Awkward

♡~o n e

Four years ago~

"Stupid!"
"Awe~ you gonna cry? Holy crap guys, Yamaguchi is gonna cry!"
"Pff, what a baby!"

"Stop it!" Yamaguchi shouts as tears spilled down his eyes. "Leave me alone." He pulled his knees close to him and hugged them as he started to sob. The three kids who were picking on him laughed.

"Pff, what a loser."
"I know right! Useless..."

"Hey," one of the boys said. Yamaguchi didn't respond too scared to even move or talk. That pissed the bully and caused him to kick the boy in his side. Yamaguchi yelped. "Hey, I'm talking to you!" The bully yelled and pulled Yamaguchi's hair. "S-stop! P-please!"
"Shut up!" The boy shouted and kicked him again. Yamaguchi wheezed getting the air knocked out of him and started to cough. He started to throw up with blood mixed in it.

"Ew~that's so gross!"
"Eugh! Disgusting, but it's kind of cool."

"I wanna go home," the twelve-year-old sobbed as he wrapped his arm around his abdomen. "Please...j-just let me-"
"Shut up you big cry baby! Geeze, all you do is cry! You're almost thirteen, right? Why don't you grow up and learn to become a man!" The bully shouted again as he pulled at Yamaguchi's hair more. "Or perhaps~"

A devilish smirk appeared on the bully's face.
"Why don't you go ahead and kill yourself? No one seems to like you. You can't even make any friends, for god sakes. You're a loser. Just end it all."

Now~

Yamaguchi wince from the pain in his wrists. He could feel his skin burning as he watched the blood trickle down his arm with that emotionless expression on his face. He promised himself he wouldn't do it ever again...but he broke that promise. He just gave up again. The world doesn't need him. And he doesn't need to be in this world. He wants to end it all, but he's too scared. He has a fear of death.

"Yamaguchi-Kun?"

The boy was spooked and he quickly hid the bloody razor in his bag, zipping it up quickly. "Hey? Are you almost done in there? I need to use the bathroom" Hinata said as he wiggled the locked doorknob getting nowhere to opening it.

"Y-yeah, I-I'll be out in a m-minute."
He cursed himself for stuttering.

"You okay? You sound upset..."
"Yeah...I'm fine..."

Not really.

"Okay, just hurry up please."

Yamaguchi quickly grabbed some bandages from his duffle bag. He started taking bandages with him everywhere ever since he started cutting himself again. He's been wearing his jacket more often and during volleyball practice. Sometimes the ball hits right on his messed up wrists and it stings really bad.

He wrapped the bandages around his wrists, blood slightly bleeding through. He cleaned the remaining blood and then threw on his jacket zipping it up.

Yamaguchi reached for the doorknob and opened it getting pushed out quickly as Hinata slammed the door behind him.

Yamaguchi sighed and walked out, adjusting his bag's strap on his shoulder up more.