how to keep your sadness // hemmings

step 5

sofia tamed me down
and i sound pathetic as fuck
but this one time at a party
i got way too drunk
and started bashing my friend
calum's
backyard.
the whole school just watched
as i made everything look
like the destruction inside me.
before i know it we were on the
ground
and she told me
we would be okay
and i think that's why now
i don't let my friends touch me
i don't let them tell me it's okay
because they aren't her
and it's not true if it isn't
her.
step 5- push everyone away even if they're your last waking sanity.