LETTING GO🦋

95 - LETTING GO OF *SINGLE MEMORY APOLOGIES*

"That's cause I don't know them" she says

"No, you do not remember them" he corrects and she frowns but says nothing

"Seeing as you don't remember your daughter, Nelinha, I assume you also can't remember certain months in the year you were 22" he continues

"So I have a five year old daughter who I have no memory of?" She asks, her frown ever so present

"Well usually your memory should come back in a bit of time"

"How much time?"

"Could be a few days, weeks or even months but it's usually never permanent and there's hope for a return of these memories" he says and she sighs

"Months" she murmurs under her breath

"But why can't I remember even a fragment of anything? I don't even know how I got to Paris, I don't know how come I have a daughter, am I married? I don't know anything"

"Amnesia usually cures itself over time and relaxing is the best thing to do right now. Over time you might start to remember some of these things but it might be a very slow process so don't be hard on yourself by trying to force the memories. It won't help" he says

"I need some air" she says grabbing her crutches and helping herself out of the room

"I should go after her" I say getting up and Hugo nods

I walk out the room and I see she's not gotten very far which is understandable since she's stood in front of a vending machine just down the hall. I make my way towards her and she turns to look at me.

"Hey" I say first

"Hi" she says back before turning back to the vending machine and just staring at it

"Do you want a snack?"

"I don't have any money" she says turning to me and I chuckle

"It sounds weird coming from you" I say and she raises a brow, not following "you know, cause you're rich and all" I say

"Oh I see" she says dryly and I clear my throat

I guess now is not the appropriate time for jokes.

"I have some money, I'll buy some for you" I say and she nods

"Bring them outside then, when you have them" she says before limping away down the hall and I can't help but roll my eyes

"She didn't even say please" I mumble under my breath before selecting a few snacks and inserting my money, the snacks dropping down.

I pack them and follow after her quickly, ending up outside where I see her sat on a bench, looking down at her slippers and wriggling the toes of her uninjured foot.

"Hey" I say, coming to sit next to her and she doesn't even turn and just lets out a breath

"Are you okay?"

"I'm trying to be" she says "I'm trying to be cool with the fact that I can't remember 5 years of my life" she turns to look at me

"I really can't remember anything, I have tried thinking of significant days like birthdays, New years or Christmas but I can't remember, it's just gone" she says with a frown

"I have a daughter I don't even remember having or raising, I have a job I don't remember getting, I have friends I don't remember making, relationships I don't remember building, it's all just..." She takes a breath as her voice breaks and she goes to wipe under her eyes

"I'm sorry" I say taking her hand in mine and she looks down at her feet, using her other hand to wipe her eyes clear of the gathering tears which she obviously did not want me to see