Dying To Believe

Chapter 1

Kellin's P.O.V

I'm missing you

I'm missing you

See myself in the broken glass

Shattered pieces fallin' down again, down again

I'm breakin' down again, down again, yeah

I've seen too much, I know myself

And I've been too fucked up to ask for help

But do you even care?

Is there anyone out there?

It's comin' 'round, comin' 'round, comin' 'round again

'Cause I feel so alone

Screaming at nothing

I feel so alone

Searching for something

Now I'm breaking down and you're not around

I get lost in the sound

And I feel so alone

And you can't save me

I hate myself for the things I've done

So hopeless, feeling so down again, down again

It's breaking me down again, down again

Take what's left, take me away

'Cause I've been too fucked up to try to change

But do you even care?

(Is there anybody in there?)

'Cause I feel so alone

Screaming at nothing

I feel so alone

Searching for something

Now I'm breaking down and you're not around

I get lost in the sound

And I feel so alone

And you can't save me

Don't look me right in the eye

Don't tell me this is goodbye

'Cause I'm missing you, I'm missing you

Don't look me right in the eye

Don't tell me this is goodbye

'Cause I'm missing you, I'm missing you

'Cause I feel so alone

Screaming at nothing

I feel so alone (alone)

Searching for something

Now I'm breaking down and you're not around

I get lost in the sound

And I feel so alone (so alone)

And you can't save me

Yeah

(Don't look me right in the eye

Don't tell me this is goodbye

'Cause I'm missing you, I'm missing you)

I can hear the echo of the last word reverberating around the room for a second or two longer before it all went deadly silent. It was around 10pm and I was in the basement, singing my feelings away. I did this often, usually when it got to be too much and couldn't keep what I was feeling at bay like I usually could. Singing was my escape from reality even if it was for a little while. It was my safe place.