewis just came why isn't he on probation like I am?

"Now assignments, I have one solo this week, one duet, and a trio" \

"Jasmine you have a solo and you better win"

"Amy and Abby you have a duet"

 "Jennifer, Jasmine, and Kaley you have a trio" 

"And Kaley you have the lead in the group"

"Now the reason you aren't the lead Katherine is because this week I am giving others a chance, this competition isn't that big so not a lot of really excellent dancers will be there.

"Alsi London you are on probation so you will not be performing this week, although you will learn every dance and be able to recite it to me after the competition" Amanda explained, I nodded.

"Now stretch, I have some things I need to take care of" Amanda said walking away.

I started stretching by myself.

Katherine came over and started stretching with me.  "Hey" she smiled.

"Hi" I said.

"Everything okay?" she asked.

"Why am I on probation and Lewis isn't?" I asked.

"I wish I knew" she said.

"Sorry" she added.

"It's okay" I half smiled.

I walked away from her and over to the corner, I just wanted to be alone.  Soon Amanda walked in.

She taught us the group dance "POINT YOUR FEET LONDON"

I sighed and did as told.  "THAT's it 100 situps now" she yelled at me.  I stopped dancing and did as told.  I started dancing again.

"LONDON DANCE LIKE YOU MEAN IT" she shouted. 

I continued dancing.  "Stop, just stop" everybody stopped.

"London look at me" I turned to look at Amanda.

"Do you even want to be here?" she asked.

"Yes, I was doing everything I was suppose to" I said.

"No you weren't!  Now get your act together, I don't need or want you on this team" she said.

"Then why am I even here?" I asked her.

"Because of your mom" was all she said.

"If you would just give me a stupid solo I could prove to you that I want to dance" I said.

"Well you need to do good in practice before I put you on that stage"

"Well then stop yelling at me.  I don't even want to be here with you anymore" I yelled.

"Then leave, nobody wants you here and nobody has ever wanted you, that's why your mom gave you up.  She didn't want you then and she doesn't want you now.  Nobody will ever want you"

"Are you happy with yourself?  You make little kids cry just to make yourself feel better goodjob" I said with tears flowing from my eyes.

"Yes I am, you want to be like me when you grow up, I make kids stars"

"No you don't you make kids depressed, you make kids think that they can't do anything right, you never praise them.  I bet all these dancers are depressed" I said crying even more.

"You know the real reason Brooke gave you up?"  I shook my head no.

 "You weren't suppose to live this long, you were suppose to die by now.  Ask her for more detail.  But that made her not want you, she didn't want to watch you die and she still doesn't want you!  She told me.  She just thought it was the motherly thing to do, so just go back to where you came from"

"She does want me you liar" I yelled and ran out of the studio.  I ran into the bathroom and colapsed on the floor in sobs.