Be Alright

Chapter 1

I know you love her but it's over mate, it doesn't matter put the phone away.
It's never easy to walk away, let her go
It'll be okay....

Ano ba naman yan, nandito nga ako para maglasing at makalimot tapos 'yung kanta parang pinapaalala lang sakin lahat ng sakit.

It has been 2 weeks since Carrie and I broke up. We've been together for five years tapos sasabihin nya sakin na di na sya masaya?

I really don't understand her. I love her so much. Bumuo na kami ng pangarap na magkasama. Konti na lang nasa finish line na kami eh, tapos bumitaw sya. Tapos ngayon, malalaman ko na may iba na sya? Ganun kadali?! Ha!

It's gonna hurt for a bit of time, so bottoms up
Let's forget tonight.
You'll find another and you'll be just fine
Let her go, it'll be alright

Hayop, nanadya ata 'tong kumakanta na 'to. Sabi ko na dapat sa bar na lang ako pumunta para sobrang ingay, kesa dito. Panay kanta naman ng masasakit dito. Nakakairita na.

Nilagok ko ang beer na nasa harap ko at iritang tiningnan 'yung kumakanta sa harapan. I was about to throw dagger looks on her pero nabigla ako ng pagtingin ko ay nakatingin din sya sakin habang kumakanta.

I looked around kasi baka nagkakamali lang ako, pero wala halos masyadong tao ngayon dito sa restaurant na 'to tapos ako lang 'yung nakaupo sa may side na tinitingnan nya.

The look in her eyes while she's singing makes me think that she's in pain too. Ilang sigundo kaming nagkatitigan bago nya ito pinutol at tumingin sa kawalan habang kumakanta. And then, just before ending the song, I saw tears in her eyes.

Mabilis syang umalis sa entablado at pumunta ng backstage.

So, looks like I'm not only the one here broken-hearted eh?

For a while, muntik ko na makalimutan yung sakit sa puso ko dahil nag re-replay sa utak ko yung mga mata nung babae habang kumakanta pati na din ang pag tulo ng luha nya.

Parang may kung ano sa mata nya kanina na humihila sa akin palapit sa kanya. She looks broken.

Pero bakit ko ba po-problemahin 'yun? Eh broken din ako! Hays! Ang gulo.

Dahil hindi na mawala sa isip ko yung mukha ng babae, I decided to go home. Doon ko na lang itutuloy 'tong inom ko.

Pero pagkalabas ko ng pinto, nakita kong nakaupo sa gilid ng kalsada yung babae kanina. Automatically, my feet walk towards her.

When she sensed that someone is approaching her, she looked up and again, I saw her eyes.

"Mind if I join you?" I asked.

Hindi sya nagsalita, pero tumango lang sya sabay tingin ulit sa kalsada.

"Break up?" She asked while looking at me.

Nabigla ako doon, hindi ko alam kung anong unang sasabihin ko. Was I too transparent na nakita nya agad na broken ako?

"Most of the people I see every night, drinking alone are those broken hearted", she continued without looking at me.

Huminga ako ng malalim bago nagsalita.

"Yeah, you're right. Mukhang alam mo na kung ano ang mukha ng broken hearted, so, di na 'ko magdedeny".

She chuckled a bit that made me look at her. Her smile was beautiful. Tiningnan ko ang side profile nya habang natatawa padin sya. Black expressive eyes, long lashes, matangos na ilong at mapupulang labi. She looks.... angelic.

"I know the look because I have been broken, too."

What she said made me stop looking at her. Tama nga ako, she's also broken like me.

"That explains the tear after the song", I said without looking at her.

"Boyfriend problem? Or family problem?".

"Oh, not my boyfriend. Just a friend". She said while smiling like it reminds her of a happy yet painful memory.

"Ikaw? Girlfriend? Oh, don't tell me it's a friend, too ha? Masyado na tayong maraming friendzoned". She laughed again like what she's saying is no big deal.

"No, I had a girlfriend for five years and we broke up 2 weeks ago because she was not happy anymore".

I don't know why I opened up to her. Pero something about her makes me feel at ease. Besides, she's a stranger. Most likely, di na kami magkikita nito. So, okay lang naman siguro mag share di ba?

Hindi sya nagsalita. Kaya nagpatuloy ako.

"I was ready to ask her hand in marriage. Pero naunahan nya ako." I laughed at the thought.

"And worst part? Nakita ko sya kanina na may kasamang iba. Ang bilis naman? Ganun lang? Five years!?"

I sounded bitter but pero bumiti ang pakiramdam ko na nalalabas ko 'to lahat.

"Alam mo, they say, sometime we'll meet people, minsan akala natin sila na, kakapit tayo, kahit di na pwede ipipilit natin kasi nabuo na 'yung idea sa utak natin na, eto na 'yun. But you know, let time tell if she's really for you. Don't force it."

She looked at me so I looked at her, too.

"You'll be okay, trust the process. Don't loose yourself while loving someone. Don't force her because you might loose her forever. If you really want her, let her go. Let her fly. Set her free. And if she returns in time, that's the time you'll know she's yours. Pero kung hindi, ibig sabihin may taong nakalaan para sayo. Baka nakilala mo na sya, di mo lang napansin kasi busy ka paring maghabol sa ex mo."

And then she stood up and put the guitar in her shoulder, already preparing to leave.

"Wait, what's your name?", nataranta ako nung nakitang paalis na sya. Hindi ko pa ma absorb ng tuluyan ang mga sinabi nya. All I know is I want to talk to her more.

"Sorry, you don't need to know my name. I'm just a stranger passing by". After saying that, she walked fast before I could say another word.